Gone. He's gone. I just keep repeating it to myself over and over again. I'm not sure how I will move on, he was my first real love and now he's gone, gone, gone...
I opened my eyes and see that he's gone, I couldn't bare to keep my eyes open while he flew away.
"Lucifer... please" I whispered but I knew he wasn't coming back. Tears start to form in my eyes as I look around the empty penthouse. I slowly walk up to his room and crawl in bed, the bed we've shared before but never in the way I wanted. He always made it clear how much he wanted to sleep with me but now he will never even get the chance. I burst into tears and curl into a ball when suddenly I hear the ding of the elevator.
"Chloe...?" I hear Maze say. I cant reply, I just keep crying. I hear footsteps as Maze makes her way over to me and slowly sits on the bed.
" Where is Lucifer? What did he do now?" she asks me. I manage to choke back my tears enough to get one word out. " Hell" I whispered. Maze looks at me in complete shock and says " What do you mean he went back to hell? He wouldn't do that, he left and made it clear he was never going back". I take a deep breath and try to stop the tears and tell her how he was worried this was just the start of the demons coming back and since they all knew he never planned to go back that they would become more and more defiant so he did what he thought was best.
Maze sits there and soaks it all in. " All I wanted for so long was to go back to that place, it was my home, it was his home until he met you Chloe" Maze exclaimed. I think about what she is saying, Lucifer loves me and it seems like he has for as long as I've loved him. I wish I would have been honest with him about I felt sooner, seeing his devil face for the first time really scared me but deep down I knew he was still the same man, the man who did anything to protect me. The man who risked his life for me all even though I made him vulnerable. " Maze, I need him, I love him so much". Maze looks at me with tears in her eyes." I'm going to miss him too, Chloe but you will be okay again." I try so hard to think that she could be right but I just don't believe it myself. There is a piece of me missing and it won't be healed until he's back here holding me and building a life with me. I need to find a way to get him here. There must be a way.
"Chloe, I wasn't expecting you to visit today" Linda exclaims happily. " Where is that handsome devil as well?". My eyes suddenly start to fill with tears when Amenadiel walks in with Charlie. " He went back, didn't he?" He asked me with a sadness in his voice. I just nod. They both look at me with complete shock. I explained why Lucifer went back and how I understand it fully but I don't know how I'll manage to move on. I regret leaving after I saw his face, that is time I'll never get back with him. I start thinking back to how I tried to send him back to Hell after I came home, I knew deep down I never could've done it, I just love him so much and even after and seeing his face I knew that he would never hurt me. I knew him. I loved him and I knew he was the same man he had always been. The same man that would have done anything to protect me. The man who took bullets to save me without a second thought and I just ran from him. I regret how I reacted so much. It was a lot to handle but nothing compared to not having him in my life. " I need him back, please Amenadiel, you need to help me, please" I beg to him as he start to explain how he doesn't think that'll be possible. I think back to all the good times we had, the times he kissed me and how that those moments made me feel like nothing else could. He's my angel. I remember when I explained to him that he wasn't the devil to me, he never seemed to want to believe me but that's never how I saw Lucifer, even when he was ordering the demons back to hell with his red skin I still saw my angel. I need him back. I need my Lucifer back. " Amenadiel please, there must be a way for him to come back without the demons coming back to earth, I need him" I cut him off. Amenadiel stops talking and starts thinking about how he needs his brother here. How Charlie needs his uncle, no matter how reckless he can be. I stare at him with pleading eyes. I start thinking back about if I'd never gone to the church Lucifer would still be here. It's my fault that he's gone and I can't accept he won't come back. Had I never gone, had I just accepted the devil face from the first place he never would have started dating Eve again, she never would have gone to the church and the demons wouldn't have come up. I take a deep breath and say " Amenadiel please, I can't go down to Hell to be with him, not with Trixie, he needs to come back, someone else needs to do his job". They both look at me with sadness yet determination to help me, the broken girl. I start thinking about the fact that no matter what I will make sure I see Lucifer again. I will end up in Hell after I die. I want to be his queen, forever by his side.
I couldn't go home. Not yet. I found myself back at the penthouse in his bed, holding the necklace he gave me remembering the time he gave it to me, I loved him then, I don't know why I couldn't be honest with him. Sign. "God, I don't know if you're listening but please, give him back to me. Find someone else to take his place, he's your son, you must care about his happiness, please!" I yell up to the sky with tears rolling down my cheeks again. I take a deep breath and walk to the bar and think of all the good times we've had together when suddenly I see something blow in from the balcony. I quickly run over and pick it up, a note!
" Detective, I'm sorry that I had to go back. I know I've never told you until recently but I love you so much. I have for so long, you were my first love and you will be my only love. I hope that one day you'll be my queen, by my side for all of eternity as selfish as that is. I will never ask you to come down to hell as a beautiful soul like you belongs in the silver city when you no longer walk the earth. You changed me for the better, with everyone else I feel like the devil but with you I feel like the angel I once was. I hope you understand why I had the leave, I couldn't live with myself if something happened to you Chloe. I know I've only been gone a few days for you but it's been an eternity for me, the last time I was here when I came down to save you and knowing I'd see you soon kept me going. I'm heartbroken not knowing when/if I'll ever see you again. I am so sorry I had to leave. I miss you and I love you, forever. My heart is yours for eternity." Tears start to overflow from my eyes as I read those words over and over again. Gone. He's gone. I just keep repeating it to myself over and over again. I'm not sure how I will move on, he was my first real love and now he's gone, gone, gone...
Weeks pass, then months. 6 months since he's been gone. I never seen anyone anymore. Amenadiel has been trying to think of a solution to get him back to earth but nothing yet. Trixie keeps asking me every single day when she will see Lucifer again, she misses him so much. I keep explaining to her that he had to go, he's doing a good job keeping the bad people away. Keeping us safe but it doesn't mean he doesn't love us. I haven't been back to work since he left, I can't bring myself to go back without my partner. I've barely leave the house, the depressing is eating away at me but I keep staying strong for Trixie. Sign. I'll be okay. I'll be okay. I'll be okay. No matter how much I repeat it, I don't yet believe it.
As I make my way up to my room, I remind myself I need to go back to the penthouse, just to make sure everything is okay. Lux closed its doors months ago but I keep going back at least once a week, I lay in his bed and cry. Just as I get in my bed I feel the wind, the same kind as when Lucifer left, I sit up quickly and start to look around, feeling hopeful but nothing. Sign, I lay back down. I'm so stupid to think that he would magically be back. I hug my pillow as tight as I can. "Chloe" I hear someone say. I quickly turn on the light and look around again but nothing. Emptiness again. Sign. I turn the light off and lay down again when suddenly I smell something, mmm, smells like Lucifer. Tears start to form again. " I love you, Lucifer" I whisper into the darkness as I do every night while I hold his note. Just as I start to drift off to sleep I feel someone sit on the end of the bed. " I love you too, Chloe" I heard. That voice. It can't be. I must be hallucinating. I turn on the light ahead and sit up and there he is. Lucifer sitting on the edge of my bed, looking as handsome as ever. " LUCIFER!" I scream as I throw my arms around him and hug him with all my strength. He holds me back just as tightly. I finally feel whole again. My missing piece is back. " I missed you so much" we both say at the same time and start laughing together. He looks at me, " Chloe" he whispers and he softly caresses my cheek while looking down at me lovingly. I give him a small smile. I missed him so much, he looks as handsome as ever. He leans down and kisses me, slowly at first and then harder. More eager. I kiss back and slowly start to off his jacket and unbutton his shirt, I run my hands over his smooth chest. I need him. So much. He grabs my nightgown and rips it off my body leaving me completed nude. I try to hide myself when he grabs my arms and holds them down. " Don't you ever hide yourself from me, you're beautiful" I blush as he says that. I lean over and help him remove his shirt completely and start unbuttoning his pants. He quickly stands up and removes everything. I stare at this man in awe, he's perfect and he definitely wasn't exaggerating when he claimed to be well endowed. He climbs back in bed on top of me and starts kissing me, all over, starting at my mouth, slowly kissing down my neck to my breast, taking his time to pay lots of attention to my nipples. I feel myself start to drip with how wet I'm getting. He seems to sense how turned on I'm getting and slowly keeps kissing down my stomach, then doing each leg. " Please, I need you" I exclaim when he looks at me with complete hunger in his eyes. He brings his lips back to mine and slowly starts to enter me. I gasp for air as he fills me. I've never felt this complete before, it is like he has been perfectly made for me and I for him. He slowly starts to move in and out of me as I moan with pleasure . I've never felt anything like this in my life before. He looks as complete as I feel, moving faster and faster as I start to get louder. " I'm getting so close" I manage to get out between moans. He gives me a devilish grin and starts to go even faster. " OH FUCK" I scream in pleasure as I start to quiver as I cum. I feel him explode in me at the same time as he leans down and whispers to me " I love you so much" and collapses beside me in exhaustion. I cuddle up to his side and hold on to him as we both drift to sleep.
I wake up with a big smile on my face. My Lucifer is back. I feel him start to stir and he looks at me with nothing but love and gives me a kiss. I pull back and ask how he managed to come back. "My mother is back, back in this universe. Amenadiel saw her last night and explained that happened. She wanted to help Chloe, she knows how I feel about you, she wants me be happy with you. She said my father heard you. He went and found her so she could take over Hell for me so I could come back." He says with a soft smile. I smile back at him, "You have no idea how happy I am to hear that, it means you can stay right?" I asked with my voice full of hope. "I am forever yours, Chloe, I love you" he smiles and leans down for another kiss. "I love you too, Lucifer, forever and always".
