This is my first x-files story- it is set after the episode "Aubrey". Scully's thoughts after talking to a women who is having an affair with her boss.
It is 1st person pov, but only scully's thoughts
Disclaimer: I don't own anything
The words in italics are the lines from the episode.
Complicated
Scully: Things must be difficult for you now, I've had feelings for people I've worked with. Inner office relationships can be complicated.
Scully's thoughts
'I know that better than ever now. My life is almost more complicated than yours, and you're pregnant.'
At least you know that he loves you. I don't know what Mulder feels, or thinks. I only know that I love him.
I want him, but we're partners. We're friends. That's all we'll ever be. I guess I lied, because I have feelings for Mulder. I know what it feels like, sort of.
If only he would show some sign. Any sign. He isn't married. He isn't in a relationship, it would be easier. It could be easier.
Only he thinks of me only as a partner, a friend at best. We are close, but not that close. Not the way I want to be.
I've wondered if he might, several times. I look for any little sign. Like, when he waited for me, after Duane Berry. Or when we were investigating that case with the beef and the Church of the Red Museum. (an:/ this is the episode "Red Museum" in season 2)
We were eating at this barbeque place, Clays. We were talking about this case, and I had some sauce on my face. He leaned over, across the table, casually and wiped it off of my face.
It was a tender gesture, one that I loved. For a minute, I chewed and stared at him, a tiny smile on my face, then I changed the subject. No need to see how much I craved his touch.
I wonder if I'm just grasping for straws, but at least I see him. At least I get to work with him. At least I have his friendship. That is the least that I can have.
