What A Difference A Song Makes

Author: Beth

Disclaimer: Yeah right....If I owned them, trust me they would not be where they are
now.

Summary: Listening to the radio brings clarity to our charming duo.

Spoilers: Boomerang I & II

AN: This is my very first fanfic, so please be gentle. I know it is set in Season 5, but I was watching Boomerang the other night while listening to this song. The song is "Angel" by Aerosmith. I hope they don't mind me borrowing it for a bit. It is my hope that I am staying true to the characters, and I don't mean for them to sound bitchy or whiny. I just tried to put myself in their shoes and react. Since I have no beta reader, the mistakes are all mine. I am also writing both Mac and Harm' POV. If it gets confusing, let me know. Anyway, on with the story.


1130 ZULU

Sydney Harbor

Mac's POV

Having just got off the ferry, Mac had no idea what to do. She just couldn't get the scene out of her mind.

Flashback

Harm: "In any language, what man understands a woman?"
Mac: "You're referring to me? Oh, let me guess, you don't understand why I was at the beach with Mic."
Harm: "That opera house is beautiful isn't it?"
Mac: "Smashing. So, what bothered you, that I went to the beach with Mic or that you thought I was topless?"
Harm: "You weren't?"
Mac: "Harmon Rabb! You're a prude!"
Harm: "I am not! Look, I don't care if you wanna go topless."
Mac: "You do if it's in front of Mic."
Harm: "You work with the guy Mac! You wouldn't go topless in front of me would you?"
Mac: "Is that a request?"
Harm: "You know they wrote eternity on this bridge on New Year's Eve?"
Mac: "Is that how long we're going to wait?"
Harm: "Mac..."
Mac: "We're not in Washington any more, we're not even on the same continent."
Harm: "That doesn't change who we are."
Mac: "Most men would disagree with you."
Harm: "I know, I disagree with me sometimes too."
Mac: "But you still can't let go."
Harm: "Not yet."
Mac: "Your just like this with me aren't you?"
Harm: "Yeah, only with you."
Mac: "I suppose I should be flattered."
Harm: "You should Sarah."

End Flashback

I can't believe I just did that! I gave my heart to him, and he just threw it back. I just don't know what to do now. How and I going to face him now? He is my best friend. How can he not know I love him!

'Maybe because you never told him directly.' The little voice in her head whispered.

"AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!!"

Lost in her own thought, Mac slowly made her way back to the car not realizing at the same moment, Harm was doing the same. She opened the door and got in. Once inside, the tidal wave of emotions overcame her, and she collapsed on the steering wheel and began to cry.

Harm's POV

With his head in the clouds, Harm made his way to his vehicle. Before he realized it, he was sitting in his car. "How did I get back to my car!" he wondered. Pushing such trivial thought away, Harm began to replay the events of the night.

Flashback

Mac: "Is that how long we're going to wait?"
Harm: "Mac..."
Mac: "We're not in Washington any more, we're not even on the same continent."
Harm: "That doesn't change who we are."
Mac: "Most men would disagree with you."
Harm: "I know, I disagree with me sometimes too."
Mac: "But you still can't let go."
Harm: "Not yet."
Mac: "Your just like this with me aren't you?"
Harm: "Yeah, only with you."
Mac: "I suppose I should be flattered."
Harm: "You should Sarah."

End Flashback

Slamming his hand on the steering wheel, Harm began his tirade. I'm and idiot! A complete ass! How could I just do that to her! Mac, in not so many words, offered me what I have been fantasizing about for the last 4 years! I should be back at our hotel making love to her at this very moment, but nooooo, I had to go and push her away. To make matters worst, I reenacted the murder wit her. God, I am such and idiot. Why can't I jut tell her that I love her!

Mac's POV

Drying her eyes, Mac steeled herself. I will not let him do this to me. I will not give him the satisfaction of knowing that he hurt me once again. It is time I forget Harmon Rabb Jr. All he does is cause me pain and heartache.

'You know that's not true. Jut look at all the good memories you two share. Remember the promise you both made. There is always hope.' The little voice in her head tried to be a voice of reason, but Mac's heart wanting nothing to do with it.

But is there any hope left in me. I don't know if I can keep doing this....If my heart can take the beating. I don't know if I can survive the next time he rejects me again. You know what! There won't be a next time. It is time to put an end to this once and for all.

Putting the key in the ignition, Mac pulled the car out and started back to the hotel. Her kick-ass marine persona firmly in place. Pulling onto the secluded road, Mac turned on the radio. It was a feeble attempt to forget the events of the evening. She quickly found a good rock station, and that's when her resolve cracked......

Harm's POV

Rubbing his hands after going 20 rounds with the steering wheel, Harm made himself a promise. I will not let this go. Mac deserves so much more than what I have done to her. I have to find a way to make this right.

Pulling the tattered picture of him and his dad out of his wallet, Harm said a silent prayer. Please dad, you have always been there for me, in spirit, when I needed you the most. Well, dad, I need you now. More than ever before. Please help me to find a way to express to Mac how I truly feel, I have never been good at relaying my emotions to others. It is so much easier to shut people out. That way, I can never feel the pain I felt when I lost you. But what I feel now is almost 10 times worst. Mac is my heart and soul. She captured it the first day we met in the Rose Garden. Time and time again, I have found ways to push her away. Please let it not be too late to make amends.

Harm started the car and began the journey to the hotel. Sighing, he turned on the radio with the hope of banishing the events of the night into oblivion, and that's when he heard it......


AN: Well what do you think? Would you like to see more? I have more if you want it. You just have to let me know