"I'm not going to make it, but you are." Those are the last words of hers that he remembers as she laid bleeding on the ground from where Kai had shot her with the arrow. Then he felt himself getting pulled backwards by her magic.
Knowing what she was up to he tried to fight her not wanting to leave her side. But the witch was powerful and managed to drag him into the light. She flipped him around and managed to toss the device into his hands and he had a split second of horror to realize that he was about to leave her there behind. With agony and pain he screamed out No before disappearing into the white light.
The next thing that Damon knew he was back in present day Mystic Falls and had an emotional reunion with his brother. Damon had mixed feelings. He was overjoyed and happy to be back with Stefan but he was in pain of having to leave Bonnie behind. It felt like a piece of him was missing knowing that she was back trapped in 1994 with that psycho path Kai.
The guilt killed him knowing that she sacrificed herself for him. He was grateful to her for that but he also was angry at her. Angry because of her constant need to give up herself for others he wished that she would be selfish and think of herself for once. Even if that meant that he had to give up his life and happiness in order for her to live. If only he could go back to that time when they were in that cave. Wishing that he could have found a way to make sure that she got pulled into the light instead of him.
It killed him to have to tell her friends that she didn't make it back. Now it had been a little over a week since he had been back in present day Mystic Falls. He looked for answers and for ways to get her back but so far no one that he came upon had a clue.
Elena had compelled Alaric to forget about it and Damon had to admit that it bothered him some. But when he came back she asked Alaric to make her remember again and she did. Once again she was in love with him but Damon couldn't bring himself to be happy about that. No matter how hard Elena tried she couldn't get Damon to be with her like he was before. When he kissed her to see if something was still there he felt empty inside and he knew that it was all because of Bonnie.
The four months that he had spent with Bonnie in 1994 had been some of the happiest that he had ever had in his life. Not the kind that he believed that he had with Elena but true happiness.
Now Damon sat in the sitting room of the boarding house deep in thought and thinking about the time that he had spent with Bonnie. Jeremy staggered into the room and Damon kind tell that the young Gilbert was drunk.
Jeremy eyed him with disdain.
Damon ignored it at first.
Jeremy spoke. "Must feel great for you to be back while she could be trapped back there dead."
Damon turned his head giving Jeremy an icy stare.
Jeremy steps forward. "I bet that you couldn't wait to leave her behind and left for dead. You probably jumped on the opportunity to abandon her just so that you could rush back here to be with my sister."
Running out of patience Damon ran a hand over his face. "Look little Gilbert I can clearly see that you are drunk. So I'm going to give you a chance to shut your mouth before you say something that you regret."
"Why?" Jeremy grumbled. "Because you don't want to hear the truth. That Bonnie is stuck behind in some kind of hell because of you."
In a burst of frustration Damon slammed his fist on the table and got to his feet. "Damn it! I didn't want to leave her behind. She dragged me into the light and made me leave without her. If it was my choice I never would have left her side."
Jeremy folded his arms. "So then she sacrificed herself for someone, a man who never gave a shit about her."
Damon pointed. "Watch yourself, little Gilbert."
Moving even close Jeremy kept on. "Can't believe that she gave up her life for you. And now she maybe dead while you're here alive."
Damon chuckled but there was zero humor behind it. "Kind of like all of the times that she gave up her life for you."
Swallowing, Jeremy just glared at Damon.
This time Damon stepped forward. "Since you brought the subject up let's go through the list. Just exactly how many times did the witch die for you? All because you were a weakening who couldn't stand up for yourself or protect her. How many times did you and Elena put her life in danger because of her insane need to save the two of you? As a matter of fact the whole reason that she is stuck in 1994 is because she had to become an anchor after dying for you."
"Take that back." Jeremy demanded.
"No." Damon said. "I won't take it back. Yes Bonnie gave up her life for mine but you know what the difference is between you and me. I actually do something when her life is in danger. I'll move heaven and earth for ways to find a way to bring her back. While you do nothing but sit on your ass while she is out there dying and suffering. All that you did was help keep the secret that Bonnie was dead.
"But me just like I did before I'll find a way to bring her back. I won't give up on her until I do. Even if that means that I have to crawl on my hands and knees to every inch of the earth to find a way. Because believe on not little Gilbert I do care about Bonnie."
Jeremy sneers. "Sure you want be to believe that you appreciate Bonnie."
Damon smirks. "Do you really want to question how I show my appreciation towards her. This coming from a guy who was dimwitted enough to cheat on her with a ghost. When he had a warm blooded, beautiful girlfriend in front of him. And from what I hear you've been screwing every chick for the past few months that you have come across. Way to honor memory there."
Jeremy cursed.
"Truth hurts doesn't it." Damon said.
Jeremy made a move like he was about to punch Damon.
"Go ahead." Damon warned. "I've been really pissed off for the last ten days and I wouldn't love to have someone to take it out on."
Stefan steps into the room. "Hey calm down you two."
Damon turned towards his brother. "Why don't you tell little Gilbert to calm down. He's the one that started it."
Stefan towards Jeremy. "Maybe you should get out for a bit and let cooler heads prevail."
Turning Jeremy turns and storms out of the room.
Shaking his head Damon turns towards the bar and pours himself some bourbon.
Stefan joins his brother pouring his own glass.
Taking a big gulp Damon sighs. "So I guess you overheard all of that."
"Yep." Stefan confirms.
"Going to lecture me on why I shouldn't be getting into a confrontation with little Gilbert." Damon wondered.
"Actually I agree with some of what you said." Stefan says.
Emptying his glass Damon pours himself some more. "Sorry that I haven't been completely here. I mean I'm happy to be back here with you. But there is just a big part of me that's just….."
Stefan understood. "Missing Bonnie."
Damon nods. "Yeah."
"The fact that you can miss her just goes to show how far your relationship has gone with her." Stefan mutters. "The fact that you refuse to forget about her and that you just can't pick up with your life shows the good in you. That's deep."
Damon frowns. "I didn't want to leave her behind, Stefan."
"I know that you didn't." Stefan said
His glass was empty again. Damon put it down on the bar. "You know I tried to fight her to stay behind but she was too strong and she made me go. Giving up her chance to get home so that I could make it."
Stefan goes. "That's Bonnie for you."
Damon states. "I'm grateful to her for it. I want to hug for it but at the same time I want to yell at her and to tell her to stop sacrificing herself for everyone all of the time."
"You'll get your chance to do both." Stefan added "We are going to find a way to get her back."
"You're right." Damon agrees. "I didn't realize how much peace being around her for four months brought me until now. Bonnie made me feel free, She made me feel…."
"Human." Stefan finishes.
Damon smiles. "Yes human. She brought out parts of me that no one has been able to before."
Damon proceeds to tell his brother about the time that he had spent with Bonnie. About the pancakes and the crosswords puzzles. The trips to the supermarket. Dinners in front of the fireplace. Dancing to 90's hits and playing board games with Bonnie. Watching the witch sleep with cuddle the teddy bear and how adorable she looked.
Stefan assumed. "Pancakes and dancing to 90's music. You're right Bonnie did bring out the human side of you."
Damon laughed and then turned serious. "I hate the idea of her being trapped in that hell. Not knowing if she is dead or alive. Knowing that she is there alone with that psycho Kai and that I can't do anything to protect her from him."
"We'll get her back brother." Stefan reassures.
"We better." Damon said "I don't think that I can go on with my life until we do. I owe her."
Stefan nods. "I do too. For her bringing you back to me. For all of the times that she has saved all of us before. I owe it to Bonnie to fight to bring her back."
Damon swallows. "I've looked all around Mystic Falls and the surrounding counties and so far no one has any answers."
"Then we will go else where all across Virginia and America if we have to." Stefan said "And like you said you'll crawl on your hands and knees on every inch of this earth to find a way to bring her back. And I shall be by your side crawling with you."
Damon gestures. "Thanks, brother."
Stefan pats him on the shoulder. "No problem. It's what we do."
Ten days that was how long ago she had seen Damon. The last that she had seen of him since she had forced him to go into the light and he had disappeared before her eyes. After that she found a way to escape an outraged Kai from the cave. She had to go to the local clinic so that she could close up the wound that Kai had caused when he shot her with the arrow.
Kai was so anger and filled with rage at her that she had given Damon a way to escape and left him behind that he came after her twice in the last ten days. Both times Bonnie managed to subdue him with her magic and got away. Because she know that Kai would keep coming back to the boarding house to look for her. Bonnie gathered all of the supplies and the food that she could and used Damon's car to drive herself to a different part of town. She had managed to throw off Kai's track of her and it had been about five days when she saw him last.
Kai couldn't find her and to keep it that way Bonnie went to a house that she knew and hoped Kai wouldn't come looking for her and that was Matt's childhood home. Hiding Damon's car in the back yard away from the view of the street. She had taken all of the food and supplies inside and cast a protection spell around the house just in case Kai found out where she was.
Now sitting in the house alone Bonnie was feeling lonely and miserable. There appeared to be no way out since the device was destroyed. Bonnie was sad but at least Damon had gotten out. She figured that he must have been happy by now reunited with his brother and Elena like he always wanted to be.
Bonnie had to admit that a big part of her missed him being there. She had gotten so used to being with him every day for the past four months that she didn't know what she had until it was gone. Even though he said things that would annoy her at times she would do anything to hear his voice again.
Despite their constant bickering and snarky comments towards each other she had become attached to the dark haired Salvatore. She had bonded with him. From his bad dance moves, to his goofy looks she had seen sides of him that she had never seen before. And had to admit that the thought of not seeing him ever again hurt her inside.
When she told him 'Not exactly'. It was because she meant it there wasn't another person that she would have rather been with at that time other than Damon. The smile that he had given her after she had told him that warmed her inside. But that moment had been snatched away when Kai shot her.
And now she was stuck here in Kai's prison alone after yet again giving up her life for someone else. She felt so alone. She missed everyone but most of all she missed Damon. At her wits end Bonnie grabbed cuddles, curled up on the couch and cried herself to sleep.
So tell me what you think. Should I keep on with this story?
