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My life a Bitter Apple
It all started with that one human girl. That weak stupid human! She ruined me, my family and herself in her hatred towards us. How that senseless human could ruin so much. I didn't mind now because she had killed herself too in the process how stupid! How could I let myself be used by her it was all a game.
"Hello Alice what do you need?"
"You need to go to school Edward, Carlisle isn't happy with you neither is Esme we all miss you."
"What do you want me to do? Go back and remember her? I won't do that."
"Well at least come back."
"Fine Alice. I'll be there"
She had been on my case for more than a month now so I gave in. I had left home since she killed herself and my happiness. She took it all with her and left me with a note reading: "I love you Edward but I can't take the pain of not being good enough for you and lying to you. The truth is that I was hired to learn things about you and then tell the person. When I fell in love with you I couldn't do it anymore so I lied and when they found out, the stress was too much! But promise me one thing, do not kill yourself. I love you more than to want you to join me it will get better I promise…I love you." –Ashley
That. That one paragraph broke me to pieces and I still hadn't recovered.
How one human could break me so easily. She had been the one who I could look into her eyes and think she hid nothing from me. I was so wrong in trusting a human to know what she had known all those feelings bound up that I released to her. All that trust just shattered. It hurt me so bad to know that I had loved her and trusted my whole life practically in her tiny hands. So warm and so fragile how could I do that to her? I was a horrible monster that was meant to be locked up forever in his own guilt. That didn't matter anymore, my feelings weren't important what mattered was my family how I had just deserted them in a time of crisis. I really was a monster even to my own kind. Now I had to leave this place where I felt I was safe from the pain and I had to take it all. I had to face the pain and get over it as she asked me to.
"I love you. Don't do any thing stupid while I go to my mom's house okay?" Those were the last words she said how she had looked at me with that longing and tried to kiss me but I told her softly instead, "Not tonight. You have other things to think about, your mother is sick." How she had looked guilty and started to cry saying, "It's my entire fault! It's my entire fault!" I instantly told her it wasn't but she kept on crying until she fell asleep in my arms. I was helpless to do anything but hold her there because I didn't know the reason why it was her fault I don't think even she did because all she could remember in her mind was her mother yelling at her telling her that she could have a happy life without her and she was saying she couldn't. "Maybe an argument of the many they had and she thought she was a bad child and her mother held her responsible? No, that can't be it." She stirred how beautiful she was her blood pounding through her veins I could smell it I had even become immune to it as well as most of the human population's in that town.
I kept having those flashbacks that took me to her and it was hurting me so much but I still wondered why? She was a human that had lied to me I don't know how she got away with it she couldn't block her mind but she used to always slip a little. I was suspicious for a while then I asked her and she would say it was her past of secrets and gangs that she had been involved with. So I ignored it but once she slipped up really badly, she thought about a her in a dark alley giving a guy a piece of paper with typed information about "Mythical Creatures" and the date of the printed page at the bottom had been 2007 so she couldn't deny that but she just told me it was her father that was a history teacher and like mythology that owned a shop and that was the alley behind it. I don't know how she got away with it but she did. Now I realized what all that had been and why she kept going to her "mom's house" I was stupid and pathetic I didn't deserver to live. Even it this hell.
