She doesn't know
Disclaimer: Much to my misfortune, neither the doctor or Rose belong to me (I wish!)
Rating: K (I've never rated a story before because this is my first story, let me know if there's a way of doing it properly)
Pairing: Ninth Doctor/Rose
Spoilers: None that you don't already know, it's based on 'The parting of Ways' which has already been aired.
Notes: Just a short one, This is my first fiction so be nice but I would like some feed back just to know if there is any point of posting my stories. Thank you.
She doesn't know
Rose, Rose is the Bad Wolf, she obviously doesn't realise and cant help it. I sent her home but she came back, back for me…but why? I don't know what I was expecting when I turned around to see the TARDIS materialising in front of me. When the door of the TARDIS flew open and I saw her standing and acting the way she was I was afraid of what she'd done would kill her, something she'd done because of me.
I'd never seen Rose like that before, I don't think she realised what she was doing, but when she said, 'I want you safe' and called me 'Her doctor' I was going to believe her. She was doing this all for me without pausing for thought about the consequences…maybe she did and ignored them, that's Rose all over.
I knew what was going on, and if it went on any longer her head would blow up, fused and tangled in the time vortex which was flowing violently through her brain. She was shouting. Crying that her head was hurting, I knew what I had to do. 'I think you need a doctor' I said smiling, I gave my hands out to her and took hers in my own, I lead her towards me, and I kissed her. Not only was I saving her life, lifting the burden out of her mind, I was also being honest with myself-I'd wanted to do that for such a long time.
I didn't know if she'd remember our kiss, but at the time she wasn't pushing me away, My hand caressed her face as the passion of the kiss filled every dark space in me, I never wanted to break away but I wish I had stayed like that for longer because I'm certain it will never happen again. I suppose I was kind of hoping she'd wake up, remember everything and throw her arms around me and kiss me again. But what can I say, I've always been a day dreamer.
That was never meant to be, when she woke, she remembered nothing. How am I suppost to live now knowing I kissed her because I love her and she doesn't even know it, I'm looking at my hand resting on the controls of the TARDIS and I know I haven't got long t go now, I think about all the things that could have been, that were staring us in the face and we didn't notice, we may have but if we did we ignored it. It's too late now, it's not fair to tell her now and change and not remember, what she doesn't know cant hurt her, it hurts me that she doesn't know, but if she does know, it will hurt her and I could never do that to the one I love.
