Jyn glanced at Cassian across the table in the middle of their briefing and she caught him biting his lips. Why did he have to do that right now? It was really distracting.
Almost as if he sensed her looking at him, Cassian's eyes caught Jyn's from across the table and he lifted the corner of his lips ever so slightly.
Her palms began to sweat and she looked away, back to Draven as he droned on about how their next mission. To be honest, Jyn hardly paid attention the entire time they had been in this meeting.
It was Cassian's fault. He kept distracting her every time she looked at him. Damn his sexy existence. Jyn had never been affected by a man - or his lips - in this way before and it was getting really out of hand.
By the time the briefing was over, she was the first one out the door, determined to put some space between herself and the handsome captain. Unfortunately, she didn't get too far before the sound of his familiar boot steps followed her out the door.
"Jyn, wait!"
She closed her eyes momentarily and whispered, "Oh, kriff," before turning around to greet him with a small smile. "Cassian. What is it?"
He slowed when he reached her and reached out, placing his hand on her shoulder, concern etched in his features. "Are you alright? You seemed a little out of it during the briefing."
Cassian's touch was soft and Jyn reveled in it. For a long time, she'd been touch starved and couldn't recall the last time anyone had laid their hands on her without malicious intent, save for the day she lost her mother and father.
Such a traumatic experience had burned onto Jyn's mind and as she grew up, she sadly grew away from things like kindness, compassion and love. Yet, being here on Hoth, with the rebels and more importantly, her fellow Rogue One crew, Jyn had found a family.
Baze and Chirrut affectionately called her little sister, Bodhi saw her in the same way and had also become her best friend. Even K2 warmed up to her after a while. But Cassian...Cassian was different. With him, she felt an intense attraction. An attraction that was beginning to really disrupt her life.
"I'm fine. Just a little distracted by hunger, I guess."
Cassian chuckled as he moved his hands from her shoulders. "So am I. How about we get some lunch?"
"Sure." She nodded and her fingers twitched as she noticed the softness in his face. Having known him for three months, Jyn had noticed that Cassian began letting his guard down a lot more. Particularly, around her.
They walked to the mess together and Jyn felt relief in her belly when she saw Chirrut and Baze sitting at a table. Good. She wouldn't have to sit alone with Cassian and look into his eyes every time he spoke - because, let's face it, if she had, she probably would end up getting lost in his eyes and kissing him in front of everyone. That just wouldn't do.
Of course, he just had to bite his lip as they were standing in line to get their food - honestly, what reason was there to do that? It's not like their choices were vast. Sometimes, she wondered if he did it on purpose because he knew it drove her crazy.
Once they seated themselves at their friends' table, Jyn's eyes kept flicking to the stubble on Cassian's chin. She wondered what it would feel like to brush her fingers against the coarse hairs and kiss him the way he always did in her dreams. Or to run her tongue against his skin and hear him tremble beneath her.
Her mind was so not on her food.
Maybe she would have fared better if Cassian hadn't started biting his lip - again! - and naturally, Jyn's eyes zeroed in on his mouth like a missile locking on to a target and she barely held back a moan.
It was distracting as hell and Jyn's hands clenched into fists. Before she knew what she was doing, she slammed her hands on the table and growled out, "Stop biting that fucking lip!"
Oops.
The entire mess hall silenced almost immediately and everyone's head turned in her direction.
She blanched as everyone at her table stared at her as well. Baze's mouth was swollen on one end because of the food he was chewing and he had his eyebrows raised, Chirrut sipped his tea calmly and even though he was blind, Jyn had a sneaking suspicion that he could see the faint pink blush on her cheeks because he was smiling.
Bodhi had his hand over his mouth like he knew the reason why she yelled at Cassian, but he didn't say anything - his widened eyes said a lot, though.
Jyn's palms began to sweat and she opened her mouth to say something, but no words came out. She looked down at Cassian as his brown, questioning eyes met her green ones. He looked concerned and touched her arm. "Jyn, what's wrong?"
"I..." She tried to answer, but the words got stuck in her throat. The feelings she had towards Cassian were something to be spoken of in private, when they were both alone. In her dreams, she imagined telling him how much he meant to her and experiencing unparalleled delight when he tells her that he feels the same.
Unfortunately, there were too many people here, too many eyes watching her now. Jyn felt exposed, so she did the only thing she could think of. She ran.
