A/N: hi! This is my first fanfic so please bear with me and give it a try! Enjoy!


CHAPTER 1- INTRO

I'm watching Beck's profile video at 5 in the morning. It's become a daily routine of mine ever since we broke up. I know, I know. That's so ridiculously sappy but, unfortunately, it's the truth.I've been on theSlap, (.com implied) going through old videos and photos of him and me for 5 hours now. I tried time and time again to fall to sleep but every time i close my eyes... I see him.

His fluffy hair. That killer smile that drives me insane. So i gave up on sleep and just browsed the internet on my PearPad . Yet, again, i still wound up looking him up and reminiscing.

And i HATE it.

I hate it with every fiber of my bean.I hate the memories. I hate the joy of thinking of him and I hate that he's turned me into one of THOSE girls, if you know what i mean. But mostly i just hate him.

Admittedly i also, kind of, hate myself. For letting him prove that i don't have a black heart. For trusting him. For actually falling in love with him. For still loving him. For letting him through my carefully built walls.

Now look at me . I've become exactly what i hate. A sappy, lovesick, broken-hearted, desperate widow-like person.

Not that i'd EVER admit that.

It's all Beck's fault. I was used to being lonely before him. I was my own person. I could be as bitter as i wanted to be. I wasn't aiming to please anyone. It was all about me, myself and i. I was heartless, if you will. I was black-hearted. I was the wicked witch of the West. And, frankly, i loved it. I reveled in it. The carelessness was intriguing.

Then i met Beck.

Everything changed. I was still me, of course because, you know, take it or leave it. But i actually cared for him. He made it hard for me to hate him. That's saying something because it's really easy for me to hate things. Especially people. There was just something different about him. He was the only one who wasn't scared of me. He embraced my differences. He listened to me and it was like when he looked at me he saw the real me. Not just the black and the gankiness. But me. And he loved what he saw.

At least i thought he did.

Whatever i'm not going to sit and mope around like some blonde bimbo.

Or Cat.

Or even worse.

Vega. Ugh!

Now that's disgusting.

Jade West places her PearPad in her pocket and lyes on the grass, re-attempting to fall asleep. Usually she would be sleeping in her boyfriend's RV but, well, you know why. Sleeping in her room at her house is a no- no, too, because then she'd have to deal with her father. So she sleeps out here on a small hill now.

It's quite a beautiful scene. The grass is incredibly green and looks peaceful just blowing in the wind. Not to mention the flowers are all in bloom and the colors are shining brightly, even though its night. There's also this single tree that, because of the wind, is singing a beautiful melody. It's very huge and seems sturdy and strong, yet ancient. Kind of like an Indian tribe or an African drum. Intricate, intriguing yet utterly beautiful. It seems as if Jade is thinking about something. She looks really annoyed and, well, mean. Or perhaps that's just her normal face. With Jade you never can tell.

I walk back to the PPF car, it's starting to get a little chilly.

I'm really going to miss this car but my time has ended. I've been watching Jade for a while and i've seen that she truly needs it more than me.

I rub the interior with admiration and longing. Maybe i should just use it just one last time.

With that i open the door and think of a time where everything was simple. A time that, if i could, i would re-live over and over again. And with that I set the car in gear and input the date.

And then, i'm off.


I'm sorry it's a little short but its just the intro. The story is going to be told in Jade's point of view and a mystery person's point of view too. I promise the story will get much better so please just hang in there a little while. Also, sorry if Jade seems OC. She'll seem more like the Jade we all know and love in a few. If you have any questions please PM me or review. Also i would love some constructive criticism of how I'm doing so far wether it's good or bad.

-IMI