I had hit major writers block trying to write the next chapter of Reincarnated Love. I decided to free write and this is what I came up with, hopefully you guys will like it, there is no Brittany or Brittana involved in this story. It's possible to have a Quinntana story without mentioning Brittany or Brittana, they are and can be independent of each other. English is not my mother tongue, so any grammatical errors are mine. Anyways, enough with the rambling and on to the story
I do not own them, they belong to RIB, Fox et al. I'm just using them for my personal fun, but will return them unharmed when I'm done.
Quinn's POV
I'm not supposed to be back in Manhattan, I'm not supposed to be in this diner around the corner from my job, and I'm not supposed to see my ex wife enter said diner with an adorable little girl on her arm. Our little girl to be exact, she looked just like her mother, except for her hair is a light brown she was perfect. Her mother is as still as gorgeous as I remembered, but her gorgeousness had more than doubled over the years, and her body is still banging even after having our child. I see them walking towards me so I put my menu up, hoping that they don't see me.
"Where do you want to sit baby girl?" I hear Santana ask the little girl.
"I want to sit in our usual spot mommy, right here." I hear the girl reply. She chose the booth directly behind me. I bring my menu down and realize that I'm looking directly at the little girl in question and the back of Santana's head.
From this view I get a better look at the little girl in question, she looked like a mini Santana with hazel green eyes, the same color eyes as the donor we had chosen. She couldn't have been no more than five years old, but she was the cutest thing I have ever seen. My heart breaks a little seeing the little girl, because I missed out on all the things in her life, stupid job. If I wouldn't have taken the financial analysis position over in Paris, I would have been a part of her life, but my greed and my need to be free got the best of me.
"How was school today Nev?"
I tried not to listen to their conversation, but I couldn't help myself, I was curious about the little girl and how Santana was with her.
The little girl smiled, "School was good, Mrs. Aniston brought in a volcano that her daughter made for her science project. She made it come to life with lava, it was awesome, then we had centers, I played in the housekeeping center with Jaylen, Jasmine, and Stephanie. How was work?"
I could see Santana nodding along listening attentively to the little girl, it made me smile to hear that the little girl was having a good time in school.
"Sounds like you had a good day baby girl. Work was good, mommy landed a new celebrity client today, it's someone that you love, but I'm not going to tell you who not just yet anyways."
I see the little girl pout, but it turned into a smile when she sees the waitress approach the table with her notepad ready to take their order.
"Well if it isn't my favorite customer Miss. Neveah. How are you today girlie? Hi Santana, the usual?" The waitress addressed the littlest member at the table.
I smiled when I heard her name she chose a very beautiful name, I wonder who came up with that name. Did Santana come with it herself or did she have help? They are on a first name basis with the waitress here, I wonder how many times they come in here. There is so much that I missed out on and so much that I want to know.
"Hi Alice, I'm good just having dinner with mommy. I want my usual too."
Santana laughed, "Hi Alice, and yes the usual, but hold the mayo and the onions please."
I remembered that Santana had a rare allergy to mayonnaise, I never understood how anyone could be allergic to such an amazing condiment. It's taking me a lot not to get up and make my way over to the booth, just to talk to them, but I know that wouldn't be a good thing to do in a crowded restaurant.
"Alright my two beautiful ladies, your meals will be right out." The waitress turned and walked away.
"Is mama Tina going to have dinner with us tonight?"
I nearly choked on my coffee hearing this, their little girl was calling someone else mama. I feel the anger boil inside of me, I'm supposed to be her other mama not this Tina person, but I had to try and calm myself down. I was after all the one who walked out on Santana when she probably needed me the most, it was a decision I regretted for the next five years.
"No baby, Tina will not be having dinner with us tonight, she's on call at the hospital. I'll tell you what though, when we get home you can call her okay?"
The little girl smiles, "Okay mommy. I just hope she can make it to my dance recital on Friday, Uncle Mike says we're ready. He says I'm a natural."
Santana laughs, "You are a natural, you've been dancing even before you were born. I knew I had a tiny dancer on my hands."
My heart breaks again, because I missed out on feeling her kick and dance around in Santana's stomach. I see the waitress return with their plates and placed them on the table. She makes her way over to me and hands me my ticket.
"Can I interest you in dessert or another coffee?"
I shake my head, "No thank you, I should really get going." I placed a tip on the table and made my way to the counter to pay for my ticket. I walked by fast hoping that Santana would not notice me. The person behind the cashier took my ticket and I kept looking over at the table where Santana and Neveah are sitting. I hear Santana's laugh filter through the air, a wave of nostalgia over came me as I remembered that I was the one who could always make Santana laugh. I got my change and headed out the diner.
I head back to my apartment on the Upper East Side, I can't believe my luck. I've been back in the city for two weeks now and I managed to avoid seeing Santana, but today she just came back into my life. I enter my apartment dropped my briefcase by the door and kicked off my shoes. I just want to get into my comfortable pajamas, have a glass of wine and try not to think about my ex and my child. I settle down on the couch and turn on the T.V I think Real Housewives of Atlanta comes on tonight, I love this show. I'm getting into the show when my phone rings, damn whoever who interrupts me, I pick up the phone.
"Hey Sabrina."
I hear Sabrina laugh, "Hey Fabray, how are you enjoying life back in the city?"
"It's good, I can't complain it's hard trying to adjust being back state side though. I'm sure by next week I will have acclimated."
"I'm sure you will. Anything exciting happen today?" She asks.
I exhale lightly, "I saw Santana and our daughter today."
The line went quiet at my little confession, Sabrina was my girlfriend while I was in Paris. She knew about my past and my history with Santana. She didn't judge me or say that I was a bad person for choosing my career over my family, but now I realize what a big mistake that was.
"D-Did she see you?" She asked.
"No, she didn't see me. I left a few minutes after they were seated, I couldn't stay there listening to them. It hurt too much." I explain.
There was some hesitation from Sabrina as she tried to figure out what she wanted to say next. Hell I wouldn't know what to say next if she told me that she saw her ex and her child together, after being apart for five years.
"A-Are you going to see her and try to become a part of your daughter's life?"
I try not to sigh, "I honestly don't know, from what I've seen they seem perfectly happy. I really want to get to know my daughter though, she seems like such a great kid."
"Do you think Santana will allow that? I mean you did choose your career over her, which isn't a bad thing, because I wouldn't have met you." I could hear the smile in her voice.
"I honestly don't know, Santana took it pretty hard when I told her that I was leaving her, she fussed at me in Spanish. She even through a bottle at my head, so I have to tread lightly with her. I just don't know how to reintroduce myself back into their lives." I tell her.
"Whatever you decide to do mon ami , I will be behind you from Paris. Just let me know what's going on okay? I don't want to come visit and be completely surprised that you're playing house with your ex-wife and your kid."
I can't help but chuckle, "Don't worry, I'm sure she's moved on by now. I just want to get to know my daughter."
"I know, anyways, I need to get going it's probably late there and you need your sleep. I will Skype you tomorrow?"
"I would love it, I get off work at six, but I should be home around seven barring any complications. I love you." I tell her sincerely.
"I love you too. Have a good night baby." She answers and then line goes dead.
I hang up and put my phone on the table and go back to watching my show. I am so thankful to have Sabrina in my life, she made everything bearable while I was in Paris. What started off as a rebound quickly turned into something more. Sabrina was different and she kept me grounded, there were a couple of times she kept me from calling Santana to tell her how sorry I was and a mistake I made. I knew she would have been better off without me. I couldn't help thinking in the back of my head what life would have been like if I would have stayed. I know I can't dwell on the what could have been, or the what would have been. All I can do now is focus on is how I can get close to Santana, so I can get to know my little girl. I flip off the TV and make my way to my room and fall on my bed, hoping that sleep will overcome me soon.
So there you have it the first chapter. This story will be told from both Quinn and Santana's POV's. Leave a review and let me know what you guys think? or if I should continue it or not.
