This was originally meant to be a song fic to That's What you Get by Paramore, but I was struggling with the lyrics too much, and it wasn't making very much sense. I hope this is better, please let me know what you think.
Warning: Yaoi. Sasunaru
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto
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"That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa." That's What you Get, Paramore
A soft groan filled the cozy apartment, light flittering into the lone bedroom where a blonde boy lay sprawled out on the bed with a small smile twitching at his features, not quite awake yet.
A dark haired youth continued to pull on his slightly wrinkled clothes, having spent the night on the floor after being discarded haphazardously in the boys' haste the previous evening. Glancing back at his still sleeping companion, the dark haired boy hesitated at the window still, watching for a moment as the light danced through the blonde strands, turning them to gold.
Shaking himself of such sentimental thoughts, the dark haired teen quickly darted through the window, reminding himself that the boy he was leaving behind meant nothing to him other than a stress release.
Just like every other time.
A second groan echoed, the blonde boy's eyelids fluttering but not opening as he fought to remain in the dark, merciful folds of sleep. Another losing battle.
Vibrant blue eyes opened slowly, almost as slowly as his mind was replaying the now fimiliar events of last night. Turning his head to the side, the blonde youth looked for his best friend, already knowing that the raven haired boy would be gone, returning to his girlfriend's side before she woke up.
Just like every other time.
After confirming his suspicions, the blonde heaved a silent sigh and pushed himself off the bed, grimacing as pain shot up his spine. Ignoring it, the blonde continued to his small bathroom to get ready for another day of masks and pain.
Just like every other time.
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The blonde, Naruto, Naruto reprimed himself, I have a name outside of that room. Na-ru-to... I wonder if he even remembers it?
Naruto continued down the path to the bridge where Team Seven had met all those years ago before a mission, called together one last time by Sakura for some important news, AND I SWEAR NARUTO IF YOUR LATE!
Needless to say Naruto got there half an hour early.
Mind wondering aimlessly, blue eyes flickered up to the couple walking with their arms joined, Sakura blabbering away obliviously as dark eyes turned to meet blue.
"Sakura-chan, Teme," Naruto greated brightly when they approached, breaking eye connect with the latter before the former could notice. "What's the big news I'm losing beauty sleep over?"
Sakura chuckled behind her hand before winking up at the blonde, saying in a conspiratual tone, "You have to wait for Kakashi-Sensei."
Naruto rolled his eyes, if only to avoid the dark ones watching him, and hopped up onto the side of the bridge, grumbling, "And you told me not to be late."
An hour and a half later Kakashi arrived, and even before he could give one of his infamous excuses, Sakura cut him off, obviously impatient to have the news spread.
"We're getting married!" The rosette squealed excitedly to her ex-teammate and old sensei. A wide grin spread across Naruto's face even as a razor blade slid deeply across his heart and his eyes searched out his bestfriend.
"Congratulations, Teme!" Naruto called cheerifully as onyx met cerulean once again, "You got lucky!" Something flickered in those emotionless dark eyes, but Naruto wasn't paying enough attention to catch it, too busy wondering if his heart was bleeding to death.
"Hn, Dobe." Sasuke muttered, aware of his soon-to-be bride's hands tightening around his arm.
"Naruto," Sakura began, drawing Naruto's attention back to herself, "Well, I... we were just wondering if you would be Sasuke-kun's best man?" This time, Naruto did catch the glint of mirth behind those jade eyes.
She knows something, Naruto realized, his grin stretching practically from ear to ear, and now she's trying to hurt me to get a reaction out of me. But I won't falter, it's just like every other time.
Every other time someone had commented on the happy couple the razor blade now consistently positioned at his heart would dig a little deeper, rip his heart open just a little but more. But Naruto never missed a beat, never. He knew just because he was in pain Sasuke wasn't, and Sasuke was happy with Sakura. So the bloonde would force a grin and answer, yes, they do make a great pair, don't they? and pray his heart would stop bleeding sometime soon. But he would act, and would laugh, and would protect his friend no matter how much it hurt.
Just like every other time.
"Really? Thanks Sakura-chan, Teme! I'll..." For the first time, Naruto faltered. He had been about to say 'I'll be there' bu that would have been a lie.
No, I can't be there, Naruto thought with a kind of numb shock, I won't survive it.
Luckily, Kakashi-Sensei choose that moment to wish the couple his blessing, leaving Naruto to safely curling into his mind, to Kyuubi, to plan and to block out the pain, at least for the moment, oblivious of the set of almost black eyes on him.
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Naruto sat with his knees drawn to his chest, staring blankly at the wall ahead of him when Sasuke arrived through his bedroom window.
Just like every other time.
"Dobe," The Uchiha said softly, staring at the blonde boy clad only in his too large orange and black sweater.
Making his way to the fimiliar bed, Sasuke positioned himself behind the blonde boy with his legs on either side of the blonde's.
"Teme," The blonde muttered in polite disinterest as Sasuke began his suck and nip at the flesh on his neck. "You could have told me yesterday that you were engaged."
"Wouldn't have changed anything." The raven retorted, leaving no time for Naruto to responde as he quickly unzipped the smaller boy's sweater, pushing it down the smaller boy's shoulder, working his way from the tanned neck to his now exposed shoulder to leave a mark.
With a soft moan, Naruto let his head fall back against the older boy's shoulder, giving him better excess to his neck and shoulder, his own hands running up and down the still covered thighs on either side of him.
Reaching around the blonde, one pale hand slowly pulled the zippers of the hideously bright jacket down the rest of the way, while the other found it's way to one his the blonde's nipples, teasing the nub with the pad of his thumb.
Trying to surpress a moan, Naruto ran his hands farther up Sasuke's thighs to the top of his pants, brushing over the ridged manhood in the process, earning himself a low groan and a sharp bite. Fumbling with the button and zipper, Naruto managed to open Sasuke's pants enough for him to reach a hand down them and around the Uchiha's erection, dispite the awkward angle of his arm as he started to pump his friend at a lazy pace, instead loosening and tightening his hold.
Panting into the smaller boy's neck, he bit down hard enough to draw blood, and to stiffle a moan. "Dobe," he growled as a warning that he was close to the edge, regretting the action when the blonde retracted his hand from the older boy's pants, turning to face him.
Silently, Naruto pushed the panting Uchiha so his back was on the bed, before sliding down slightly and pulling his friend's erection out of the constricting pants.
Flicking his tongue out to touch the tip, Naruto glanced up to see Sasuke's glazed over eyes as the raven pushed himself up on his elbows for a better view.
Smirking up at the raven mischievously, Naruto planted feather light kisses down the vien of the Uchiha's erection, flicking his tongue out occationally, before running the flat of his tongue back up the vien again.
Sasuke let himself fall onto his back again, moving his hands to run through the blonde's hair, encouraging the small boy to take him in his mouth.
Taking the hint, and not wanting to push his luck too far, Naruto opened his mouth obediently, taking as much of his friend into his mouth before swallowing around him, snickering at the muffled cry he was rewarded with.
Humming, Naruto moved up and down the raven's length, occationally lightly grazing the length with his teeth, until the Uchiha fisted the blonde's hair between his fists until it was painful and bucked up, spilling his seed down Naruto's throat.
Coughing slightly over the sudden release in his mouth, Naruto sat back, waiting for Sasuke to catch his breath and make the next move.
Just like every other time.
Finally, the Uchiha's eyelids fluttered back to reveal dazed looking eyes that quickly found the blonde's, silently praising him for a good job.
Sitting up, Sasuke discarded his sweat drenched shirt to the floor, watching as Naruto leaned over the side of the bed to his dresser, rummaging around of a moment before pulling out a half empty tube of lube.
Pulling the blonde boy back towards him, Sasuke took the bottle of lube from him, squeezing a fair amount onto three of his fingers as Naruto continued his torturously slow pace up and down his hardening length.
Reaching around the panting boy wrapped flush against him, one arm around his shoulders and one arm inbetween them, Sasuke snuck his hand under the smaller boy's sweater, slicking the ring of muscles before slipping two fingers in at once, impatiently beginning to scissor and probe the young boy.
Naruto bit at the raven's ear to stiffle a whimper at the sudden pain, tightening his grasp around the once again erect member in retaliation, getting a third finger probing inside up him in response.
With both boys panting Sasuke slipped his fingers out of the tight heat, moving himself under the blonde boy's stretched hole. Stealing a glance at each other, Sasuke lifted himself up quickly to be engulfed as Naruto dropped his weight, allowing himself to be filled to the brim.
Naruto cried out loudly as pleasure spiked with pain1 shot up the length of his spine, while Sasuke groaned loudly, pulling out to the tip to ram back in, once again being met by the blonde.
A quick rythm developed, and Naruto was seeing white spots when Sasuke pushed him onto his back, spreading the blonde's legs wider for a better angle. It wasn't long before Naruto came wildly onto both boys' stomachs, crying Sasuke's name. The Uchiha followed quickly after, a loud groan echoing the blonde's cry as he released into the blonde.
Just like every other time.
Panting, Sasuke pulled out of the blonde after a moment, only to be caught in a tight embrace, pulling him back down onto Naruto.
"Dobe." He growled half heartedly, caught off guard. How many times had they done this, and Naruto had never been clingy afterwards before. Maybe he wants a second round?
"I love you," The blonde breathed into the raven's ear, turning his blood to ice at the words and causing Sasuke to jerk himself away from the blonde, staring down at the tears running down the scarred cheeks and the half assed smile that wasn't even close to those azure eyes.
"Always have, unfortunately, always will." Naruto continued when Sasuke merely hovered over him, frozen. "Which is why this needs to end. I... I think it's killing me. I can't take anymore, Sasuke, so I'm doing the weakest and most cowardly thing possible. I'm sorry."
"Naruto," Sasuke started, but his words died in his throat at the heart wrenching smile that finally met the blonde's eyes.
"So you do remember my name. I'm glad. As selfish as it is, I hope you remember me." With a puff, Naruto was gone, leaving Sasuke to stare down at where he had once thought his best friend and rival to be.
"A clone." He stated in a monotone, refusing to tear his eyes away from where he had seen the person he cared for the most cry. "Naruto..."
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Miles away, running through the forest as quickly as he could, the thoughts and memories of his clone came rushing to him, and with a broke sob Naruto stumbled into the nearest tree, leaning against it heavily to keep himself standing.
"I'm sorry," Naruto cried hoarsely into his hands, shoulder shuddering with the force of his sobs, "I'm sorry, Sasuke, I'm so sorry."
The blonde wasn't sure quite how long it took for him to run out of tears, but by the time he looked up out of his hands with dry, hallow eyes, the sun was rising over the horizon, and his throat and eyes felt raw.
Repositioning his backpack, Naruto continued on through the forest, one last thought bouncing around in his mind.
Never again will there be 'just like ever other time'.
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1 I was so tempted to put 'and music is my aeroplane' in brackets, but i thought it would ruin it.
First oneshot, please let me know what you think and how I can improve, thanks,
Naito454
