Xx What Hurts the Most xX

By Rascal Flatts

Derek POV

I was sitting there crying that she was gone…my mate gone

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I could hear the rain on the roof everyone down stairs hoping I would come out

I can take a few tears and just let'em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once and a while even though

Going on with you gone still upsets me

They took her from me….Chloe she is gone because she was trying to protect me from Davidoff. I'm going to just go out there and act like I'm ok.

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close and

Having so much to say

And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'

What could've been

And not seein' that lovin'

Is what I was tryin' to do

I was sitting there with all his friends and had a fake smile. I couldn't do it anymore I just left and I trashed my room. I feel like its my fault all my fault only if I have been paying attention to where I was going…she would…she would still be here.

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doing it

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still harder, getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

My heart it hurts she is truly dead. Her lifeless body is in the ground the ground. How could I be so stupid and never told her how I felt.

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

(Much to say)

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could've been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do, oh

Oh yeah

Here I am at the place where she was killed and tears are escaping my eyes. I sing,

"Not seeing that loving you

That's what I was trying to do"

I swear I heard her voice say, "Yes I do. I love you too." I just started crying thinking…Why? Why me?