Welcome to Clew night's new story!

Legal: I own nothing but the idea

All the very important things to know before reading:

*Adam didn't die or even crash Becky did and Adam has been mourning her loss

*Luke blamed Adam for his sister's death and tried to attack him and Luke was arrested and expelled

*Dallas and Alli graduated last year

*Owen goes to U of T and has his own apartment but hangs out with Drew a lot

*Owen and Clare became friends when she was spending a lot of time with Drew for student council

*Fitz still works at The Dot and is friends with Owen and Bianca, he's also friends with Adam and Clare now

*Drianca broke up at Thanksgiving

*Clare broke up with Eli and then slept with Drew and then Eli showed up like in the show, but Drew stayed for their little talk and without Dallas there Drew never thought he was a rebound

*Drew and Clare have been dating since the night they slept together

Ch. 1 So Baby Take My Hand, it'll be All Right

(DREW)

I pace the basement anxiously and continue checking my phone wondering if I should call Clare again. Just as I'm getting ready to call her for the fourth time in an hour the sliding glass door opens and Clare walks in. I'm so happy to see her I drop my phone and rush over enveloping her into my arms; I hold her tight and kiss her deeply.

"Thank goodness I've been so worried! Where have you been? Why didn't you answer your phone?" I scold her pulling her away from me a little to really look at her and I notice a bandage on her head. "What happened?"

"I'm sorry I just got in, the plane landed forty-five minutes ago and I came straight here. I must have forgotten to turn my phone back on," Clare apologizes and takes her phone out of her purse turning it on. It starts up and then chimes a bunch of times which are probably all of my missed calls and texts; she doesn't look at them though she puts her phone back in her purse. "I'm okay it's just a bump on the head," she tells me touching the bandage.

"How'd you bump your head?" I question taking her hand and pulling her to the sofa to sit down.

"It was stupid, I was out walking and thought I saw Eli and turned around smack into a pole. It wasn't even Eli but I passed out and got taken to the hospital. A storm was coming, the hospital was full, they said I was probably okay but my flight was canceled because of the storm here. They were worried about a concussion and gave me a choice either stay in the hospital overnight or stay with someone I knew who would wake me up and make sure I don't have a concussion. I didn't want to sleep in the hallway of the hospital on a gurney so I ca…"

"You spent the night with Eli?!" I exclaim angrily as I realize where she had to have slept because she only knows one person in New York.

"I didn't have a choice Drew and we didn't do anything. I mean we didn't have sex or anything, we didn't even hug. He came and got me from the hospital, took me to his dorm room, leant me clothes and we spent the rest of the night out seeing the town. He showed me around; we got food that was it."

"But you were in his clothes! Did you talk about you being in New York next year? About getting back together?"

"I was wearing his clothes because mine were ripped and dirty from the fall, and winter nights are very cold. I didn't prepare because I thought I was flying back that night, I borrowed a sweatshirt that's all. I've borrowed Adam's clothes before."

"You've never had sex with my brother," I shoot back and she crosses her arms in annoyance. "You did didn't you? You talked about you being in New York and him being there, being together again while I'm wasting away here at community college."

"Andrew that's not fair, I got hurt and Eli was there and you're getting angry over nothing. I'm going home, when you calm down and you're ready to talk you can call me," she replies getting up from the sofa. She only takes a couple of steps before her phone rings and when she sees who it is she stops to answer it. "Hello…yes…the what?" Clare gasps.

She hangs up the phone, it drops to the floor and then Clare starts to drop to the floor! I realize she's passed out, I jump up and catch her before she hits the floor. I lower her down gently cradling her in my lap, I brush the hair out of her eyes and she starts to wake up.

"Are you okay? Who was that?" I question.

"That was the hospital in New York, I'm pregnant," she tells me in a whisper and my heart stops.

"Pre…pregnant?" I stutter as the thought terrifies me. "How can you be pregnant we're always careful," I comment.

"We use condoms but they aren't a hundred percent," she replies with tears in her eyes.

"How did they even know you were pregnant?"

"They took some blood as a matter of a routine because of my history with cancer and I'm still on chemo meds," she tells me and she's trembling slightly as she begins crying. I don't know what to do so I just hold her and let her cry for a few minutes.

"What do you want to do?" I ask her.

"I can't be a mom, not at eighteen, I'm not giving up on Columbia there's only one thing to do, I'll make an appointment for an abortion," she tells me in a shaky voice wiping the tears away.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes I'm sure I'm going to Columbia next year I can't do that if I'm pregnant and I can't be a parent right now. Neither can you, this is what has to happen," she tells me in a resolute tone.

"Yeah you're right and if my parents found out I'd be a dead man. I'll go with you to the appointment," I reply. Clare nods and starts to get up but she's still shaking a bit so I help her up.

"I'm not feeling so good I think I should go home," she says.

"I'll drive you," I comment grabbing her stuff including her phone from the floor. We go out to my car and I drive her home parking out front. "Just tell me when the appointment is and I'll take you and be there with you," I assure Clare.

"Okay I'll see you tomorrow at school. Don't tell anyone Drew, I don't want anyone to know I'm pregnant. I'll get an abortion and let's just never speak of it again," she insists.

"Agreed," I nod and she kisses my cheek before turning to get out of the car but I grab her hand. "I'm sorry for earlier I was an idiot, a jealous idiot and I know how you hate that. I know you wouldn't cheat, I just worry that I'm going to lose you. I really have no idea what an incredible girl like you is doing with a loser like me," I apologize and she smiles sitting back in the car.

"Because you're not a loser and you make me feel good, you make me happy Drew," Clare says and gives me a soft kiss.

"Call me when you have a date for the appointment. I'll see you tomorrow," I tell her.

She nods and gets out of the car, I watch until she's inside and then I drive home and sit on the sofa, the TV is on but I'm really not watching. I've got too many thoughts in my head; I admit I'm still worried about Clare being in New York with Eli next year. After all she and Eli couldn't make it work with her here and him there so will she and I do any better if I'm still in Toronto? And of course there's the fact that she's pregnant.

"Hey Drew have you heard from Clare yet? She's still not answering my texts," my brother says walking in.

"Huh? Oh yeah she came here she forgot to turn her phone on," I tell him.

"Okay so what's wrong?" Adam questions sitting down next to me.

"She's…" I almost blurt out that she's pregnant but stop myself, "she hit her head and had to spend the night with Eli. I got angry and jealous and we got into a fight."

"Why'd she spend the night with Eli for hitting her head and why'd you get all stupid and jealous? You know how she hates that," Adam scolds.

"I know it was dumb I couldn't help it you know her history with Eli. I apologized but I think she's still a little mad."

"Well you can grovel at school tomorrow, Eli didn't tell me anything about it but it's not like I've heard from him all that much since he moved."

Adam doesn't say anything else because Mom calls us up to dinner. When my parents ask if Clare made it home safe I tell them she did but that's all I say on it. Since I spent most of the afternoon either worried about Clare, fighting with her or in shock I still have all my homework to do after dinner. Adam has most of his homework too but only because he was with Fitz. It's actually pretty remarkable how much Fitz has changed and how much he did to help Adam get over Becky's death and Luke's subsequent attempted attack on my brother.

We do homework in the basement and Adam of course helps me with a lot of the homework. If not for Adam, Bianca and Clare I'm certain I would have been left behind more than the one time and that was for dropping out for a couple of months. Just before going to bed I text Clare since I haven't heard from her since dropping her off.

Drew: I am sorry about earlier. It was stupid and I was jealous.

Clare: I know and I forgive you. I made an online appointment at a clinic for next week. They'll confirm by e-mail tomorrow. I'll see you at school.

I text back that I'll see her tomorrow and try to get some sleep but it isn't easy, what sleep I do get is disturbed by bad dreams. I feel exhausted when my alarm goes off the next morning but I'm anxious to see Clare and I get right out of bed. I manage to beat my brother to the washroom but I'm not hungry there's too much going on in my head.

"Are you still worried that Clare is mad at you?" Adam asks as I drive us to school.

"Yeah something like that," I nod.

It snowed last night so there are very few kids outside but when Adam and I walk in Clare is sitting in the foyer. She smiles at us and gets up; she hugs Adam before giving me a chaste kiss.

"So you were forced into a night with Eli?" Adam asks.

"Yeah it wasn't too bad, kind of fun actually and he showed me around Manhattan a little. At least we were sure I didn't have a concussion," she says and puts her arm around me when I stiffen up a little.

"Yeah that's good, how's your head feel?"

"Throbs sometimes but it's okay. Eli's doing pretty well and he's still busy as ever. He told me to tell you hi," Clare replies.

"Cool, well I guess you two have some things to discuss so I'll see you in class Clare," Adam waves and walks off. I take Clare's hand and walk her to a secluded part of the school so no one else hears us.

"They confirmed the appointment it's next Monday," Clare tells me.

"Okay I'll be there with you, do you need anything?"

"No but I should go to my locker before class," she says and starts to turn away from me but I catch her arm.

"Hey I'm here for you; anything at all I'm here you're important to me Clare I care about you a lot."

"I know," she smiles and stands on her tiptoes to give me a tender kiss. Her hand is on my chest and she keeps it there putting her head on my chest as well and I wrap my arms around her. "I'm sorry it's just been a crazy and emotionally trying few days."

"It's okay just don't pull away from me because you're scared or stressed I'm in this with you."

"I know I don't mean to be. I care about you too," she says and kisses me again.

I walk her to her locker before going to mine and then class. My homeroom is English, not my strongest subject and I'm in the dumbest class. About halfway into class and while Mrs. Dawes is talking about poetry and I'm almost asleep when I see Clare standing in the doorway. She looks slightly pale and very scared, Mrs. Dawes notices her too.

"I need Drew," she says quietly. Mrs. Dawes just nods to me and I leave my desk.

"What's wrong?" I question as she grips my shirt and pulls me down the hall.

"I went to the washroom and there was blood in my underwear."

"Is it your period? Were they wrong? Maybe you're not pregnant."

"I don't know but it…I'm worried Drew can you take me to the emergency room please, like right now?"

"Yeah let's go," I nod putting my arm around her. I don't bother to go in for my stuff I'll text Adam he'll take care of it for both of us.

We get in my car and I drive us to the emergency room, thankfully it's not that busy but when Clare explains it all they send her up to maternity. She's given a robe to change into and a nurse starts taking her vitals so I text Adam.

Drew: Took Clare to ER can you get our stuff and tell Simpson/teachers?

He won't answer yet because he's still in class. When the nurse leaves Clare lays down on the table waiting for the doctor. Next comes a whole bunch of tests, a scan, a blood test, a urine test, the doctor probes Clare's stomach and even does a vaginal. It's a male doctor and I don't really like that he's between her legs but he is doing his job.

"You are pregnant the blood test was correct. Spotting during pregnancy is not uncommon, however given your history of cancer and the treatment you're quite lucky to be pregnant," the doctor tells her.

"You mean I might never have kids again?"

"It's a good possibility yes. You'll need to go off your maintenance medications in order to take the baby to term," the doctor tells us.

"Why would she have to go off the chemo meds? Won't her cancer return if she goes off her maintenance meds?" I ask.

"Going off the medications early does greatly increase the possibility of a relapse but if she doesn't go off them she will miscarry. Miscarriage itself can carry risks and do further damage to the uterus," the doctor says. Clare looks sort of grey; she's sweating a little and grabs the trashcan to vomit into it. The doctor gets her some water and calls for a nurse.

"Sorry," Clare apologizes meekly.

"Quite alright Clare very common at any time of day during the first trimester," the doctor tells her handing the trashcan to the nurse that just came in. "You should follow up with your oncologist about going off the medications and make an appointment with an OB/GYN. Do you have any questions?" The doctor asks and Clare shakes her head. I'm pretty sure I do have questions but I can't think of them just now and I shake my head. So the doctor says were' done and she can get dressed.

"Can you take me home Drew?" Clare requests as she begins to dress again.

"Yeah of course."

She gets dressed and we go down to my car, I drive to her house and take her inside. She goes upstairs and lies on her bed and I get out my phone to text Adam. He texted back earlier between classes but I was focused on Clare and didn't reply.

Adam: Is she okay? Is it her head? I have your backpack and hers and told Simpson and the teachers about her going to the ER in New York and it had to do with that.

Drew: Not sure she's okay. Thanks for getting our stuff can you bring it to Clare's place at lunch I don't think we're coming back to school today.

I put my phone back in my pocket and sit on the edge of Clare's bed putting my hand on her arm. She takes my hand and curls up to me; I can see the thoughts in her eyes, so many of them crowding her mind.

"I don't want to have an abortion now, I can't Drew what if this is my once chance to have a baby? I know what I said last night and how resolute I was but when I saw the blood I was really scared and knowing that I might not be able to have kids again I can't. I'm keeping the baby, you don't have to be involved I c…"

"Of course I'm going to be involved that's my child. I'm going to be a dad and raise the baby with you, we'll figure it out. Are you sure about going off your medications?"

"I don't have a choice, I don't want to but if I don't then we lose the baby for sure. I'm going to cancel the appointment at the clinic and make one with my oncologist and an obstetrician."

"I'll be with you at both appointments. We're in this together Clare," I assure her kissing her temple.

"I know," she nods against my chest, "I'm scared Drew."

"I know me too but we're still in this together."

"We both need to be sure about this, both of us Drew. This is a huge life altering decision, this changes everything."

"I know but I am sure about this. I want to be with you and honestly I didn't want to get rid of the baby in the first place. I'm excited to be a dad and have a baby with you. Okay the timing kind of sucks because we're still in high school but we can do this, we'll find a way and make it work. Adam will support us and hopefully our parents won't kill us."

"Oh God we have to tell our parents," Clare sighs and then hops out of bed pushing me away, "I think I'm going to be sick again."

I follow her to the washroom and hold back her hair and while she vomits in the toilet. When she's done she rinses her mouth in the sink and goes back to her bed pulling me with her.

"I know we have to tell them but can we wait a few days I don't think I could handle that tonight," she requests.

"Yeah I think waiting a few days is probably smart. What about telling Adam? He's going to bring our stuff at lunch and he's worried because he knows I took you to the ER he's going to have questions," I comment.

"Yeah telling Adam I think I can do."

(ADAM)

"I'm taking Clare and Drew's backpacks to Clare's place," I tell Jenna and Connor as we leave 2nd period.

"I hope Clare's okay," Jenna says.

"I'll let you guys know when I get back," I reply.

I put my backpack in my locker and walk to Clare's house carrying their backpacks, thankfully her house is only a block away because it's cold and their backpacks are heavy. I ring Clare's bell and Drew comes down answering the door.

"Hey thanks for bringing these," he says taking the bags from me and motioning for me to come in. "Come on Clare's upstairs," he says setting the backpacks down and I follow him upstairs.

"How do you feel?" I ask Clare sitting down at the end of her bed. Drew sits down next to Clare and puts his arm around her. She doesn't answer my question just looks at Clare and then back at me.

"I'm pregnant," she announces and my eyes go wide as my breath gets caught in my throat.

"Pregnant?" I gasp. I knew Drew and Clare were having sex but I also knew they were using condoms.

"Yeah I found out yesterday because when I hit my head in New York they took my blood due to my history with cancer. Yesterday they called with my blood results and informed me that me and my baby were fine. So after I passed out from shock I told Drew. Last night I was determined to get rid of it, we weren't going to tell anyone we'd get an abortion and I'd go on to Columbia put it behind us. I wasn't going to let anything get in the way of my plan."

"But now you're keeping the baby?"

"I was bleeding today, I wasn't sure if it was my period and they were wrong or if something was wrong so I had Drew take me to the ER. They said I was spotting and that's pretty common and the baby was okay but I was lucky to be pregnant. All the chemo I've had well it's possible I won't be able to have kids. This may be my one chance and Drew wants the baby too so we're going to keep it, but I will have to go off the maintenance meds to take the baby to term."

"Which means there's a greater chance of you relapsing. This is pretty scary are you two sure about this?"

"Yes we are but we're going to wait a few days before telling the rents, Clare had already made an appointment with a clinic and she's going to cancel that. We also need to make an appointment with Clare's oncologist and an obsta…whatever."

"An obstetrician," I inform my brother and he shrugs. "So I guess this will change things. Mom and Dad are going to freak."

"Yeah my mom too. Don't tell anyone else at school please Adam. I need a couple days, we need a couple days, and we have some stuff to talk about," Clare pleads.

"I won't say anything. They weren't expecting you back at school anyway. I'll get your homework and come back after school. Speaking of which I should probably get back."

"Thanks Adam we'll see you later," Clare says hugging me.

"Here take the car we're not going anywhere and you'll be back after school," Drew says handing me his car key.

"Thanks," I smile. I leave Clare's house and take Drew's car back to school.

"How's Clare?" Jenna asks.

"She's…her head was hurting and they were worried about the flight having…" I'm kind of stumbling over an excuse since I can't tell Jenna she's pregnant, "anyway Drew's staying with her and she'll probably be back tomorrow."

"Well it's good that Drew is with her," Jenna replies.

"Yeah he'll take good care of her," I comment and start walking to my locker. I'm opening my locker when my phone rings and thinking that it could be Drew or Clare I pull it from my pocket. It's not my brother or Clare it's Eli but I still answer. "Hey Eli."

"Hi did Clare make it back okay? Her visit was great; she did tell you we saw each other right?"

"Yeah she did, she hit her head and you came and got her from the hospital and stayed up with her."

"Yeah it was awesome, we totally reconnected. I know she's still dating Drew but I think we might get back together when she's here next year. I mean I know she has to get into Columbia for her to be here but come on it's Clare of course she'll get in. I'm telling you I felt it Adam, that connection is still there we were made for each other and this little thing with Drew is just a phase, sewing her wild oats or something. No offense to your brother. It was kismet Adam, Clare's interview, hitting her head, calling me it was meant to be, we are meant to be."

"I have to go Eli the bells about to ring, call you later," I reply and hang up.

What was I supposed to say? I can't tell him that she's pregnant she doesn't want anyone to know yet. He's bound to find out at some point but I'm a little worried too. Clare said nothing happened between her and Eli while she was there and I believe her but Eli can be pretty…intense when it comes to Clare. If he read more into their time together it could cause problems and problems is one thing Clare and Drew have enough of right now. I decide it's best not to tell Drew or Clare about Eli's Clare and hope that when he finds out she's carrying Drew's baby he backs off.

The update next Tuesday will pick up in Clare's pov talking with Drew. Owen will also be in the next chapter and Drew and Clare tell their parents.