Why Are You So Afraid of Santana?
(I do not own Glee or any of the characters.)
The 2010 holidays had come and gone. Rachel Berry was out in the mall at the after Christmas sales trying to cheer herself up after Finn broke up with her. Her holidays had been the worst ever.
She was window shopping, intently staring at a pair of high heeled boots when another shopper looking though the same window bumped into her.
"Excuse me, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to bump into you," said the other shopper as Rachel started to apologize for being in the way.
Rachel was standing face to face with Quinn.
"Oh, Rachel, I didn't see you standing there," Quinn apologized.
"No, no, don't worry about it. I've been standing here too long staring at those boots anyway. Did you have a good Christmas?" Rachel asked.
"Yes and no," said Quinn. "My father's gone, so it was just my mom, my sister and her family, and myself. The holidays made me miss Beth even more. Do you know if she had a good first Christmas?"
"Actually, Quinn, Beth didn't have a First Christmas, she had a First Hanukkah. Like me, Shelby is Jewish," Rachel said.
"Oh, I forgot," exclaimed Quinn. "Since Puck is Jewish, that makes Beth half Jewish, so I'm glad that she is learning about her heritage. Did you get to see her?"
"Yes, I saw her on the last night of Hanukkah. She has blond curls, is sitting up on her own, and has two lower teeth. Quinn, she's a miniature clone of you, all the way down to your hazel eyes."
"Did you have a good Hanukkah?" Quinn asked Rachel. "I know that Finn broke up with you right before winter break."
"No, it was pretty bad. My dads even offered to take me to New York for the holidays, but I didn't even want to do that. Have you seen Finn? I've been so worried about him."
"No, I haven't seen him, but from what Sam tells me, he's taking this very hard. It was just this time last year that I hurt him in the worst possible way. We've both loved him, and we've both cheated on him with his best friend."
"From what Sam says, Finn thinks that your making out with another guy while you were in an exclusive relationship with him was like stabbing him in the back. But to do it with Puck was like stabbing him in the back and deliberately twisting the knife."
"I feel the same way about Santana," Rachel said. "If he had done it with you it would've been easier to take. He loved you at one time. But to do it with Santana, she's everything that I'm not."
"What do you mean?" asked Quinn.
"Well look at her," said Rachel almost surprised. "She has those perfect long legs. She's a cheerleader, and she has that perfectly shaped nose. And she's sexually well educated. She knows how to use that body to please a man and I'm still a virgin."
"Rachel, the only reason why she knows how to please a man is because she's done it with every one of them. She's the girl that all of the guys want to screw, but none of them want to take home for Sunday dinner to meet their parents. The guys want in her pants because she's bi and all teen age boys have fantasies of a three some. I've known Santana for forever and I think the only reason that she does it with anyone with a pulse is because she is very insecure. She wants to feel loved, and to have the power. If she has the power, she can't get hurt. The sexual diva act is just that, an act. Why do you think she had her boobs done?"
"But she is such a bully," Rachel interrupted.
"Yes, it was Santana who actually bullied Finn into having sex with her, and she did it because Miss Sylvester had bullied her into doing it. She didn't go after Finn because she wanted him. She went after him to send your world into orbit thus ending the Glee Club and securing her place as head cheerleader."
"How do you know this?" Rachel asked.
"Because when Brittany, Santana, and I joined Glee Club, we were Sue Sylvester's spies. I don't know why, but her main ambition in life seems to be to bring the Glee Club down. Don't you remember when we were freshmen that she didn't openly hate Mr. Schue the way she does now?"
"Why are you telling me all of this?" Rachel asked.
"Because I feel like I owe it to Finn. I not only broke his heart, I crushed him. He's been so happy since he has been with you."
Quinn continued, "Do you remember the day that you came into the choir room asking all of us girls if it was okay to say no? We all knew that you were pushing the limits with Jesse. Santana had already tired to get Finn to lose his virginity with her, but he shot her down. When you came in asking questions about how far to go with a guy, she took the information straight to Finn and implied that you two were already doing it."
"Santana knew that deflowering Finn would rock your world and you would quit. Glee couldn't win without you; Glee would lose at Regionals; Principal Figgins would disband the club; Miss Sylvester would be happy, and reward Santana with my old job. It was a slam dunk."
"Santana only wants Finn now because he's the quarterback and to hurt you. If the Beiste cuts Finn as quarterback, Santana would dump him like a hot potato. Then she'll be after Sam."
"Dating the quarterback, any quarterback increases her creds around here. And she steps on people only to make herself feel like a big shot. It's what bullies do." Quinn concluded.
"Does she hate me that much?" Rachel asked.
"It wouldn't have matter who you were dating. It could have been Jacob Ben Israel for all that matters. Santana knew that you're the key to Glee, and Miss Sylvester offered her the chance to be head cheerleader if she brought Glee down."
"For what it's worth, Santana told Brittany who told me that she had to twist Finn's arm to do it with her, and he was the only guy that she had ever been with who felt worse afterwards," Quinn concluded.
"Do you think that I've a chance of ever getting him back?" Rachel asked Quinn.
"I don't know. Trust is a huge thing with Finn and he feels like you hurt him deliberately in a way that you knew would hurt him the most. Like I said, twisting the knife."
"Quinn, he was dating you when he kissed me, isn't he being a hypocrite about this?
"Yes, and no," said Quinn, I think that the intent was different. He was already pulling away from me, and he did not make you with the intent of hurting me deliberately like you did with Puck. I think he was already planning on breaking up with me for you, when I told him that I was pregnant. Then he stuck by me because he thought that it was the right thing to do."
"Flirting with you later with the intent of keeping you in Glee Club so he could get a music scholarship, he was using you. That was cheating, but he wanted to go to college and provide for his kid and he saw you as his ticket to get there. That was wrong," Quinn told Rachel.
"I never thought of it that way," said Rachel
"Rachel, what did you hope to accomplish when you asked Puck up to your bedroom? Did you think that making out with Puck would even the score?"
"At the time, I just felt betrayed, and I wanted Finn to hurt as much as I was. I told Jesse no. I waited for Finn and he went all the way with her. I just wanted us to be each other's firsts.'
"Firsts are over rated," Quinn said to Rachel. "I let Puck talk me into it NOT because I wanted to hurt Finn, but because I was feeling fat that day. I just wanted to feel pretty and wanted and I was drunk."
"When I found out that I was pregnant, I didn't want Puck in my life, I didn't love him. I wanted Finn, so I lied. I'll always love Finn, but I've done too much damage to him."
"Rachel, the best advice that I can give you is to try and earn his trust again, and give up keeping score. Finn may not be the sharpest tool in the shed, but he's the kindest, decentness guy in this school. It's going to take him sometime to trust again. He has put his heart out there twice and had it torn up and thrown in his face twice, but your actions will speak louder than words."
-/- This is a repost of a story that I lost when my FanFiction account was deleted. I have received several requests to post it again. Thank you for reading and reviewing. Two more chapters to go. Thank you so much Whistler Nights
