"Drew looks at me;
I fake a smile so he won't see.
What I want and I need,
And everything that we should be"
Leah knows he's wondering why she's quiet.
Why she hasn't been phasing lately.
She thought she had a chance…
But that was ripped out from underneath her feet.
You can't resist the pull of your imprint.
"I bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
I have to live without"
She had to admit it,
Renesmee was beautiful.
She had a soft, clear, musical voice.
And a mysterious shimmer to her skin (Thanks to her paternal genes).
And she wasn't cruel. At least, not knowingly.
Leah always wondered if Nessie knew that it tore her apart when she and Jacob were together.
How much Leah hated her.
How much Leah hated hating her.
Nessie had EVERYTHING Leah dreamed of.
A big, happy, never-ending, never dying family.
A perfect boy to love her.
A body able to have children and raise a beautiful family with that beautiful boy.
Leah didn't have any of that.
"He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night"
It hurt to listen to him go on and on about Nessie.
But Leah was his friend.
And a good friend listens.
Leah always wondered if Jacob knew about her feelings for him.
He had to.
He could read her mind; he could hear everything she thought.
"She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky cause"
Jacob was just…perfect.
Deep russet skin.
Dark brown eyes that saw into your soul.
A smile that could power a city.
Strong arms to hold you
"I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight"
Leah always loved her photo album.
It could always make her feel better.
It held happy memories, while Leah had only sad ones.
Her favorite photo, besides those of her late father
Was the one with her and Jacob.
The one where she's got a real smile on her face.
She's laughing at his dorky jokes and he's standing behind her
His arms are around her waist. Holding her close.
He's laughing too. That twinkly look in his eyes.
The one that, before Nessie, for that short period of time that she was the closest girl to him, the one that only she could cause.
That was her smile.
Was.
Not anymore.
Now it belong to a adorable, girly half-breed leech.
Leah carefully pulled out the photo.
She couldn't have him anymore.
No more reminders of him ether.
It hurt too badly.
Tears ran down her face as she pulled out her lighter.
Hold the picture above it, she flicked the lighter and watched her happiest memories…
…Burn to ashes in the wind.
