I Do Care
Warnings: Contains Yaoi boyxboy. Also Contains Teenage depression. Read on your own behalf.
Pairing Luke x Jordan (Cause I know they hate each other and they would make a cute pairing in Real life.)
Jordan's P.O.V.
Damn Him, can't stand his fucking grin, pisses me the hell off, Wish I could just tear it the fuck off. Why did I agree to sit at his table at lunch again? I'll just sit here quietly and listen to my mp3….
Luke asked me irritated, "WHY DO YOU ALWAYS LISTEN TO YOUR DAMN MUSIC!"
"Helps me not listen to you and your damn sayings that Piss me the hell of and make me want to stab you with a broken pencil."
Luke replied "Damn you are crazy, but I'm not one to judge, I have my own problems."
"Yes you do, Like Being an Ass."
"Yes, people have said I have that quality, But I don't give shit what people think, they can say all they want as long as I get left the fuck alone, Plus Not like I give a fuck about anyone but me, and My girlfriend when I get another one." Luke said bitterly (not meaning to but came out that way)
The way he said it just made me shut up and lose all my anger and replaces it with sadness. What he said was so hurtful…. I've loved him ever since I met him in kindergarten…How could I ever tell him though. Luke Must have seen my change in emotions, cause he pulled out my headphones, and asked, "What's wrong?"
"Why do you care, I thought you only cared about Yourself and A girlfriend when you find another" and my sadness turned into rage as fast as It did when my Anger turned to Sadness And I stormed out of the lunch room with Luke still holding my headphones, with a "Blank" expression.
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Luke's P.O.V.
Crap I'm such a fucking idiot! He thinks of me as one of the only people that care about him, and I just say I don't care...FUCK MY LIFE!. He already is really depressed, Hell, He even slit his wrist right in front of me and jasper all the way to the damn vein, Then smiled saying it doesn't hurt while playing with the slit vein. He didn't wash it up for a long time, until I finally went Home and he decided to go to Ed's and have it cleaned up and Ed bandage it cause He didn't want Abigail To worry about it…I should have been more careful, for some reason there is a pain in my chest now that he stormed off….What should I do…? Where the hell would he be….OH GOD! HE HAD A FUCKING RAZOR BLADE WITH HIM TODAY! As Luke said this he ran out of the Cafeteria in a sprint everyone around him stared as he busted out the door. THE LIBRARY THAT;S THE ONLY QUIET PLACE HERE! Luke Ran into the library, and ran to the blonde Librarian.
"Have you seen Jordan" I said in a panic.
"Not today? Why?"
"Uh no reason"
Luke ran out of the library and down the hall thinking of a place he could….Wait, DUH! THE BATHROOM STALLS! But which ones? Luke checked all the bathrooms but the ones in the very back of the school. So Luke ran as fast as he could to it. THE LAST ONE HE HAS TO BE THERE! As he got to the door he opened it as quietly as possible and sneaked in. From the last stall, He heard a voice…all Broken and He could actually see tears falling on the ground "Damn him…..The only one I cared about except Abby but she moved away…..He doesn't care I fucking knew it, Everyone said he wouldn't stop caring for me like Ed or Jasper….Sarah promised…..Even Abigail Said he wouldn't cause I cared about him.. THEY WERE ALL WRONG!" Right after he said this Luke heard a tearing sound then Blood started Dripping on the floor. Then another and it started to pour. Luke ran to the stall door and kicked it open with all his force. He saw a face pale from blood loss and Bloodshot eyes that were swollen with tears. He looked into Jordan's Hands and saw one had a Razor blade, The one he had given him, and in the other was nothing, He looked down at the empty hand's Wrist to find it slit open, With the Deepest cut he has ever seen in person.
"Dude, WHAT THE FUCK!"
"What the fuck? I HAVE NOTHING TO LIVE FOR THAT'S WHAT THE FUCK! ABBY LEFT ME SHE WAS THE ONLY OTHER PERSON I CARES ABOUT AND I KNEW SHE CARED ABOUT ME! NOW SHE IS ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD! YOU WERE THEN THE ONLY ONE THAT I THOUGHT CARED ABOUT ME AND YOU SAID 'I only care about myself and my girlfriend when I get one.' WHICH SHOWS THAT YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME SO WHY SHOULD I LIVE? NO ONE CAN MAKE IT WHEN THEY HAVE NO INSPIRATION OR NOTHING TO LIVE FOR, CAN THEY!"
He didn't look me in the eyes as I spoke or when he spoke to me. The pain in my chest got more serious and started throbbing harder and harder. I grabbed my chest trying to make the pain go away but It didn't, and then I realized what it was…Heart break. I cared about him all this time, And apparently He cared a lot about me too. I would go as far to say I love him. Him, Broken bleeding…..Dying. It is killing me inside.. I need this to stop NOW!.
"Look, Jordan. I care about you. I didn't mean to say that in that kind of way….Please, Put the Razor down for me."
Jordan dropped the Razor to the ground and smiled and then he froze, With a weird look on his face and collapsed.
Jordan's P.O.V.
Where did everything go? Why is it all black…..Am I Dying? Is this where we go to when we die? Wait what's that noise. I hear something it sounds kind of muffled. Uh, So tired just going to close my eyes for a sec. "JORDAN WAKE UP PLEASE!" Wait that voice sounds Familiar….Luke? "LUKE I'M HERE!" Why can't he hear me….. "LUKE!" "JORDAN WAKE UP….DON'T FUCKING DIE ON ME YOU ASSHOLE!"
As I heard this I jumped up in a Hospital bed in a completely white room. I was hooked up to a weird machine. And In the corner of the room was Luke in a chair covered in blood from the waist down. His knees looked bloodier than anything else. Must have been when blood was all over the bathroom floor, He must have gotten on his knees for some reason. In his hand he was swirling my Razor around, I tried to speak but no sound came out at all. He must have noticed cause he looked up at me. Then He got a crazier grin then his already crazy grin and Slit his throat right in front of me.
I scream really loud and Jolt out of a bed. I look around to find out I'm in Luke's room, My wrist Bandaged. Then I see Luke bust into his room, With a cautious look on his face.
"Oh, Your awake….Glad to see you didn't die on me you Asshole."
"Shut up. Why the hell am I at your house and why the hell are you only wearing boxers?"
As snotty as we try to sound we both know we are glad. Him, for me being ok, and Me, for him bringing me here.
"Sorry, had to wash all YOUR blood off of me."
"Never asked for you to, you know."
"I'm not just gonna let you bleed to death in my arms, you know that right?"
"Could have fooled me."
"Look I'm not a complete asshole."
"I know, sorry to bring this up, but I was in Your arms?"
I felt a blush run across my face, and he scratched the back of his head and confirmed it.
"So what happened after I blacked out?"
"I called my mom and Begged her to pick me up right away without question."
"So did she do it?"
"You're here aren't you?"
"How did she react to see you carrying a person Covered in blood?"
"Not so good, But since you know, I cut to, she is kinda used to it, and I just took you here cleaned up your wrist after applying a tourniquet to stop the bleeding, seemed to work, and bandage it up."
"Not bad bandages either, guess you have had practice?"
"Yeah on myself, but not on someone else, kinda harder to do it on someone else but did my best. Never fucking do that again. Or I'll fucking kill you myself right before you die of blood lost."
"Yeah, Sorry about that….Kinda couldn't control myself, You subliminally stated you didn't give a shit, and you're the only other person beside Abigail…."
Right then Luke punched me in the face.
"LOOK, NO MATTER WHAT I SAY I'LL ALWAYS GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOU. ALWAYS. WHEN YOU HAVE HARD TIMES, IT MAY NOT SEEM LIKE I GIVE A SHIT BUT I DO, I GO TO BED THINKING ABOUT HOW I CAN MAKE YOUR LIFE BETTER."
Then right after he said that, He Kissed me. It was so forceful, It felt like my teeth were gonna shatter. Then he slowly pulled away with a blush across his cheeks.
"….What just happened?"
"I kissed you, you douche bag."
This time I pulled him to me and kissed him. Then Him mom walked in. Luke quickly pulled away and Pulled a blanket over himself.
"How's he doin" She looked at me and said "So you're awake. Are you feeling okay? Luke seemed awfully worried and I haven't seen his eyes tear up in a long time…"
"Yeah, I'm Just fine, Thanks Mrs. Treber."
Then she left the room.
"That was a close one." Luke said.
"Yeah. I wouldn't have mind though."
"I knew you liked me"
"Since when?"
"The beginning of 5th grade, That is why I started bullying you"
"You ass."
"Yeah, But I'm your ass" As he pulled me into another kiss.
"You may wanna get rid of that tent in your boxer's Luke, It is kinda poking me…."
"As you wish"
