"… And if the words… Cannot form in time…?"
"If that is your fate… Then understand… You can't change it."
Prologue – Present:
Jerome was driving us back to the house, though because of road construction, we were taking a detour. I took a deep breath. I've been in love with Jerome since we met. I love him so much it hurts. But he's straight. Straight and he has a girlfriend that he's happy with. He proposed to Alanna not too long ago. It scares me. What if I lose him? I don't want him to slip through my fingers like the grain of sand I didn't try saving.
But why would he even like me the way I like him? I hate myself so much; I have so many problems… I have depression, I've had it since high school and no one even realizes it. I cut too deep sometimes and I'm perfectly aware of how much harm I cause myself, but… but that's what makes me feel most alive in this dull world of hatred. It reminds me I'm real. That I'm not dead. No one would understand... Jerome hasn't found out yet. I can't even begin to imagine how upset he'd get if he found out.
I shudder unintentionally, catching Jerome's attention for a split second. I continued staring out the window, into the darkened night of our bustling city.
"You cold?" Jerome reached out, turning up the heat. I nodded.
Yes Jerome, I feel cold. I feel cold because of my breaking heart and my numbing body, the body that feels like it's inching ever so closer to death… But that isn't why you asked…
"God damn, I hate traffic." A sigh left his perfect lips as we once more had to stop, the bustling of wheels on pavement rushing past our stationary position.
Jerome…
Goose bumps rushed my skin, the light seeming to remain red for the longest time. Just glowing brightly, taunting me.
I need to tell him…
"Jerome, I need to tell you something." Jerome looks to me with a smile, returning his attention back to the road as the light turned green. We began to slowly inch forward.
"Yeah Mitch?"
"I-!" I was cut off by the screeching halt of the Earth, metal crushing. The air in my lungs abandoned me completely; my vision faltering as every little sound disappeared. Darkness awaited me.
