"I'm sorry…Addie, Derek there is just really no explanation. More than 20 percent of all infertile couples have unexplained reasons…the test don't show any accurate conclusions but thus far all attempts have proved futile…I really am sorry." Dr. Nelson frowned as he laid the file down on his desk.
Derek's hand gently grasped Addie's in his own. The last two years had been trying…exhausting if you will. He wasn't sure what to do…where to go from here…"Dr. Nelson what are our options where do we go from here."
Addie let Derek's hand go "for God's sake Derek I'm a Gynecologist…I know the options, we both know what he is saying….we are all Doctors here let's not sugar coat anything or tiptoe around…we will never conceive on our own…we will never do this on our own."
Dr. Nelson leaned back in his chair, this was a normal reaction, Doctor or not emotions were running high…"there is adoption…" sensing Addie ready to jump in he held a hand up motioning for her to sit "there is also surrogacy…it's not for everyone but I think it's the closest you could get to having a child that is biologically yours…"
Derek sat in his chair, ready to stop the Doctor from going any further…they had been through enough and the dream of having his own family was fast becoming a nightmare. Ready to speak up he was startled by Addie's voice as she spoke up.
"How would we go about finding a surrogate and what would the procedure entail?"
Derek leaned back in his chair rubbing his throbbing temples, this was not how he envisioned the way things would go. Not how he imagined starting his family…
"Addie…" he started but stopped in his tracks when his eyes met hers, desperation was etched in her features, but desperation for what…their own happiness…or his. He didn't want her doing anything just for him, this needed to be for them…but something in her eyes told him to go along with it…to give into what she was silently begging him for "so Dr. Nelson how do we get this started…what do we need to do?"
Meanwhile across town in a overly hot apartment Meredith Grey sat amongst boxes that desperately needed unpacking. Two weeks of traveling across country, in a car that was on it's last legs. Two weeks of uneasiness of what would meet her once she reached her destination…now here she sat trying to gain the courage to open the boxes that silently mocked her.
Four months since her Mother had died, four long months trying to gain the courage needed to make her move, to return to her childhood home and figure out the pieces of the puzzle…she needed a job…she needed money and a home…for now she could mark one off her list, but it had never felt like a home before could it now? The back door slammed as foot steps made their way across the wooden floors as Matt pushed some old newspapers out of the way and joined her on the floor.
"So getting anywhere?" he asked as he scanned the dozen or so dusty boxes that filled what should have been the living room.
"Does it look like I'm getting anywhere…do you see any open boxes…or empty boxes for that matter?" she grimaced as she snapped unintentionally towards him.
"Gee Mer, sorry don't know what I was thinking…coming in her after leaving you alone for two hours…thinking just maybe you might have started to unpack….come on Mer you need to do it…you need to go through her things…just rip the band aid off and do it."
Taking a deep breath she knew he was right, picking up her scissors she sliced through the tape adorning the first box….here we go…
Walking out into the sun filled Seattle day, Derek shielded his eyes. The sounds of her heels on the cement echoing behind him, teasing him, taunting him…closing his eyes he tried to block out what he knew would come next…some how they were further apart than when they started this journey together. Somehow they had lost track of what they were searching for…and now it was just a big mess.
"Derek are you going to keep your back to me or are you going to turn around and discuss this with me…" Addie asked tapping the toe of her shoe, hands on her hips, anger playing across her features.
Turning to face her, defeat was written all over him. Ten years of marriage and this is what it had finally come down to…trying to save their marriage with a baby…he was too afraid of failing and this seemed to be the only thing worth fighting for lately.
"Ok…we can do it…"
Addie smiled, letting out a small cheer. Realizing she was drawing attention she covered her mouth stifling out her giggles as she threw her arms around his neck…"Derek thank you, thank you so much" capturing her lips with his, he could only hope they were making the right decision.
"I'll call Dr. Nelson in the morning…we can start interviewing candidates soon…we're going to have a baby Derek…our own little baby…before you know it we will be a family just like you always dreamed."
Derek smiled softly, lost in thought…a family…just like he'd always hoped for.
