A/N- Hey guys :) So, this is my very very very very late Christmas present for Annabanana4ever. There is no real story line to this, it's just a drabble. Your not really supposed to get the story line, or what Logan is upset about. Its only slightly hinted at, so here you go, hope you enjoy :)

Disclaimer- I dont own Big Time Rush.

His heart aches. Its the gut wretching, stomach turning pain, legitemit pain, that one feels at the plummit of thier stomach when hurt. The pain is undecribable. The boy is miserable. Miserable. His heart is aching, his head is pounding. Through gritted teeth and lost, pain-pinned eyes, tears well up and fill to the rim.

The memories are still there, they never left. Where would they go? They rest in the back of his mind everyday, and haunt him, causing anguish, great mental suffering. They hide and rest in the back of his mind and remind him of them daily, spreading throughout his mind like a malignant tumour intent on poisoning every living cell in his body.

Trying to hold back tears when your in this much pain is a near possibility. The teenager, inevitably failing in his attempts to hold back tears, lets it out and a tremendous wieght magically drops from his shoulders. Like the breaking of a dam, all the water repells and spills from his eyes. He cant hold it back anymore, he cant live like this anymore, because even though he knows he's not alone and there are plenty of others out there just like him, the boy cant help but think that nobody understands the pain.

The teenager cant help that, though. He's not very open to a shoulder to cry on, even when its his best friends in which he knows he can lock his trust in, but sometimes its just..hard. He's always been more of a suffer in silence type, anyway. Opening up was a challenge for him. Suffering in silence was just another extremely annoying trait that he assumes everyone hates him for, but really he does know deep down that everyone loves him. Its just a trust issue. A self esteem problem, too. But you cant blame him, it's not like it's his fault. He's tooken so much abuse in his life its only a matter of time untill he ends up like this,

So he keeps it all inside, and bottles up his emotions untill one day he explodes. Logan's a smart boy, though- he knows its not healthy to keep it all inside. But it's just unexplainable. This time, he finally broke down and he cant suffer in silence any longer.

He was tooken away from his abusive household six years ago, but whoever said "time heals all wounds" was wrong, because sometimes no matter how hard you try the scars just wont fade away.

Now its been six years hes been bottling everything up, and his friends know he's silently suffering. But everytime they offer him a shoulder to cry on, he turns them down. Though this time, today, he's done. He finally took in the invitation. He cried on his friend's shoulders, and they didnt leave him. They were there for him, and they will always be there for him.

Maybe he will always feel betrayed due to his past, but atleast he has his friends. And today he realized they will always be there for him. Which was a good thing, because he knows he will no longer bottle up his emotions, or suffer in silence.

He's glad he's got his friends, because now hes done suffering in silence.

A/N- I swear I was just possed by someone who writes this angsty stuff. Yesterday I wrote 'Broadway is Dark Tonight' and I honestly cant tell you where that one came from either. Anyway, hope you liked it Anna :) Reviews?