(So, yeah... Only my second story, so please don't hate too much. Just constructive criticism please.

Also, WARNINGS. This story is going down a very dark path in my head, just so you guys know... So tags might be going up along the way, so please keep up with that. Last thing I want is someone triggered because they didn't read the tags.

Anyways... Enjoy, if you can.

ALSO: I switched Mute and Smoke's ages. Smoke is now 26, and Mute is 36.

WRITTEN BY PERNICIOUS FROM AO3)


The attack had taken them completely by surprise. The collective team had been hiding out in an unused warehouse as they quietly tracked the actions of a local terrorist group, their deep cover preventing them from having much contact with the states, effectively upending any call for assistance. The only thing that could really save any of them was that Ash was in the middle of one such rare comm.

How the terrorists found out about them, Smoke didn't know. All he remember of the first bit was an explosion rocking the ground beneath his feet, sending everyone scrambling.

Jack had been the first to get his gear, scanning the nearby walls in search of heartbeats, Monika's hand on his shoulder as she watched his back for anyone coming up behind. The others had been quick to get geared up, finding defensive positions that would effectively aid in repelling the attacks.

That had been a while ago, hours it felt like, but it couldn't have been more than a few minutes after the gunfire and explosions picked up that Smoke realized Kapkan wasn't by his side anymore. The Russian usually wandered during operations to place his trademark traps in preparation for enemies lacking in caution, but that didn't stop the young man from feeling sick about it.

So he'd gone out in search of the older, cautiously checking around every corner and doorframe as he'd been trained. Turning one corner had Smoke stopping dead in his tracks, fingers going numb as he caught sight of a familiar camo form pinned to the ground beneath a white-masked figure.

"Maxim." Smoke cried, the assailant looking up from where his blade was at Kapkan's throat, the russian's gaze fierce and carrying an air of urgent warning to stop the younger man from doing anything foolish.

"Don't move," the terrorist ordered in a rasping sort of way, hand getting a better grip on the dark hair of the man beneath him, drawing a growl from the Russian who gave an rumbled insult. His gaze never left Smoke though, his heart sinking. Why'd it have to be the brit that would stumble upon them? The one person in the world Kapkan would gladly sacrifice himself for?

Smoke froze as ordered, holding his hands up slightly, shotgun pointed carefully upwards as his hidden gaze flickered back and forth between his ally and the enemy that now held all the cards. The gunfire in the background had died down, but Smoke was too focused on those before him to really care. He'd exhausted his signature bomb supply, but even if he'd had any left, Kapkan had no protection against the toxic fumes it created.

"Put the gun down."

Lowering himself slowly to the floor with the intention of dropping his weapon had Kapkan twisting in his assailant's grip and spitting something in his native tongue, causing Smoke to hesitate.

The masked man gave a yank, pulling Kapkan's head upward to an uncomfortable degree, knife cutting deep enough into the fragile flesh to draw a thin stream of blood. "Drop it or I'll kill him."

Smoke dropped the gun almost immediately, taking a step back to give the masked man the assurance that he wouldn't use it.

"Drop the vest. Mask too."

Odd, but Smoke complied anyways, even as Kapkan gave him a venomous look. "Хищник, а не добыча!" He snapped, the man over top of him putting more pressure to the small of the russian's back with his knee, making it more difficult for him to breath.

"Don't do that!" Smoke pleaded, desperately wanting to rip the somewhat larger man off of his companion, but well aware of the consequences any aggression would derive, so he remained where he was, hands up and face twisting in fear and concern.

Kapkan tried to jerk his head free of the terrorist's grip, having a hard time of doing so with the way he was pinned, his attempts only seeming to amuse his captor. His desperation to protect Smoke was overwhelming, causing the russian to overrule his usual tactical calm in an escape he knew was futile.

"On your knees or I'll cut his throat."

The threat was very real, Smoke's brows furrowing ever so slightly as he began to obey, igniting Kapkan's legendary anger. It was rare for the russian to lose his temper, but the times that he did were enough for the team to hope they'd never incite it again.

"Прекрати идиот! Бег!"

What happened next happened so quickly that Smoke wasn't sure of what was going on before it was too late. Kapkan got one of his arms loose and began to twist free, the terrorist scrambling to keep his hold.

Brown eyes locked with blue, and Smoke could see the older man's gaze soften for the briefest of moments "я люблю тебя."

There was a flash of silver then Kapkan was face down in an ever-growing pool of crimson.

"Nooo!" Smoke screamed and started forwards just as a heavy boot connected with the side of his knee. A sickening crunch echoed his cry of pain, gloved hands reaching down to grasp at it as someone got him in a headlock.

Smoke's mind was in a chaotic battle for control, the pain radiating up his leg demanding attention, but his fingers were too busy trying to get between his neck and the arm of whoever was behind him, choking as he struggled to inhale.

"Not so fun for you, is it?" A dark voice questioned as he writhed and kicked, "to choke and suffer like those that breath whatever you mix into those canisters."

Pushed forwards Smoke caught himself on one arm, the other grasping at his neck and he coughed. His lungs burned and he felt the beginning of a headache coming on as another body was slumped down next to him. A sidelong glance was enough for the brit to identify the other survivor as Doc, the older male quickly looking him over from where he knelt. Funny that he wasn't worrying about himself.

"Which one's this one?"

"The medic I think."

"We don't need a medic."

"Then shoot him."

Smoke moved to get up again when one of their captors lifted his gun for the back of Doc's head, a swift kick to his injured knee enough to send him back down to the ground.

"Stand down."

The order came from behind, everyone present turning as best they could to identify the newcomer. He was clad in a balaclava with a skull holding a blade between it's teeth was painted onto it.

The silence was nearly eerie as everyone seemed to hold their breath, though out of respect or fear, Smoke wasn't sure which. All he knew was that this man was the leader. Either that or a very important figure to whoever this terrorist group was, but he didn't care to try to find out either. His gaze had turned back onto Kapkan, and he had to fight back the tears that began to brim.

"You said this one's the medic. Which one is this?"

Smoke reached up to grip a thick wrist as a gloved hand yanked his head up by the hair, the young man glaring up at the masked man before him. "This's the one that gassed half of Adil's group."

"Oh really?" The raspy voice questioned, the leader slowly getting down on one knee in front of Smoke, the young man glaring as best he could amidst the pain and emotional anguish he was currently suffering. "Tell me, did you create those yourself? I must say I've never seen a gas cause those types of affects before."

Unsure of how to respond, Smoke looked towards Doc, his companion giving the slightest shake of his head as if to warn him.

"Ah ah, don't look over there," a hand roughly turned Smoke back to face the man crouching before him, "you look right here, and answer my question."

Swallowing as he waited for a few moments in defiance, Smoke finally set his jaw. "No," he finally answered, refusing to let his gaze wander from the hard grey before him. "They were supplied. I don't know who made them."

Smoke couldn't see the larger man's face, but by the way he was looking at him, he could only guess that the other was smiling. "Hm. Shame."

Dread began to build up in Smoke, the young man watching as the assumed leader of the terrorist group pushed himself to his feet, gaze shifting over to Doc. "Leave him here, but bring the Brit."

Doc moved as if to get up, but Smoke moved faster, fist connecting with the stomach of whomever was closest to him, quickly sweeping his legs out from under him. The first fell with a surprised grunt as the young soldier tried to grab at the enemy commander. His attempts were futile, however, as he found himself on the ground with three bodies pinning his own.

"Something that's always amused me is how your soldiers fight upon capture." That rasping voice murmured, everything silent save for Smoke's heavy breathing. "Even when you're so obviously outnumbered, you still fight." Booted feet wandered closer as Smoke glared, teeth clenched as the unknown terrorist knelt down in front of him, head tilted in an almost condescending way. "Don't lose that fire. You'll need it."

"What about the medic?" Someone suddenly questioned.

"Leave him."

"But he can call in reinforcements! Give them intel!"

There was a low chuckle as the skull-faced man turned towards a suddenly skittish comrade. "There are others, aren't there? Survivors?" He questioned, that of which seemed to confuse the other. "I'm not... sure. We haven't had time to ensure that there wasn't." The shorter answered, shifting ever so slightly.

The grey-eyed man was smiling again, an odd glint in his eyes. "Then the medic will have to choose," he answered, turning to face Doc now. "He can either throw away his life and others who lie here possibly alive and wounded for one man. One that he can't save at all on his own or," that cold gaze turned towards Kapkan's lifeless body a few feet away. "He can work on saving those he can."

Smoke ground his teeth together as he tried to avoid looking at Kapkan's body, lower lip trembling as he fought to keep back the emotions threatening to break through the anger and fear. Those words kept ringing through his mind... я люблю тебя. я люблю тебя. He hadn't been able to say it back...

When the bodies atop his own lifted, Smoke immediately tried to get to Kapkan, slipping in the blood as hands grabbed at his arms and jerked him upright. "No! Let me go!" He shouted, thrashing as he attempted to reach the downed russian, desperately wanting to say those words back to him. я люблю тебя.

"Marius!"

His throat was sore now. Doc looked at a loss of what to do, confusion and trepidation dancing over his face as three enemy soldiers stood over him, ensuring that he didn't attempt to help his comrade.

"Gus! You gotta save him! Please you gotta save him!" Smoke shouted as he fought the hold his captors had on him, booted feet scrabbling to get a foothold. He was losing sight of Doc, of Kapkan.

He hadn't said it.

я люблю тебя.

He hadn't been able to tell him.

I love you.