i take a deep breath every time i pass your door. i know you're there but i can't see you anymore.

i love you, mary,

and you love me.

~:~

and look where

that love

has brought us.

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numb

was the only word

to describe what he felt

without her.

~:~

without you,

my heart is closed

as tight as a fist.

~:~

she closed her eyes

so that

she would not see his pain.

mary chose to turn a blind eye

to what she was doing to him.

~:~

i only wanted to find-

~:~

happiness.

your happiness.

and now we will all suffer the consequences.

~:~

he liked to pretend

that she meant as little to him

as he seemed to mean to her.

but he knew it wasn't true.

he could tell himself that all he wanted

but it would never make it true.

~:~

he could see her

but he couldn't feel her.

that was the worst way to miss her

when she

was in the very next room.

~:~

save your apologies.

your words have no meaning for me anymore.

~:~

stop right there

there's

a hole inside his chest.