Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's Anatomy or any of this characters. I'm not Shonda Rhimes.

Warning: This is a AK2 friendship one shot with a lot of unnecessary drama, well kind of. I'm in a mood in which I only write tragic and sad things.

I know right now us Japril shippers are being very spoiled by Shonda, but I expect a lot of drama in the future and this particular scenario keeps popping into my head since we don't know for sure who's staying and who's leaving.

English is not my mother language so please, If you see any misspelled word of mayor typos, let me know, that way you help me to improve.


"Help, I'm alive"

April was screaming and shooting insults to a couple of paramedics and increasingly attracting the attention of their coworkers. Nurses and patients were already whispering while looking at her.

Alex was watching the scene from the nurse station at the pit, wondering why he hated seeing her like that. She was clearly not his problem…but of course, he needed to do something.

"April" he finally called her while he approached to the scene, just in time to prevent April to throw her tablet at one of the paramedics

"What do you want Karev? " she asked full of rage "Can't you see I'm busy?"

"What is the problem?" he asked trying to be patient.

"These fools have brought the patient nearly dead! Dead!"

"Ok, April, calm down, let's focus on the patient"

Alex picked the Tablet from her hand and motioned with his head to the paramedics to leave. They retreated quickly, escaping the fury of April.

"Morons!" April screamed as loud as she could.

"Maybe you should take an other couple of days off, no one expected you to come back this soon," Alex suggested her almost in a whisper

She looked at him and then, April's gaze full of rage suddenly turned into a sad look. She looked down, trying to hold back her tears.

That was the moment when Alex should have escaped, his survival instinct told him to retire. It was the same guts that told him to left Izzie go, escape from Lexie when she became complicated, get angry with Meredith every time they had a fight, insult Cristina to defend himself and blame Jo of every thing that went wrong on their relationship.

Also, Alex didn't know how to calm April, that was Jackson's work, only her husband knew how buttons push or say to calm her down.

But Avery was not there anymore; Alex couldn't just page him and say to him to calm his wife.

April was already crying.

He remembered the feeling he suffered the day Izzie died in his arms for a minutes… and the idea of April facing that feel from now on, for the rest of her life, made him stay.

He took her in his arms and allowed April hid her face in his chest as her body started to tremble.

"I miss him…I miss him so much" April said between tears and violent sobs. "I miss him…Alex, I want him back"

"I know, Apes, I know" Alex said while he patted her head clumsily

"There is no God, It can't be a God if he leaves a new born baby without a father" she said

Alex didn't know what to say, because there was nothing to say. All he could do was hold her tight and help her not to tumble while the walls were crumbling down.