Near's last thoughts to/about Mello. Mild shonen-ai from Near. Takes place after Mello's death.

Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note or the characters. But I'd do anything to own L, Mello, and Near…

Mello, when I first heard you died, it took all of my willpower not to cry in front of Gevanni, Lidner, and Rester. But as soon as I was alone I broke down, crying until I couldn't shed tears anymore. I didn't – and still don't – understand why you had to die in order to do something so unnecessary as trying to surpass me. The only reason I wanted to be better than everybody anyways was so that you would pay attention to me, and maybe someday return my feelings for you. And now… because of me… because you were so obsessed with outdoing me… you're…

sigh Now I'll never see you again or gain your attention. Or tell you how I really feel about you.

Goodbye, my dear Mihael.

And for the record, I really do think Near is gay and loves Mello.

I'm gonna shut up now…