Disobeying the Master

Prolouge:

"If you join me, if you swear to serve me, if you never speak to your friends again, I will allow them to live. But if you disobey, even the smallest request, I will annihilate them Robin, and I will make you watch."

These words haunted me every night. I can just imagine Slade here saying this to me over and over again. I was scared for my friends. I had done what I thought was right. After all, I fought for them, didn't I? They think I'm insane, and that more happened while I was Slade's apprentice. Even Starfire can tell something had changed inside me. There was too much fear of losing my friends. Do I still consider Slade's demand for being his apprentice? No. Never.

Although, I do sometimes get bored with playing the "hero" all the time. It's almost too easy. Maybe being a villain wouldn't be so...NO! I need to stop thinking these things! Batman had taken me under his wing to save people, not destroy them, and besides...shouldn't I trust Batman's word? I did leave Gotham to find my own path, and what if my path is totally insane? As to being the world's greatest villain?

I go over these thoughts often as I lie on my bed. There's so many possibilities of who I think I should be. Maybe that's why Slade wanted me. To just manipulate me to becoming something I wasn't sure of, and how could I trust him? No. I will never be his apprentice again. I mean he's dead...isn't he?