AN 1: Hi, Veronica Mars fans. This is my first Veronica Mars fic, and I hope I'm doing justice for all the characters. I started a 'Smallville' fic, but currently nothing imaginative came up in my mind. Don't worry, if any 'Smallville' fans are reading this, I want to say that the Season 11: Tess's Perspective fic is still in progress and it will stop when I want it to stop. I am having no intention of abandoning either fic; I just had this VM idea in my mind for so long. I just wanted to see if my creative juices will impress anybody. And that….. sounded awkward.
Anyways, just wanted to let you know, I appreciate a lot of TV series. Especially VM, Smallville, Supernatural, Doctor Who, Fringe and Charmed. I also like Arrow a little bit and my Smallville followers might know by now. I am a huge Whovian and I adore the Tenth Doctor and Rose Tyler. My favorite Fringe ship is Olivia and Peter and in Charmed, I adore Chris Perry.
Disclaimer: As much as I wished that I'll own VM, I don't. Rob Thomas does.
Shipping: Duh, LoVe. Who hates LoVe? There might be some surprise relationships in this fic, and I whole heartedly hope that you would approve.
Acknowledgements: I want to thank Silverlining2k6 for encouraging me to write fics. She read my Smallville fic too even though she didn't know much about them. Now that is who you call a true friend. You are a pure gem, you know that? And to all other readers, you should read Silverling2k6's fics, they are just fabulous.
AN 2: okay, this might come as a surprise (not), but Logan and Veronica had eventually made up after the huge break-up. Veronica might seem all lovey-dovey, but remember, she lost something precious, and that is not her wit. It's her heart. Hope nobody's out of character, even though Veronica might start to look Other Character. Lilly might make a surprise visit.
Summary: Veronica lost something precious, her heart. She gets a second chance in life and love from the guy upstairs, and she'd better not mess it up this time. She'd get to live, laugh and love, once again… LoVe, is there a better relationship?
AN 3: Hope, I'm not boring you before you read my fic, but just to say, reviews are very much appreciated. I am a girl who loves compliments and encouraging as much as the other. And since this is my first fic, it would be really nice if everybody who read through would just leave me a little message. Also, there is a little game I'm about to play. It's called Leave-Me-A-Certain-Word-That-You-Would-Like-To-See -Appear-In-The-Next-Chapter game. It's basically, if you give me a word, or two, it will appear in the upcoming chapter. So please review, I hope to keep the chapters coming in this fic.
AN 4: I'm stopping, I'm stopping. Criticisms are appreciated as well. I'd even take flames. I just need to know your opinion. I'm 19 and am living in Sri Lanka, and I know I'm small, so I'll take flames as well. Thank you and now you can read!
Logan Echolls looking cookie to everybody who reviews! Please review, everybody!
Chapter One
Veronica Mars's hand hovered over the dark grey gravestone as she blinked back tears that had formed in her eyes. She didn't want to touch it, but then again she did want to. Her blond hair fell from the braid that she'd pulled her hair into, but she didn't feel it. All she saw was the name on the gravestone, her heart being ripped out and buried, six feet under.
'In Loving Memory of Logan Echolls, beloved son, beloved husband and beloved friend. Birth 26, April 1986. Death 5, September 2012'
Veronica's eyes filled with unshed tears, as she touched the gravestone lovingly, stroking it as if stroking her husband's face. Logan, her Logan, wasn't with her anymore. They had just two years for themselves, that night when he got on one knee and proposed to her, she had hugged him tight and had sworn not to let go. She had been proudly showing off her diamond to anybody who'll see, and Logan had been happily watching her do that.
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They'd had two beautiful, love filled years, and the only thing she craved was a little baby boy or girl, that she could call theirs. A baby with hair like Logan's, eyes like Logan's, but personality like hers. She and Logan had been arguing all along about that, which usually ended up with him carrying her upstairs, fireman style, and deposit her on their bed. Her dad has been quite disapproving, but a quiet day Logan had spent with his going-to-be father-in-law had ridden Keith Mars of his doubt that Logan would not treat his darling daughter with love.
Their wedding was beautiful. A beach wedding surrounded by their close friends. Mac, Jackie and Parker had been her bridesmaids, with Mac being the maid of honor and little Lilly Kane being the flower girl. Dick was the best man, heading over Wallace and Piz. Dick had entertained the crowd with jokes about the happy couple, about how they used to break headlights, literally, to get the two together. Mac and Wallace had given Veronica's side, about her big history with Logan. Duncan had been there, looking over at the new couple with love and happiness. He was in a successful relationship with Parker, who looked at them happily as well. Weevil, dear old Weevil had been watching his best friend marry his enemy-who-turned-best friend-and-partner. Keith had happily given away the bride to 'the best man who can control and fulfill every dream of my daughter'. He was in a relationship with Wallace's mum, Alicia, and Veronica couldn't be happier as she twirled on the sand with her new husband.
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It was all two years ago. Two beautiful years ago, they'd lived happily and so in love. And now, two years later, she was a widow. She was sad and alone. She mourned for her husband, she always did, and she still did. It had been six months now, since the day Logan died from the unexplained car crash. But she still hugged Logan's pillow and cried till she fell asleep. She would look lost during the first few days; she hadn't even shed a tear when they announced that Logan had died, right on the spot. She had just stood there in shock, until Wallace came and hugged her.
She had not cried until she saw Mac hugging Dick, who was all over the place. And that's when her tears came. Her father had been holding her as she cried and cried and cried, till she finally had no more tears to cry. She started cursing Logan for leaving her alone, but then, the curses dissolved under her tears. Everybody was devastated, and everybody shed even one tear as they watched the newly widowed twenty six year old, cry herself to sleep.
It had been dark days, and now, Veronica still did cry. The nights were the most lonesome. She had missed his touch, his hugs and cuddles. She even missed his teasing. She missed kissing him and finding it hard to take off his belt. She missed how he would always kiss her forehead to wake her up in the mornings. She would sometimes dress in one of his shirts, hug herself and imagine Logan hugging her. She would sleep in his shirts and wouldn't let anybody touch them. She would tell Logan's pillow that she loved him, very very much, and that she would always do so.
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Today, she was no longer in pieces. She had had those dark days when she still couldn't believe that Logan was no longer alive. That she was a widow now. As she laid down the red roses on the gravestone, she closed her eyes and prayed. She prayed that Logan would have a beautiful afterlife. She also prayed that he would always be her partner, in the next life and the one after and there on. She wished that she could meet Logan once again, just so she could tell how much she loved him, and how she'd been in love with him for so long.
"I love you, baby" she whispered to the gravestone, kissed the top of it, and stood up.
She wiped her eyes dry, and put on her side bag again. She'd got to change. This wasn't goodbye, this was simply, 'see you again'. But she'd got to come out from the dark saggy self she was in right now. She will always love him, no matter what, but she'd got to move on with her life as well. She was sure that she wouldn't fall in love again, well, she never could. Her heart was buried with Logan's, in the grave. She'd never have enough love for anybody else. But she'd got to move on with her life, just so she could occupy her mind with things that wasn't on the suicide list. She wasn't that weak. No, Logan wouldn't want to see her so weak. She'd got to move on, and live. Even laugh. But never love. She couldn't love.
She put on her dark shades and walked to Logan's black Range Rover that was parked on the side of the road. She jumped in the driver seat and closed the door and locked it. She threw her bag to the passenger seat. She started the engine and her eye caught a picture Logan had attached to the front of the radio. It was a picture from their honeymoon. Both of them were smiling widely as Logan had his arm around her shoulders. She had a silly paper crown on her head and so did Logan, who had a mustache as well. She smiled lovingly at the picture and touched Logan's face, as if trying to feel him through the picture.
Telling herself not to cry again, Veronica forced her eyes away from the picture and released the handbrake, getting the vehicle back on the road. She drove along the hill, looking out at the greenery and lush. This area was very familiar to both of them, as they passed it every time they went to work. Veronica worked as a FBI rookie Agent, before getting her promotion as well as a bullet in her shoulder. She now led the Hazardous Tonics Team, liaisoning with the Homeland securities Commission. Logan worked as a writer, letting himself drift into imagination and beautiful scenery like here. That was a reason why one day in bed, Logan had told her that he wanted to be buried here, in this hill, beside the lush and greenery. Veronica had told him not to expect it for another hundred years. And they had happily laughed at the stupid dying idea. It didn't seem so stupid now.
She came to a gravel road, and hit a hole. She cursed perfectly as Logan had taught her, and had to laugh at the memory. She swerved carefully, and finally got over the hole. Then she drove again, now coming to the busy city. She passed some shops where the shopkeepers waved at her, and she waved back. She and Logan were quite popular in this area, everybody loved to call upon the loving couple who had so many stories to tell. Parties were a frequent to the couple, as wherever they went, everybody received them graciously and happily. Veronica was still invited to parties, but she opted not to go. She'd rather stay home and watch over their funny wedding video again and again.
She drove to Maclister, a restaurant, where her best friend Mac and her boyfriend, Luke presided over. She parked the vehicle reserved to Family Only, where she noticed the bright red Ferrari that did NOT belong to Mac or Luke. She grabbed her bag and jumped from the vehicle, locking all the doors, before walking in.
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"No, it's a definite no, mister" Veronica could hear Mac's perfectly annoyed voice over all the conversations in the restaurant, "I told you, I have work tonight, and you of all people know that I don't keep mixing my work with pleasure. It was nice seeing you again, but your bright red monster is blocking my view from-"
"Macster, please, you are bruising my heart-" said a very familiar voice, and Veronica rolled her eyes.
"You have one? This should definitely go on the evening news" Mac said.
"Lo and Behold! The Dickmaster is here!" Veronica said, announcing her presence to her friends.
"Ronnie!" Richard Casablancas Jr. said, as he turned around and hugged her tight, "Where have you been in my life?"
"Dick, put me down" Veronica said, as Dick did as he was told. She gave him a quick hug and looked at him from top to bottom, "There's something different in you?"
"I've grown hot?" he wiggled his eyes at her in a crude suggestion.
"Oh, you've left your brain in Las Vegas. I knew that nothing was different" she grinned at him.
"Oh Ronnie" Dick said, looking disappointedly at her, as Mac smiled happily.
"So, where were you?" asked Veronica as she pulled up a bar stool and sat down next to her friend, "You haven't grown tan or whatever. You look pale actually. What happened?"
"I was in Neptune, Ma'am, if you really want to know. Uh…. I was on some kinda… business….." he looked at Veronica and sighed at her hard stare, "Trina wanted to develop a project in honor to… to Logan, and….. she had appointed me as the deputy chairperson"
Veronica nodded and the mention of her former husband's name brought memories of him. Dick and Mac looked at each other guiltily, before Mac walked away to keep a basket of chips before them. Veronica, ever weak in the sight of food, dug in hungrily, bringing memories of Logan staring at her amusedly. She had to smile at the memory as Logan kept on with the orders, letting Veronica eat to her heart's content. More like her stomach's content. And today, her two friends watched the pixie blonde stuff herself with chips, quite amusedly.
"Okay, Ronnie, let's focus here, alright?" Dick stepped in between her and her meal and Mac's eyes widened. You should never step in between a girl and her chips, she will roast you alive. Especially if said girl is Veronica Mars. Mac had said that, and Dick remembered in the last moment as he sheepishly pushed the chips back to Veronica.
"You earned one more day in your life, Dick" Mac sighed, and wiped her brow relieved.
"Hahaha" Veronica said to Mac, and looked at Dick once again, "What's so important right now, mister?"
"I'm going to have a 'Welcome back to New York, Dick!' party. I want you girls to come" he said.
"And I've already said no" Mac supplied.
"She think she has" Dick said, and the two of them glared at each other before Veronica interrupted.
"Do you guys need a room?" she said, and the two looked away, sheepishly, "Dick, you are having a 'Welcome back' party in honor to…. you?"
"Yep" he said, chin up.
"Self absorbed much?" Mac said under her breath.
"And you are asking us-"
"Just you" Mac said.
"-to come and do… what exactly?" asked Veronica, ignoring Mac's comment.
"Partay! Like the world's coming to an end" Dick raised his hands up, moving to a beat that neither girl heard.
"And why exactly is that?" asked Veronica.
"C'mon Ronnie, you've got to party too. It's a basic human right" Dick said, looking pleadingly at her.
"Yeah, in the Dick Constitution" Mac said.
"You have a problem, Mackie?" asked Dick, turning to the Dark haired girl.
"Hells yeah. Finally you noticed me" she said, "We, yes I said we, do not need to 'Partay'. We are perfectly at ease as where we are. Thank you very much. I think I speak for V as well"
Veronica gave a peace sign and Mac looked at Dick once again, who had a pained look on his face. He looked like a puppy who had been kicked and Veronica had to stop her laugh from coming out.
"C'mon, Macmaster. As my best friend, you've got to come to this party. Logan did when he was… please, come. Please please. Pleasuh!"
He looked like a ten year old boy whose toy plane had just met its end, and Veronica had to comply. Even Mac had to agree to his 'Partay. Dick hugged Veronica tight, and practically jumped over the bar table to grab Mac in a hug as well. Veronica looked in shock as Dick kissed Mac full in the mouth before jumping over back again, dropping two envelopes onto the table and ran out in full speed like a little boy running to the ice cream truck. Mac looked more shocked than Veronica, as she stood in the same place, not moving at all.
"Please tell me that it did not happen" Mac said.
"It did, Macaroni, it did" Veronica said, "Dick finally got the chance to kiss you" she said, smiling.
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They had a small talk about all things Dick-not-related and Mac told about the new mission Luke was having in his training camp. Luke Warren met Mac when she, Veronica, Logan and Dick had gone on a hike. Luke had been their instructor, and Mac had fallen for him in the first sight. And so had Luke, apparently. He had become fast friends with Dick and Logan and Mac, but Veronica with her usual trust issues, didn't like Luke even a little bit. But the two girls had met him again in the mall, and Luke had asked for Mac's number promising that he would call that night. The romance started right on that point and it never stopped. But there was more to the story than what Mac knew. Logan and Veronica knew that Dick was in love with Mac as well, but in his usual playboy sense, he didn't show it.
Dick had been very upset to hear that Mac was going out with Luke and had all but cried on Logan's shoulder. But he did cry onto Veronica's lap when he had witnessed Luke and Mac kissing, blind to the world. Veronica didn't know what to say or do, so she had stroked his hair, consoling him a little bit. Then Logan had chased his best buddy for sleeping on his wife's lap. There was a huge laugh thereafter, but Dick had apparently had his heart broken for the very first time.
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Mac and Veronica agreed to meet up in the mall to shop for something good for Dick's party, before Veronica said her goodbyes and walked to her Range Rover once again. She was going to enjoy the party. She knew she was. She was going to live, like Logan was still with her in every step she took.
She released the hand brake and reversed from the parking lot, almost missed reversing into a large moving truck. She cursed silently, as the truck moved away, and got the vehicle back on the main road. She drove along, looking around, when she noticed a necklace marked with a cross hanging on the mirror in front of her. She hadn't seen it before and the unnatural Click! Click! Click! on the mirror distracted her. She looked at it and tried pulling it away. It didn't even budge. She was annoyed beyond reason by now. She looked at it again and gave it a gentle tug, but that's when many things happened all at once.
The necklace came lose and broke from the mirror. She looked front just as somebody yelled "Watch it!" but she could do nothing. She crashed into the huge truck that she had avoided previously. The last memory she had was of a smiling blonde who gave her a wink and said, "Wake up, Veronica Mars…."
"Lilly?"Veronica asked, as she felt blood travel down her cheek to her neck.
"Buck up, you are about to ride back to the past. The guy upstairs had decided to give you a second chance, owing to everything you have lost. It's time to redeem your self, Ronica. Find out that one thing that would change your life and get him back with you, so you two can have your happily ever after…."
"Logan….."
"Yes, c'mon. It's time to go…." Lilly said in her soft bubbling voice.
"No….." Veronica protested.
"C'mon now, Ronica…."
"Logan… help… me…." Was all Veronica could say before she blacked out.
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To be continued….
AN 5: So…. How'd you like it? Do you like it at least? I hope it's not too disappointing. I particularly like the crying to the pillow part. I thought that people who lost their loved ones would do that. I have no experience, so I don't know. But I guess you would. I didn't want Veronica to look too pathetic and I'm guessing that you already know that there will be a second love arc coming around from somewhere. I'm bringing all the characters back, with Lilly posing in her ghostly self. Luke Warren will be a new character that will not make much appearance, or so I hope. Yes, I made him up, but I don't actually like him.
I hope you will review. At least five reviews and I'll be happy. Please be happy to exceed my expectations. Virtual Logan Cookie might be coming to all reviewers.
Thank you.
*hugs*
Sarah.
