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Thoughts From A Diary
Chapter One

Always. He ALWAYS runs to her, that stupid clay pot, Kikyou. I know that no matter what I do,he will always love her more and I hate it. I'm not trying to be selfish, I just know that to him, I'm just a shard detector..nothing more. No matter how much I love him, she will always be his first choice. Every time he sees those soul collectors, he runs off to find her, then comes back and tries to say it was a misunderstanding. He tries to say that he owes Kikyou his life.. but Idon't believe him. He loves her and we both know it. I should just leave here... Leave and never come back to this era. He wouldn't care. So long as he has his precious Kikyou.

"Maybe I should." Kagome sighed sadly.

"Maybe you should what?" A familiar voice said behind her.

"Uh... N-Nothing..." Kagomesaid as she hastily closed her diary so the all too familiar hanyou wouldn't see what she had written.

She could feel him watching her as she put her diary book into the giant yellow bookbag.

"Come on," she said putting a fake smile on her face, " let's go see what the others are up to."

"Uh.. Okay..." InuYasha replied hesitantly. Really all he wanted to do was stay here and be alone with her but he knew he couldn't. He knew that she had seen him and Kikyou together, but she needed to understand that he owed Kikyou his life. Sure, he used to love Kikyou, but that love disappeared after she pinned him to that tree with the sacred arrow. He loved Kagome now, more than anything, or anyone, in the world. He just hadn't realized it until about a month earlier.

Flashback

The gang had just finished fighting Naraku again and all they could think about was

'Where is Kagome?'

Kagome had been hit by one of Kagura's wind attacks and had been blown into the woods so far that InuYasha couldn't smell her scent. That worried him. Everyone was terrified for their friend's life and InuYasha was just, well, worried.

Sango could be heard telling Kirara, the fire cat, to fly a little closer to the ground as InuYasha ran below the tops of the trees, calling Kagome's name repeatedly.

"Damnit, Kagome, Where could you have possibly gone?" InuYasha asked to no one in particular.

He heard a slight whimper somewhere close, but couldn't smell anything over the scent of blood. Kagome's blood.

"Kagome? Is that you?"

He heard a twig crack behind him and spun around to see Kagome covered in blood from head to toe.

She was just barely standing up and she was about to fall when InuYasha caught her.

"Kagome? Are you alright?"

"Inu- InuYasha... take me to Kaede." she said as she fought the unconscious state that loomed over her.

"Okay Kagome."

She smiled slightly. "Good." she said, then she fell into unconsciousness.

"Kagome, just promise you won't leave me! I love you!" Though he knew she didn't hear him.

End Flashback

"InuYasha? Anyone home?" Kagome asked with a smile.

"Of course, wench. I was just thinking."

"Well fine! God, I'm going to go find the others." she said as she stormed out of the hut.

"Feh. Whatever, wench."

As soon as she left, InuYasha rushed to where Kagome's bookbag was.

"Now where is that damn diary...?"

Heh... what she said in her diary about InuYasha sounds like my ex-boyfriend..minus the soul collecting/clay pot thing...grrr...anyway Next Chapter should be coming soon...If not, I'm REALLY SORRY! It's Civil War week at my school so I'm not really going to have a lot of time to write it.. but i will try! Review!