Author's note : This is a ShikaXTema actually, but it's about Shiho's feeling to their relationship. Shiho POV

Disclaimer : I own nothing except for the story plot line


Learn to Let Go

Chapter 1: When I Met Him

It was when Lord Fukasaku-sama gave Tsunade-sama the code that Jiraiya-sama left before he died, he came to my dad's research center and asked if we could find any clues in the codes. The first time i saw him, i got attracted to him, he seem more mature than his real age-it's about 16 i guess-his lazy and relaxed attitude, his intelligence, his muscular voice, and ofcourse, his face. He was quite handsome, everybody would notice that, and above all of them; his smile. I could feel my check blushing whenever he smiles, eventhough i knew that his smile wasn't directed to me, im just...happy to see it.

We work together for a quite long time to encrypted the codes Jiraiya-sama had left behind, we worked with Sakura, and Naruto sometimes come to help too, we spent a lot times together, sometimes we even hanging out somewhere. During that time, i've figured a lot about his personalities. He is lazy, doesn't like to do any work, he's very nice, loves to laugh, he really cares about his friends, and a very responsible man.

I really enjoyed whenever I was around him, and I started to realized that Im not attracted to him, I love him. I loved him because his personalities, i love him because we had spent a lot time together and I enjoyed to be near him, and the last but not least, I love him because of his appearance.

I knew, I knew for sure that I'll never make him mine, I'm not attracting at all. I look like a total nerd, and I am a total nerd. Shikamaru was considered as the 'popular guys among the girls' and there's no popular and cool guy that want to go out with an ugly nerd like me. And I've never been so good with people around me, I don't have many friends, and the friends I have don't count me as their bests, they didn't come at me when they have problems or something like that, it made me feel kinda.. abandoned?

I don't even know why I could be this close to Shikamaru, once again, he's in the 'cool guys' group. But he's very nice to everybody afterall, so maybe it was the reason why i could get this close to him

I always tried to get rid of this pain in my chest everytime i remembered that he's never going to be mine, I've been accustomed to this kind of feeling so it wasn't very hard


It's a nice, bright day today when we, eventually, find out what the codes mean. Naruto isn't here, he's in a sage mode training with Lord Fukasaku-sama. "The real one is not among them," that's what the codes said. Eventough we already encrypted it, we still don't know what that sentence means.

I'm feeling very happy that I'm able to help him and he 'thankyou'ed me a lot of times! I can feel these butterflies inside my stomach started to dance, but I don't take that 'thankyou' very seriously because I know that he decided that there's nothing between us, we're just a good friends.

When we just about to bring the meaning of the codes that we've just figured out to Tsunade-sama, suddenly there's a big 'BANG' sounds everywhere, then we go to check the situation and we realize that someone or something is attacking Konoha, we are very panic that time as everything starting to ruined, he trying to calm down and thinking what we must do now

"Okay, Sakura! go check out the injuries and take care of them, then go to the hospital immediately! they must be very busy now" he said, looks like he is sure about what he's saying

"Shiho!" I jerked as he calls my name, "go tell the Hokage eventough i know that she already knew what happen! and tell her the meaning of the codes"

"A..and where are you going?" I ask, worried

"I'm going to help the others" he give 'that smile' to convince me, "now get going!"

"O-okay!" I'm heading towards the Hokage's building immediately


When I reached the Hokage's office I saw many peoples there, there are ANBUs, also chuunins and jounins. Lady Tsunade were giving them orders and she looked kinda panic too

When she were done with them, I tell her the meaning of the codes immediately and she frowned,

"I really have no idea about this, Shiho" she say

"Me too, Tsunade-sama. But now we should place the village and the villager's safety in priority! We could talk about this later!" I say, failing to act calm

"Yeah, you're right. Shizune! tell one squad of the ANBU to get help from Suna!"

"Alright, master!" Shizune say then leaves Tsunade-sama's office

"S..Suna?" I ask, I'm currently thinking about a certain girl from Suna, "isn't that too far?"

"Yes you're right, but at least we need some of their ninjas to help rebuilding our village if this damn attack is over, besides we have the best amity with Suna than any other villages" Tsunade giving me a hasty explanation

I can't think of anything, if she is going to this village..then..ARRGGHH! I must forget about this for a while, the village is in the middle of war right now!

"Lady Tsunade, did you know who attacked us?"

"Yes, it's the Akatsuki, now Shiho! go back and help the others and be extremely careful please! I need to protect you and all of the villagers, it's my job afterall" Tsunade exclaimed

"Yes, Tsunade-sama!" I replied and get out of her room and running towards the research center, I'm running through the BIG chaos, "Dad, please be okay, please!..." I preventing myself not to cry

And since that, my REAL suffering and pain start...

To Be Continued


Actually Im planning that this' going to be a one-shot, but it's really hard for me to make a one-shot -_-

And I'm planning on make this a sad-love story, poor Shiho :'(

R & R please!