My life story
All of my life I have wanted to do something important. But I could never think of what I needed to do. But now I think I know, I need to find happiness within me. I have always felt like my life was just a big mess and now I can change all of that. My name is Alyssa and this is my life story.
Well I guess I will start by telling you why I feel the way I do. So let's go back, back into the past.
I had everything a 6 year old girl could have wanted. A mom, a dad, and just a whole big family that loved her. I had everything that is till my great grandmother died and then it was my dad then my grandfather. All of this just happen so very fast and I was to were I had no clue what to even do next. Well I kept going to school but that was really hard mainly because I could not stop crying in class. That kept on happening for many years. Then I guess I learned to live with being sad almost everyday. So I stopped crying and started feeling sorry for myself. That was the big start to the even bigger part of my life.
Well a few years after all of that happened I still felt alone and sad. So every time I made someone mad I knew it was because of me so I started to srach my left arm till it burned. I was always scared of everything that was around me. I still am to this day. Finely I learned to stop hurting myself. I learned that the Lord puts these things in front of you to just hope that you push then out of your way. Also that even though God lets bad things happen to you it's not because he hates you or does not care for you any longer it's because he loves you. God loves everyone even if they don't love him back.
Whenever I turned 10 years old I started writing songs. My mother loves to sing at our church and I love singing and writing also. I love to write songs for the Lord my God. Even if sometimes I write songs about guys.:-). I am 12 now and cry about the most stupid things but I know that God made those things to see if I would cry over them and not go pray to him. My life might be hard but it is the life that my Lord gave to me and I love it just the way it is because he made it.
