Title: In god's hands
Author:
Rebecka Larsson
Rating:
K
Classification:
Lost; angst; Jack/Kate
Spoilers:
No spoilers, hopefully
Disclaimer:
"Lost" do not belong to me. It all belongs to JJ Abrams,
the creators and producers of Lost. Don't sue.
Written:
09 April, 07 – 0 April, 07
Summary: Jack and Kate has
been together for about three months, when they both feel like their
attraction for each other is slowly fading away.
A/N:I used the song 'In God's Hands,' by Nelly Furtado, as an inspiration for the story, so why don't you listen to that song, while reading it. Please review
Kate's POV.
What bothered her the most wasn't the fact that he checked Juliet out. It was the fact that he looked at her the exact same way he looked at Kate a while back, before they finally threw in the towel and revealed their love for one another. He looked at her as though he wanted to be with her, and it didn't even seem like just lust, which would've been okay. It almost seemed like he had feelings for her, stronger feelings than lust and friendship.
Kate couldn't let her steal him from her, right? She needed him, and she needed him to need her. Had she done something wrong, or maybe she hadn't been there for him the way she used to. But could he really blame her? Sawyer was probably Kate's best friend on this island, and he died. He couldn't expect Kate to be all cheery and loving all the time. She needed time to mourn her friend.
And if he couldn't handle being without her, without running to Juliet, maybe he wasn't the guy she thought. Oh, god, Kate couldn't believe she was thinking those words. She needed to have more faith in him. It wasn't like he had cheated on her. No, he was completely faithful and she shouldn't doubt him. But he looked at her with such a hunger, Kate couldn't help but wanting to be in her shoes. She wanted him to look at her that way again... at least that was what she believed and wanted to be true.
But the more Kate thought about it, she found it that he didn't make her feel the way he used to. Maybe she didn't want to be the girl he watched and gave all his attention to. Maybe she didn't feel the same way for Jack anymore.
I looked at your
face I saw that all the love had died
I saw that we
had forgotten to take the time
I saw that you
couldn't care less about what you do
Couldn't care less
about the lies
You couldn't
find the time to cry
Jack's POV.
Juliet was so beautiful, and her golden locks shimmered as the sun went down behind the horizon. Her voice had never cracked one time during the time they had known each other, and Jack loved the confidence she spread. He sometimes thought about what it would be like to spend a night with her, or maybe even have a relationship with her. They had so much in common, and they did feel something for each other. But Jack was with Kate.
He loved Kate, and he had never before doubted that they were meant to be. But after Sawyer died, Kate never became the same again. Jack knew he shouldn't blame her for that, because they were so good friends, and maybe more than so. They did sleep together once. Jack could still feel the rage and mistrust in Kate when he thought about that moment. He remembered that when he saw that, he really gave up everything that had to do with having a relationship with her.
But Jack loved her. He saw beyond her faults and past mistakes. And he knew that it was now that Kate needed him, more than ever. She lost her friend, and in a way, so did Jack. Yes, he had to admit that something in him was relieved when Sawyer passed on after being shot by Ben, because then Kate was his. He totally took advantage of the situation, and made drastic moves, and he won the girl. He didn't regret it, telling Kate how he felt about her, not at all.
But when he looked at it now, he saw that he made a mistake. He picked the wrong time. Yes, they had spent two amazing months together, but the last month she had drastically pulled away. She hadn't broken down over Sawyer's death until then, and Jack realized that it would've been much better if her breakdown happened right when the accident, but their love kept her going.
Jack turned and looked at Kate who, he saw now, was watching him and Juliet. He did think Kate was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen, and she did top Juliet. But right now, it seemed like the amazing personality that Jack had fallen in love with was fading away. And maybe so was his love for her.
We forgot
about love
We forgot
about faith
We forgot
about trust
We forgot
about us
I hope you like it, and review and let me know if it's worth continuing. I have a little twist in mind, if I should continue, but I'm not sure about it. And I promise that if I do continue, there will be some talking as well ;)
