Till Morning

Till Morning

Punch, punch. Kick, kick.

Sweating, thoughts focussed.

How do I look Vegeta?

Focussed, cold, no distractions.

Yes.

Cold, hard.

You must be lonely.

The mind plays tricks.

Nothing, I feel nothing.

Black.

Black, blue and gold.

So much black

Colours playing tricks in the forbidden corners of a secretive mind.

Repulsed but ever drawn towards it.

Pain.

The pain of memories that will not be forgotten.

Only locked away

You know, bottling things up isn't good for you.

Is that why you cry and scream so much then?

A fragile lock, holding back what?

Locked so long ago.

No memory of what's behind it.

You can tell me if you want to.

Don't be stupid.

Focus.

Anger, keeps the memories away.

Keeps everyone away.

You push everyone away.

Then why are you here?

Punch, kick. Kick, punch.

Defeat Kakarott, defeat Kakarott.

Broken body on the ground.

Satisfying.

Hollow.

You can't spend your whole life trying to beat Goku.

What do you care?

Stop.

Sweat droplets trailing down bare chest.

More work.

Push-ups now.

1, 2, 3, 4…

I care

10, 11

Up and down.

Simple.

Unlike life.

Slender fingers on his arm.

Eyes meeting through the frozen silence.

Push it away.

Focus.

Think clearly.

Clearly.

Clear and blue.

21, 22

Warm breath mingles, lips meet.

Tentatively, then…

Arms around his neck.

Hands on her back, closer, closer.

Closer to the ultimate goal.

The Super Saiyan.

Pinnacle of achievement.

Keep going.

Concentrate.

47, 48

Fingers running through soft blue hair.

Slender body beneath his.

Nipples taught against his chest.

Admit it.

Admit it.

The voices of the past.

His Father, Freeza.

Admit that you –

Legs around his waist, face buried in his neck.

Sweet scent of female sweat and fluids.

Oh, Vegeta, oh…

No.

Concentrate.

Ignore the door, the voices from behind it.

The lock will not be broken.

74, 75

U and down.

Head lying on his chest.

Brush stray strands of blue away from her peaceful sleeping face.

Feelings overwhelm him.

Just for a moment.

But it only takes one moment of weakness…

Feelings.

Emotions.

All weaknesses.

Except anger.

Anger is strength, a shield.

Up and Down.

Admit it.

101, 102

Have to get away.

Shift carefully beneath her.

Stay.

Stay till morning.

Admit it!

More insistent.

There's no holding them back.

Admit that you . . . . . . love her.

The lock breaks.

Blue, black and gold.

Emotions.

Yellow aura, so much power.

Blue, black and gold.

Blue and gold.

Just blue and gold.

Till Morning.