Disclaimer: Damon Salvatore(L.J. Smith's character) is the inspiration of this story. Only the inspiration.

L.J. Smith owns the Vampire Diaries.

Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight Saga.

In short... I don't own the amazing books.


Hey, whoever you are reading my story. I'm bored so I decided to write about my life in the past… how many years it is anyway? Oh yeah…

It's been 146 years of living. Present time is April 26, 2010, Monday.

I've been change into a vampire when I was 17. Yes, you had read it right. I've been 17 since 1864. I'm damned into this oh, so, wonderful life. Called immortality.

If you don't believe me, fine then. But I'm telling you this, these happened to me. If these were pure imagination it would probably start in the forest. With me, wandering around and alone like an idiot but I'm not.

I'm in a public comfort room. So my sister is entering the picture now. Oh, I forgot to write my name.

My name is Isabella Marie Swan. Call me Bella. Or else… anyways, my sister's name is Tanya Swan.

Well she was Denali, but we got her adopted, she's 18 yrs. old. Our parents-yeah right-are Charlie Swan, my pathetic mortal father, And Renee Swan, my mortal, crucial mother. I don't regret being bitter to them. It's better off that way to people and me.

On with my story, so yes. We are in a public comfort room. Doing our make-ups on last minute, for our 'date'. See, we're young and dumb back then.

I remembered the moment we had in the comfort room:

"Tanya, my sister. I love you. Surely you don't want us hurting each other. Am I right?" I asked in a soft voice. Pleading.

"Don't worry, Sister. I'm the oldest. He will pick me. You just need to accept it so we don't hurt each other" then she smiled sweetly at me through the mirror.

The situation is we're having a little competition to this, gorgeous boy. In the present reminiscing it, I'll just laugh at my own idiocy. And take note, I'm a real sweet girl back then. Oh yes, the innocent, girly, sweet type. But time changes everything.

When we exited the room. We immediately perked up 'cause we spotted him. The boy that makes my heart goes wild. And make my world stop by simply staring at my eyes.

Matt, Short for Matthew.

Tanya spoke-up immediately, gaining his attention.

"Hello, Matt" his head snapped up. He didn't look at her though. He looked at me.

Then he smiled.

I thought I just had gone to heaven at that time. Matt has a black hair, a short curly one. His body is well toned. Just right. He stands at a height of 6'4. He's 18 yrs. old same age as Tanya. But age doesn't matter when you're in love.

"You look lovely today mi ladies," he commented. His voice is so… musical. Being I, I blushed deep red. Tanya on the other hand, is pretty straightforward.

"Can we know, now? The one that you're going to pick for the town's grand ball." she said, her expression in her face is so serious. For once, I want to give-up and surrender. But I can't. They began to talk; I kept quiet the whole time. Till, Matt raised his voice.

"I pick you, my Bella. Only you" his sweet words sent pleasant shivers to my body. I wanted to kiss him.

Oh, but now I want to crush him like a tin can.

Maybe this was a dream. This is ecstasy. I sighed. I looked up to those blue eyes and smiled. A genuine smile.

While on the other hand, my sister Tanya, is badly hurt.

"I'm so sorry" I spoke sincerely. She didn't seem to mind, she's burdening herself with her hatred towards me.

"Be careful, Sister. Have a nice day" she practically sneered. I was bothered that time, but as soon as Matt whispered my name I'm blind.

Every time I got home and see Tanya. It's bearable; we still have our talks… we're not that close though. Like before.

When the Ball arrives, I'm so excited at that time. So excited, I trip when walking. So Matt linked his arms through mine. Guiding me.

"Don't worry Bella, I'm your guardian angel." The words made me swoon.

In the middle of our dancing he pulled me out of the crowd, leading to a secluded place. A private gazebo.

We danced though, there are no music playing. It's sweet.

He lowered his head leveling it at mine. I closed my eyes.

Then very slowly, deliberately he brushes his lips against mine. It's my first kiss; I don't know how to react. So, I just let my instinct guide me. I kiss him back. My head is spinning like, crazy.

It's true at when people say.

Your first kiss can never be forgotten.

When we broke apart, he say the words that makes me fall more in love.

"Bella, I really like you" he said looking down. How adorable.

"I like you too" I replied, stupidly.

"That I almost love you," he continued.

"I. Love. You" I confirmed for him sensing his hesitation. All I can see in the depth of his blue eyes was love.

He smiled then said, "I love you too."

I leaned closer. Not wanting to stay anything, contentment consumed me. I only put my head into his shoulder. Exposing my neck.

Then he leaned in to my neck. He kissed it softly. Giving me butterfly kisses on my neck. I closed my eyes and whispered his name.

Then he bit me.

The feeling that I got is pleasure and pain. Then I realized, he's a vampire sucking the life out of me.

Boy, was I wrong.

He pulled away from me. I didn't get any shock. I'm still acting as normal as I am. 'Cause, I don't care if he's a vampire, every part of my being doesn't feel any terror. All I felt is admiration.

My neck is still bleeding though. I looked up to him. Seeing his face.

His once blue eyes, now black with thirst. His, once rosy lips are now, dripping with blood. Not just any blood, my blood.

He bit his wrist then shoved it in my parted lips.

"Drink it, or you will die" he spoke roughly. I follow his orders, 'cause I'm blind. With I once thought as love and I also thought he's saving me 'cause he loves me.

As I feel his blood, flowing slowly through my throat. I didn't feel disgusted, because in some way, I felt we are connected. The blood tastes so sweet, like a red wine.

Then the darkness invades me. I passed out.

When I wake up. I found myself lying in a bed. I turn side ways and then I spotted my sister. What the…?

"Oh, you're awake" a voice said in exasperation. What did I do?

I turned around where the voice came from.

Matt.

Instead of asking where the hell am I. I asked fiercely,

"What have you done to me?" I locked my eyes in his. He seems amused. There's no love in them, I can feel my heart slowly tearing apart.

"You're a vampire now" he said, as if it was the obvious thing in the world.

"Why Matt? Why?" I asked in a low voice. My anger is steadily mounting.

"I'm going to tell you why when your stupid sister wake up" he told me in a very bored tone. I didn't answer. I look around.

It's like we're on an attic. Spider webs, all over the place, old rocking chair where Matt was sitting. Then our bed all white and dusty, I felt Tanya started to stir. Then she bolted in a sitting position.

"Where am I? Matt?" she asked confused and all.

"Now that the two of you are awake, so you are a vampire now. Here are you necklaces" he handed as a box. I stroke with my fingers the box. I opened it, there in the black satin nestling, is a diamond pendant necklace. It's crystal clear. I peaked at Tanya's. We have the same necklace.

"That, will protect you from burning in the sun" he explained. I asked again the why question. This time he answered me.

"Because, I'm bored," he simply answered. I thought you love me! I wanted to scream but I can't. I can feel my eyes sting. I kept my face down.

Tanya that's been quiet has spoken, in a sarcastic manner.

"You're bored," she repeated sarcastically.

"It's one of the pitfalls of eternity" he shrugged. After that, he did the most unexpected thing that makes me cry.

Until now.

"So, I'm off to go. See you around mi ladies" before he disappeared I spoke up.

"Don't you love?" I asked him tears are now threatening to fall.

He looked at me expressionlessly.

"It's called pretending. You should try it sometime" just like that he disappeared. I can't feel anything.

How can these happen to me?

The room lapsed into a broken silence. But I need to be strong. So, we can survive.

"Sister, come on. We need to hunt," I said in a low voice. Wrong move, she snapped at me.

"Hunt?! Hunt!? This is your entire fault. You slut, that's all you are a cheap slut!" oh no, she didn't.

"Pardon?" My tone lacing with venom, the one that I haven't use before.

"You. Are. A. Cheap. Slut." She said slowly but menacingly. Then she disappeared just like, Matt. That's the first night that I broke down.

So that's my story. I was left, in a broken, empty state.

Since, then I become a bad person? Bitter? I don't know.

If I ever, ever stumble upon Matt, I will kill him. No, I don't think it's melodramatic.

He broke my heart and he pretended to love me and he made me believe and that made me feel stupid. And I don't do stupid so I'm now vengeful.

Moving on…

One decade ago I saw Tanya, she's feeding from humans. Draining them in death and treats them like an animal and what so ever. She didn't bother to greet me nor, look at me. I mean we're still sisters, no matter what happens. She just needs to accept that.

Sigh. I'm getting cranky. I need to leave this country.

I wonder if Tanya is still in Alaska, like the Nomads said. You know I like those three nomads. They even gave me her address.

I think she's still there, well, I might as well check it out. Do I even have the money to go there?

I check my wallet. Still have thousand of dollars. See, right now I'm in Chicago and I'm in a stinking boarding house. On the Brightside, I have a Black Ferrari. So I don't need to go to plane, etc. etc.

I packed my things then go downstairs. Ooh, there's Mrs. Rice. Eh, who cares to say goodbye anyway. Mortals are annoying.

I use the perks of being a vampire and got to the garage in a quick motion.

I hopped in my baby then get ready for a long driving. I heard the familiar purr of the engine. I move the accelerator then step on the gas.

Before I continue my trip to Alaska, I stopped by, at my favorite person. His name is Alec. He is my blood donor. I mean I don't suck blood from him. You know he works at a blood bank. Or whatever you call it.

As I enter his office, his secretary. Heidi already acknowledged me.

"Right this way Ms. Swan." she gestured to the glass door.

The moment I opened the door, I automatically smell blood in the air. Ah, the sweet aroma of blood.

Alec is sitting in his leather chair. Reading a magazine, holding his phone and a paper. He looks so stress.

"Alec," I sang. Just like that, he dropped everything. I snickered, a must-not-laugh snicker.

After he fixed everything, he smiled at me.

"Alec, 10 suitcases of blood please," I said to him.

"In a trip Ms. Swan?" he asked pleasantly, while packing packs of blood.

"Yes, in Alaska actually." I answered. Oh. Before I forget.

"Alec, I'm giving you an address. I'll call you when I needed more blood and you'll deliver the blood in there. Okay?" I asked him sternly.

"Yes, ma'am!" he answered, still packing the bloods.

10 minutes later, he's done. I handed him an envelope of money.

"Demeter." he called.

Automatically Demeter's head poked in the door.

"Yes?" he asked him, kind of scared. I chuckled under my breath.

"Help Ms. Swan to her car, please" he ordered him. Demeter immediately carried the suitcases.

I held out my hand at Alec. He took it.

"Nice working with you, Alec." I said politely.

"My pleasure, Ms. Swan. Take care and enjoy your trip." he nodded at me.

With my vampire speed, I reach my car in no time. I open my compartment and took 1 out of 10 suitcase out. I opened it and took one pack of the sweet, red blood. I thrust the straw in, and then, take a sip. Ah, blood. A pity actually, because us vampires live for it.

I've been driving for the past…as long as I can remember.

Once I reach Alaska, I immediately search the place from the given address. Wow, my sister is pretty darn good. She lives faraway from humans. The road is full of trees.

Then I finally spotted the damn house. It's big for a one person only. So I guess, she found herself some company.

Halfway through her house, I turned the engine off. Listening.

I sniffed. Surely, it's her scent. And… I sniff again. There are many vampires in there. Another sniffs again; they're a different kind of vampire. They're one of those Italian vampires.

I start the engine again and step on the gas. Yes, I'm not the one who follows the speed limit.

Once I reach the house. I parked right in front of it, with one final purr of the engine. I hopped off my baby. Should I bring my luggage? No. The luggage can wait.

I walked casually, and then I reach the front porch. Hmm, what's the lamest dramatic entrance the mortals do? Oh I know. Here it goes.

I burst through the front door and boomed at the whole house

"Honey, I'm home!"

I heard their entire breathing stop. That's more like it. I heard their whispers… oh. They are upstairs. With one quick motion I'm in the second floor. I don't bother describing houses; there are many vampires. There are 9 vampires in the room including me. I don't care about anyone so I didn't spare a glance at their faces and what they are saying. I only had my eyes on my sister, Tanya.

The look on her face is priceless. I laughed.

"Miss me?" I asked her teasingly.

"Get lost, Bella!" she exclaimed in annoyance.

"Why are you so mean to me?" I whined. She puts her one hand on her hip and then, she stands straight.

Wow. I forgot what she looks like. She's a little bit taller than me. Her hair is still strawberry blonde. And long it hung just above her waist. She's still pretty.

"Have you met you? You're a non-nice person," she snorted. So, this is a game of being sarcastic.

Hate on!

Person? Really? I chuckled.

"Oooh, 'cause I'm a vampire!" I exclaimed childishly. I got a couple of smiles and laughs at the audience of our bickering.

She didn't give any reply. She only gave me a grimace. Then she seemed to remember something.

"Have you forgotten your manners, Bella? Vampires, our kind specifically, don't come in, in other people's houses unless, they're offered to come in" she beamed. Like she can win me over when it comes to this.

"People's, not vampires" I retorted. She opened her mouth to say something but I quickly cut her off.

"Hey, sis. You change a bit. You look like your slightly sick. Have you been hunting enough?" I asked her. I'm not concern though. Just curious.

"Yeah, I change my lifestyle. I drink animal's blood now" she smiled sweetly a bit smug too. I laugh.

"What? You're drinking animal's blood? That's hilarious. You're now drinking bambi's blood? Or saint Bernard's?" I began laughing.

Tanya on the other hand, is fuming and can't speak 'cause of her anger. I took the opportunity to continue.

"Well, now, look at you," I said with all the sarcasm I could call up and that turned out quite a lot-"is that a halo? Did you get canonized while I wasn't around? Am I addressing to Saint Tanya now?" Last time I check. She was slaughtering human.

"I LIKE HER!" someone boomed. I looked around, and then I spotted the person who shouted that. He is so big! Like you know… tall and his body is bulky.

"Hey dude, what's your name? I'm Bella." I flashed him my smile. The one I use to smile when I was human. The sweet, innocent, smile. Though, I didn't come any nearer to them.

"I'm Emmett, and this is my wife Rosalie" he smiled goofily. Well, Rosalie's a beauty. She's a blonde too. Oh. Looks like Tanya have a competition when it came to appearance. She smiled a small smile at me.

"Tanya, looks like you have a competition," I told her telepathically. She's surprised at first but then flash me a look. Our kind can do that, the telepath thing. Only if we are strong enough, and I am strong enough 'cause I drink human blood.

Beaming at Rosalie, I said "Nice to meet you"

"I might as well introduce my whole family" Emmett continued.

"That's Jasper and his wife Alice," he pointed at the couple that looks so cute together. I'm not good at memorizing name. Alice caught my attention though. Because she looks like a pixie… she's so small. Wait! Jasper as in Jasper Whitlock?

"Jasper Whitlock?" I asked him. That caught his attention. His eyes scrutinized me for a minute.

"Yes…Bella Swan?" He asked smiling.

"Hell yeah! How are you?" With that he stand-up then, hugged me.

"Doing good. I can't believe you're here!" he exclaimed.

Emmett cleared his throat.

"Oh, sorry. I'm the one who helped him escape the raging bitch, Maria" I spat her name. Jasper laughed followed by, Alice tinkling laugh. Emmett continued the introductions.

"We'll discuss that tomorrow. So, That's our mother and father figure. Carlisle and Esme" they smiled at me.

"Lastly, that's Edward" he pointed at the corner at room. I follow where he's pointing at. I almost gasp out loud, the boy is like Adonis, and then we caught each other's eyes.

He returned my gaze, his eyes smoldering with an unknown emotion. I caught myself though, before anybody notices I'm beginning to act a little bit different.

Then sunrays hit the windows. The seven vampires… sparkled? What the hell? Shouldn't they burn? Oh, yeah. Because they're the Italian vampies.

That's when I remember Tanya. She's not wearing the necklace.

Stupid, moronic and idiotic vampire.

Without thinking I quickly grab her then place her where sunlight couldn't reach her. That's when I lost it.

"What the heck are you thinking!? Removing the necklace?! Are you committing a suicidal mission?!" I exploded.

"Who gives a damn about that stupid necklace!?" she exploded back.

"You're the only thing that's stupid in here." I muttered. Even though I knew she heard it, She didn't reply.

Silence engulfed the room. I look at their faces. They all look surprise.

"You don't know do you?" I asked them nonchalant. The Adonis looking guy answered. I told you so; I'm not good at remembering names.

"Yes. And we don't know Tanya has a sister" His voice is like velvet. I can listen to it all night long.

"Well, Tanya isn't the one to brag." I replied with heavy sarcasm.

I peaked at Tanya's mind. Her thoughts distracted me. I let go of the topic for a minute.

She likes him! Her insides are practically melting at the sound of his voice along. But with that looks, I know somewhere in here… Adonis has a vampire chick. I decided to ask him.

"Hey"-dang! What's his name? "Edward" thank badness! I remember.

He looked at me. That look again. Smoldering.

"Do you have a mate?" the question caught him by surprised. While his family's faces became amused.

"I don't have one." He said tightly. Then he frowned. What did I do? And why don't he smile?

"Just asking'' I shrugged. PMSing much?

"You could always ask my sister out" I sang.

Slam.

I looked around. My sister just threw me to the window.

How lame.

I quickly jumped back up. Tanya is still pretty much… fuming. I rearranged my clothes and beamed at them.

"Wow. Not bad. Have you been eating bunnies?" I mocked her with fake amazement.

Emmett boomed a laugh. Hmm, I guess I'm entertaining somebody. Weird though, 'cause that earned a smack from Rosalie.

"Get out of my property!" she thundered. Oops, I think I may have gone waaay too far.

"But I like her!" Emmett whined. I spare a glance at him.

"Very manly Emmett. Pouting?" I chortled. He smiled back. A sudden thought hit me.

"Hey sister. Come on out! Let's go clubbing tonight!" I squealed excitedly. I swear it's me it's just that… I love to annoy her.

She snorted in a very lady like manner. Jeesh, she gave me a look that clearly said I'm a girl-so-I-snort-attractively look. I merely rolled my eyes at her.

"They can't go," she said pointing at The Italian vampies. Their expression is amused like, they're waiting for our very not sarcastic bickering to start again.

"So?" I asked.

"So, I can't go. If they don't go" the family kept quiet when she said this.

"Live a little sis. Just because your life is pathetic doesn't mean your after-life has to be pathetic too." I snorted. Emmett cheered. Looks like I have a fan. I risked a glanced at Edward, and then I realized something.

He never smiles at anyone or me anyhow. I wonder why?

Well maybe he's one of those gay ass vampires. Who wears the whole "I'm a vampire, with a tortured soul" t-shirt everyday. Just maybe though 'cause he doesn't look like a dickhead.


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Whisperer.x