Just for you - a painful ending

By Michi-chan (MichiDragoness@aol.com)

Hello all. This is a story about Sayia. I feel so bad for him since he's in love with Usagi, but Usagi is in love with Mamoru. And he just seems so lonely. So I think I'm gonna change the story a bit and have him fall in love with- oops I can't say. You'll have to find out.



Rei looked into the fire, longing to become it. Inside her heart was burning and she sat and wondered why she felt this way. Tomorrow she and all her friends would graduate from high school and go on with the rest of their lives until the days of Crystal Tokyo came. Also, one week from now, Usagi's would finally marry Mamoru. They would be happy, and all their dreams would come true. So why did Rei feel so angry.

She gazed into the fire, watching the vivid colors move in no particular pattern. She saw Mamoru. In her heart she hated him. She would never tell this to Usagi of course. Usagi saw him as flawless, and wonderful. Rei saw him as the love she could never have. Usagi continued to believe that Rei was fine. That she didn't mind giving Mamoru up. That she no longer loved that man.

Rei closed her eyes. Yuchiro. She, once, was fond of him. Once. Although he annoyed her more then anything in the world. His commitment to her drove her insane, and she was relieved when she received a postcard in the mail from him, telling her that he had married. She was glad to be free from him, but her heart hurt, because once again she had missed out. Missed her chance of happiness.

A soft thud pulled Rei out of her thoughts. Grumbling and more thumps could be herd among the bushes of the Shinto shrine. Rei, in her robes, grabbed her stick and a flashlight and slowly opened the thin door of the praying room. Her grandfather, as usual, slept pretty hard, and didn't wake up. So, it was up to Rei to get rid of these pests. She rounded the corner and looked around in the darkness of the night. It was so dark, and she held her stick up and ready as she neared the rustling bushes.

"Baka!" yelled a familiar voice. Rei paused. It couldn't be.

"Don't yell at me! It wasn't my job to do the calculations." said a second voice.

"Funny I remember our landing to be a lot softer. said the third voice.

"Look, I didn't even want to come." said the first. Rei turned on the flashlight aiming it at the bushes to show the three starlights tangled among each other. They held up their arms to keep out the light and began to explain that they weren't thieves, prowlers, perverts or killers.

"What are you guys doing here?" Rei asked, lowering the light out of their eyes. Yaten brushed himself off after pushing Taiki off his back.

"We're here for Usagi's wedding of course. It's in about a week, right?"

"Hai, it is." Rei shook her head. "Why are you such a mess?"

"Our landing went pretty bad because Taiki was thing of Ami instead of where we'd land."

"Gomen." Taiki said, was the good grace to be embarrassed.

"Well I guess you can all stay here, this place has been used as a hotel ever since I can remember." Rei sighed as the starlights followed her inside. Once they were all settled in the spare room Rei returned to the praying room where the fire had died down considerably. She tossed in a few logs, wondering how she would deal with the rest of her life. The padding of soft footsteps pulled her out of her thought. The footsteps moved passed the praying room and down the hall. Rei crawled over to the doorway of the room and opened in, watching Sayia leave the temple. She closed her eyes, telling herself to mind her own business, but in the end she slipped on her sandals and followed him.

Sayia's memories of Usagi were driving him crazy. He couldn't keep in inside him any longer. As he walked down the familiar street to her house, he ran over his plan. All he had to do was profess his love to her, and maybe she would consider being with him, instead of Mamoru. Mamoru. His heart ached every time he thought of them together. Every time her eyes shined with the mention of his name. It hurt so bad.

He slowed down to a slow crawling walk. Why couldn't she see how much he loved her? How much she meant to him? How every time he saw her kiss Mamoru with such love, he wanted to die right then and there? Why couldn't she see?

"Sayia..." said a soft concerned voice. He turned around, coming to face Rei.

"Rei.... what are you doing here?" he asked. She shook her head with a frown.

"I should be asking you that." she paused and took a step towards him "Sayia, what's wrong?"

"Nothing you need to be concerned with." he spat, a little harsher then he wanted.

"That's not true. Your going to see Usagi, aren't you?" she asked. he didn't say anything. Rei took another step. "You can't stop her Sayia. She doesn't love you that way," she said softly with another step.

"Don't you think I know that!" he yelled. He slammed his fist into a light pole. "I didn't even want to come back."

"Sayia-"

"Do you even know how it's gonna feel when I see them exchange their vows?" he interrupted. "I feel like dying now, I never wanted to come back here."

"Can it really be all that bad?" she asked. God, how her heart hurt like his.

"Go home Rei. You don't understand."

"I do understand. More then you think." Rei snapped. Sayia turned and looked at her. Her eyes burned with unshed tears, her hair tied with the string that Yuchiro had given her.

"Do you think that when Mamoru and Usagi get up on that platform and exchange vows of love your going to be the only one why suffers!" Rei's tears now ran down her cheek. Sayia was completely speechless. Her fists were balled up and she took large stomps toward him, yelling at him. "I love him you know! I bet you didn't know. I bet you don't know what Usagi took from me! I bet you didn't even think that someone else might love Mamoru! That someone else would like to object to their perfect marriage!"

"Rei..."

"But you can only think of your own feelings! Don't you get it? You can't stop it! So why even try? We're the same! We are both unworthy of such happiness with the ones we love! We can't-"

Rei's opened wide, and to her she only saw blurry stars in the night sky. She couldn't think. She couldn't breath. Warmth surrounded her, warmth she hadn't felt in a long time. She didn't want to move, or think as Sayia held her, pressing his lips against hers.

Sayia knew he had made a grave mistake the moment he had reached for her. His attempt to make Rei feel better had backfired. It felt as though the innocent kiss was comforting them both.



Hope you all like it. There is one more part after this, so stay tuned. As usual, feedback is always welcome, along with mail bombs and threat notes.

Michi-chan

Disclaimer: No I do not own Sailor Moon or it's characters. Sailor Moon is copyright 1992 Naoko Takeuchi/Kodansha, TOEI Animation. English Language Adaptation copyrighted in 1995 by DiC Entertainment.