Another morning in France. This place was almost smothering her.

She'd stayed with her father up until she had her baby. God, how long ago was that? Seems like an eternity.

It was just eight short months ago though. Just eight short months since she had given birth to her baby. Serena had came over, tugging Nate along with her, when it was time for Blair to give birth. Nate accidentally let it slip that Chuck was starting to recover, remembering small things.

It made Blair's heart swell yes, but it also hurt her so much more. He was remembering small things, things Jack was telling him had happened.

Her mind was numb through most of the delivery. She could see Serena at her side. Holding her hand and smiling, telling her she was doing great. Nate being excused at this part of the visit. Finally, six hours later, her son entered the world.

"Ch-ch-" Blair's mind was so numb she couldn't even say what she wanted to name her baby. Charlie Henry Waldorf.

Thank God her and Serena had talked about for hours beforehand.

That left her here now. Lying in her own bed in the apartment she had bought just weeks after giving birth. As much as she loved her father and Roman, she couldn't take their obsession with Charlie.

A sudden cry from Charlie made her eyes fully open. She instantly threw her covers back and moved over to his crib.

Her beautiful son. He was just like a small squished down version of his father. Which while looking at him hard, but worth it. She wanted Chuck to be here, but with Charlie she was okay. It didn't hurt as much to wake-up when she knew she would get to see him.

She picked up Charlie and began bouncing him up and down.

"Shh, my little man, its okay. Mommy is here." She cooed at him.

For some reason, Charlie had a deadly fear of being alone. He refused to go to sleep alone and if he woke-up alone there wouldn't be peace until he was in Blair's arms. Not that Blair minded, watching him relaxed her.

She scooted back over to her bed and laid down with Charlie on her chest. Slowly, he drifted back to sleep. Leaving Blair awake to marvel at his angelic face.

Normally she wouldn't reflect back on her past this much. As far as she was concerned her life began with the birth of Charlie. But in two days she was going back. For the first time in over a year she was going home. Her year was spent, it was time for her to go back and attend Yale. Not to mention Serena had been chewing her ear off about how she never got to see her god-son. Blair told her to have kids of her own, to which she replied: "Why would I do that when I have Charlie?".

"In two days, our whole world is gonna be turned inside out and upside down." She kissed Charlie's hair, and then sighed heavily.

-xx-

"Oh my God! I've missed you so much!" Serena was there to greet her and Charlie when they exited the helicopter. Instantly tearing Charlie from Blair's arms.

"Yeah, I missed you too." Blair commented sarcastically looking at Serena.

"Aw, B, I missed you too, but its so hard to focus with this little man in the area." Serena chimed smiling down at Charlie.

"I know. You should try working with him around. Demanding attention and throwing things," Blair looked her Charlie, whose eyes were sparkling up at Serena, "but momma wouldn't have it any other way."

"Poor little Char. Did mean old momma keep you locked away in France from me? Did you miss me? I missed you." Serena cooed, Charlie laughed in response and grabbed at her golden locks.

"He did miss you. He missed Nate as well. You should have seen the fit he had when I had to take his toy boat, that Nate gave him, away from him so he could eat." Blair's fingers lightly stroked his dark curls.

"Yeah, I haven't seen Nate around, but I'm sure he'd be here in two seconds if he knew this little munchkin was here. He adores you, yes he does." She was kept talking to Charlie as if he understood her.

"I'm famished S. Can we get some breakfast?" Blair noticed the car driver had gotten her and Charlie's things from the helicopter and loaded them into the awaiting car.

"Oh absolutely! We cant have mommy falling off to nothing. She lost of her baby weight so fast you cant even tell she had you! If mommy doesn't eat shell be mad, when she gets mad she yells at me. So we just cant have that." Serena laughed when Charlie managed to grab her nose.

-xx-

Finally Queen B has returned home to us! Looks like she brought tons of scandals with her too. One in particular in the shape of an infant. Just spotted, B with a baby on her hips with S headed to a breakfast diner. Things are out of the egg and into the frying pan. Keep me posted. You know you love me, xoxo

Gossip Girl.

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"Some things never change do they?" Blair was glaring at a some girls on the far side of the diner who were looking at their phones then back up at her. As if comparing her to an America's Most Wanted poster.

"You're hot press." Serena said while attempting (unsuccessfully) to feed Charlie his baby food.

"I don't want to be. I just want to eat, feed Charlie, then go home and unpack. Maybe take a nap." Blair stabbed a strawberry on her plate and popped it into her mouth.

"Well, you're going to have press…if no other reason than this little trickster." Serena noticed he had spit out all of his food while she had turned to look at Blair.

"Just like his dad. Cant turn your back on him for one second." Blair leaned over and kissed Charlie's forehead. "You keep mommy busy don't you? Say yes, that my job to make sure mommy never has a dull moment."

"Maybe all you needed was a kid all along." Serena gave a sideways look towards Blair who was now chewing her next strawberry considerably slower. "Sorry, its just-"

"Its fine. I'm glad he is getting better. It's a good thing he didn't forget all of his business tactics. Hell, I heard he managed to send Jack back to wherever he came from!"

"Who'd you here that from?"

"Nate…he called me a while back to check on Charlie." Blair swallowed.

"I need to gag him, his mouth doesn't stop running." Serena's face went from soft to hard in a matter of seconds, "What're you going to do about Chuck?"

"What am I supposed to do? Tie him down and try to force him to remember he has a kid? Serena, be serious. I've been gone for over a year. Chuck only remembers up to our night of sleeping together after his father's death. He doesn't know about the conception. Besides, I did my research. A person needs to come back to their memories slowly. Its like 'getting into a cold pool' to quote. You have to do it little bits at a time." Blair was forcing a smile across her face. She knew Serena could see right through it. They'd been best friends since they were in their mothers' wombs. No matter what façade the other put up, it was easily saw through.

"Blair, if he knew, sure it might blow his mind, then again, whose mind wouldn't it blow to hear they have a kid?" Serena tired to keep the conversation positive.

"I want nothing more than for him to be in mine and Charlie's life. But-God! Serena, it hurts me so bad when I think he might not ever remember." Blair stole Charlie from his highchair and held him close to her chest.

"You have to help him. Sometime's it takes seeing a person's face. Like someone who had apparently had business with came back upon hearing he had amnesia and tried to cheat him out again. Well, hearing his name didn't do any good to Chuck, but the second he saw the guy's face, he remembered. Had the guy thrown out at once.

"Then there was the time at the house when-" Serena stopped when Blair put her hand up.

"I didn't say I was going to keep Charlie from him, I just don't want him to fake a memory for me." Blair wrinkled her nose and put Charlie back in his chair.

"Blair. I want you to listen to me. I think Chuck needs to know. He has fallen back into his old ways on everything. If he knew about Charlie, he might do a complete 180! I mean, look at what happened when he found out you were pregnant. He didn't stop until he found you. You told me yourself he wanted desperately to be a part of you and the baby's life. He just needs reminders!" Serena urged the issue.

Blair sat quietly debating for a few seconds.

"There is something else too." Serena's voice was low now.

Blair raised an eyebrow at her, "What? Is he engaged too? That would just be the icing on the cake." Blair scoffed. The idea of Chuck being engaged was just preposterous. Especially since it wasn't to her. Damn! She had to quit thinking like that!

"No. He is still lose with his women." That hurt, to think he was still stuck in his wild carefree high school boy days. "Blair, we had to put him in therapy. He almost went suicidal."

Ouch. I know I've got a problem. Its obsessive compulsive disorder. But I have the new House of Night book so YAY! Something to keep me occupied until Monday. I can't even watch the previews anymore. It makes me insane. LOL. Okay. That's the first chapter. I might go back and tweak it up some, but I wanted that up for you guys to read. PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK! Thank you!

-RAWR-