Title: Train Me!
Pairing: Kaka/Naru
Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: I wish I owned Naruto!
Summery: Before the final phase of the Chuunin exams, Naruto begs Kakashi for extra training and is denied! Naruto doesn't take it very well.
lj-cut text"Train Me!"
"What?"
I stood before my silver haired teacher in shock and pain. I always knew that he liked Sasuke best but I never would have believed that he was capable of the same bigotry as the rest of the village.
"You won't train me for the Chuunin exam, the most important moment of my young life? Exams that will greatly determine my future, because Sasuke needs you and I supposedly don't?" I was breathing hard with the effort to control my raging emotions.
Kakashi sighed as he subtly checked the time and reopened his book. It was clear that he didn't care. I was wasting his and the Uchiha's precious time. "I have selected another teacher that will be much better suited to you and your needs Naruto. Don't be so immature."
The flash of red that streaked through my eyes, if he had bothered to pay attention to me might have surprised him. "Just who is this supposed better teacher'? I growled.
Kakashi raised his eyebrow but never lifted his eyes from the dirty little book in his hands. "Ebisu."
Even with his head in his book, Kakashi could not help but notice the quick flaring of demonic chakra coming from his student this time. His head snapped up and his eye narrowed. "Naruto!" He barked at me. "Control yourself! You are a ninja and not a little boy any longer. You can't always have what you want in life and you must learn that now."
Kakashi may have thought that I was listening to his orders, but he would be surprised to learn differently. I had reeled in my emotions on my own before he spoke. He was not worth the loss of control if this was the way he was going to treat me.
"If you really do side with the village, and hate me for something that I have no control over, then I pity you sensei." I bit out.
His book fell from his hand with a clatter on the floor but I didn't care what that might mean. "The only reason why I wanted you to teach me in the first place, was because I felt that you, unlike the rest of the ninja hear, actually would teach me with my best interest at heart. If you are willing to pawn me off on a teacher who hated me and has admitted to believing me to be the demon, then I no longer want any thing to do with you."
I started down the hall only to stop as he called my name. I heeded the call but refused to turn around. I did not want to see the proof that the man I admired hated me to.
"Since when have I ever gotten anything I ever I wanted Sensei?" I called out. My question was answered with silence. "As far back as I can remember I have only ever wanted a few things in my life. A store to sell me groceries that aren't expired, a safe place where they can't hurt me as I sleep, a fair chance to show them all who I really am, and the luxury of trusting in some one without having that trust thrown back in my face."
The longer I stayed there, the more things I would say that I shouldn't. On their own my feet began to move again. I could not help but send back one final thought. "One day, I hope to get what I want, but it obviously won't be today."
I escaped the familiar glares on the street by hopping up on the roofs of the village. Thankfully, I made it to my home before the tears could start.
I was so sure! I had thought that I had finally been accepted by someone and it blew up in my face.' I fumed to myself. That ignorant, hypocritical, …' "Naruto!"
I about jumped out of my skin when his voice boomed behind me. I spun on my heel to find that he must have followed me and come in through the window. "What did you mean about not having any one to trust?" he demanded.
What the hell!' I couldn't understand why he had followed me all the way here, just to ask that rather then one of the other thousand better questions that must be running through his mind.
"Exactly as I said, I have never trusted anyone who didn't kill that trust in the end." I plopped down tiredly on my bed that doubled as my couch in the day. I needed to escape this conversation and the only way out that I could see was to assume the fetal position in the corner of said couch/bed.
I felt the mattress dip as Kakashi added his weight to the worn out springs. "What about the rest of your team or the Hokage and Iruka, or even the people at your ramen store?"
I could hear the amusement in his voice. I understood what he was trying to do. The fool thought that I was just being melodramatic.
"My so called team have never said a kind word to me and it is hard to trust someone who talks to you in insults. The ramen people are kind but they have looked the other way before when people treated me bad. The Hokage watches me all the time in that crystal ball of his but also looks the other way when the villagers are hurting me. Iruka-Sensei managed to gain my trust once, but lost it when he as he forgot all about me on holidays and my birthday. I am important to him but only when he doesn't have anything better going on."
I took the chance to peek at my silver haired teacher. Hs expression was as always, to hard to decipher with the mask in place. "I was wrong Naruto."
His quiet whisper through me for a loop! The all mighty Kakashi was apologizing to me! I was flabbergasted.
"I am so sorry for my thoughtlessness. The truth is that I lied to you." He must have caught confused expression as he held up a hand for silence before I could so much as breathe. "I was not honest with you about by reasons for not training you and I am sorry that I hurt you. I was really trying to not hurt you." He said with a bit of irony.
"What the hell are you talking about?" I demanded.
"You deserve the truth no matter how much I don't want to explain it." He took a deep breath to calm himself and I wondered what could possibly have the stoic man so worked up.
"I don't want to let anyone else teach you at all. I don't want to go off with Sasuke and not you. I made this decision because I realized something very wrong about myself while you all were in the examination. "
"You are making absolutely no sense!" I loudly complained.
"While the three of you where in so much danger, I found myself only worrying about one of my students. The worse things got in the forest, the more I worried to the point that I only wanted that one student back, even if it was at the expense of the others."
I knew it' I thought. He really dose only care for the Uchiha.'
"When it was all over, and Sasuke had been hurt by that jerk, all I could think was that it was my fault for not caring if he came back."
My head whipped around so fast that a tendon in my neck popped painfully. My hand clutched the throbbing spot and I peered at Kakashi through teary eyes. "What?!"
Kakashi breathed in and out very deeply. "I felt so guilty for my shameful thoughts. A teacher should never care so much for a student but I just can't help myself. I need to put distance between us until I can control these feelings that I have for you Naruto."
I stared at him a moment with indecision. Finally, I made a choice; I slapped him hard across the face. "How dare you come into my home and make fun of me in such a way! Did you really thing that by lying to me and laughing at me like this that you could get off the hook for deserting me and my training?"
Kakashi's jaw dropped and his eye widened. "I am not lying Naruto! I would never disrespect you by playing with your feelings like that. I just wanted to protect you from my inappropriate behavior."
I leaned back to study him for any proof for, or against his declaration. "Prove it then." I demanded.
"How?" asked Kakashi.
I pondered my next move carefully. I reached out with a shaking hand to brush my fingertips along the seam where his mask met his cheek.
As I stroked the smooth skin, Kakashi closed his eye and leaned into the touch. I gently slid my finger under the fabric and peeled it slowly down his face and neck. His face was beautiful. A smooth square jaw and full moist lips under a strong, straight nose made up a
masculine yet gentle profile.
I swallowed hard before the final test. I leaned into the warmth of his body and pressed my lips to his. He froze up momentarily before melting into the kiss with a groan. Arms wrapped around me lovingly and he tilted his head for a better fit.
I felt him open his mouth and his lower lip guided mine down as well. A warm, wet appendage infiltrated my mouth. His tongue swept throughout my mouth possessively. He caressed my tongue with his and pulled a moan from my throat.
I was so distracted that the skin on skin contact did not register in my mind at first. When
I did finally notice, Kakashi had one arm under my shirt hem with the hand up on the base of my neck. His other hand was gliding up and down my side.
We parted for air and discovered that he had laid me down under him and that my legs where wrapped around his. My hands had mysteriously found the small of his back and his left butt cheek.
We stared into each other's eyes for a time in dumbfounded silence. "I shouldn't be doing this!" He groaned and then disappeared.
I lay in that same spot for hours.
I couldn't wrap my head around not only what had happened but also my reaction to it. I thought back over the way that Kakashi had always taken care of me on and off missions.
He would bring me food and bandage my wounds. He was always there when my other teammates failed to notice that I needed help. He truly was the only person that I could fully trust.
As the first rays of sunlight stretched over my floor the next morning, I completed my ultimate plan. First, find a good teacher to help me succeed in the exam. Second, do everything in my power to seduce Hatake Kakashi. And third, become the greatest Hokage ever!
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