This takes place in modern times and is in fact a Naruto High School story. Each character is in their shippuden form and have absolutely no ninja abilities whatsoever.
Hinata is a high school student trying to cope with not only; failing grades, a separating family and influential friends, but as well as God, a sexual addiction, horrible temptations, and now a troubled teen named Naruto.
This story does in fact contain many religious and sexual subjects that some people might find offensive. I do not wish to offend nor force any religious views on anyone.
If you do not like this story, do not read it.
The Devil's Violin
Chapter 1: Introduction
To Do the Deed, or Not Do the Deed
Hinata's POV
Honestly I don't understand why I'm not like them…Sakura told me it was because I wasn't confident, Ino says I need to dress more…well for the guys…and TenTen just said I need to just be myself. How useless is that! I mean, "Myself" is the exact same thing I want to change and she just doesn't understand that. I don't know, it's my senior year, what makes me think that it is going to be any different now than it was four years ago? I've never had a boyfriend, the only guy who was ever interested in me was Kiba and all he wanted was to get me in bed with him. I don't know, maybe I made a mistake…I mean all I had to give him is my virginity and I can say "Sorry, me and my boyfriend have a date tonight." or "I am just going to prom with my boyfriend" I have wanted to call someone my boyfriend ever since fifth grade. Now I can, just by giving a guy I barely know the only thing I have to offer…nothing special...All three of my friends gave theirs up and it seems to work for them. Even Hanabi! My fucking little sister! She and Konohamaru have been in the sheets for at least a month now. Kiba still wants me so I might as well just get it over with right? I guess my future husband isn't that important, why wait for him? I always hear about great men who wait till marriage but has anyone ever even met one? I sure as hell never have… maybe they're like Santa Clause, just a fucking myth for parents to tell their kids to make sure they don't come home pregnant on a Saturday night.
When I asked Hanabi, what would God think about her sleeping around, she just laughed, literally laughed, in my face. I can actually remember the way she scoffed and raised her middle finger to the Lord Himself. "God?" She snorted, "I sure don't see Him smiting me down. If God was really there, let alone pissed, he sure as hell isn't stopping me!" I honestly couldn't think of a response to her because well…she was right. Her life was pretty good and she has been breaking the Commandments since the day she was born. Meanwhile I've been keeping my nose clean and legs together, and look what it has gotten me… Jack Shit! Almost none of my prayers have been answered, I have about 5 friends, and oh yeah I'm a Fucking laughing stock because I am one of the few virgins left in my entire class. After I turned Kiba down he told everyone that I was a "Bible thumping virgin" who, instead of praying, could be doing something much more useful while on my knees. The only upside is that it had attracted the attention of a few guys, all trying to, "taint a virgin" but once they heard I was saving myself, they high tailed it out of there. Ino says she doesn't know how I do it. She says that if she was in my position she would pull her hair out and then proceeded to ask me if I ever "do the deed myself" I of course denied it but... I was lying through my teeth. I actually "do the deed" quite often, more often than I would like to admit, so much so that I have become somewhat of an addict. I "do the deed" and feel nothing but pleasure and bliss for a short while but it is always followed by hours of regret and self loathing. I never understood drug addicts until I realized I was one myself. I would say that if a person is aware of the damage it causes and wishes to change then just simply stop but... You Can't Stop! Your mind won't let you think clearly until you partake in you hellish pleasures again. No matter what you tell yourself, "I won't do it again, this is the last time!" it never is. Once you feel that urge and it is strong enough, you just…give in…I've even found myself wanting to "do the deed" in church. Church for God sakes! That is supposed to the place of the most purest of thoughts and I am thinking about…That!
Maybe I'm meant to give myself to any guy that will have me, maybe that is my purpose in life! I am supposed to make one drunken guys night and then just be forgotten and move on to the next one. Hell, Sakura says all the guys drool over my body, might as well give them what they want right?! What's the harm? I will admit it, not to be conceited, but I do think as myself as good looking. I've noticed I'm thinner than a good chunk of the girls and I'm known for, to quote Kiba, "The best rack in the senior pack". I never thought of my breast as being large but once he said that I started to notice some of the other girl's "qualities" and he was right. I definitely did have bigger...Yeah... I try and hide them with sweatshirts and such but it is still rather obvious to me and most of the guys. Now don't get me wrong, unlike what many people think of my I'm not a prude! I like being thought as sexually attractive, what girl wouldn't right? But when it comes to actually sleeping with a guy...that's where I have to be a little prudent. Against most people's beliefs, I'm not saving myself for the sake of my husband. That's right! I'm not doing it for him, my family, or even God! I am trying to save myself for well…myself! I just want to know that I am strong enough to say no, to not let every guy feel me up. I want to know that I am worth living…it may not make much sense to those around me but it doesn't really matter if they understand or not, it is for me and only me! Oh well…Maybe things will change sometime soon. Maybe God with send me a miracle of my own…
