You Start I'll Finish
Dear Diary
Everything about my life is complicated! I was a vampire but now I'm a human. I'm always sick, bored and I feel different. My running is slow, my strength is weak and my feelings are always changing! I get tired easily and the only thing I crave now is chocolate! People aren't scared or intimated of me, they laugh…especially Damon. The boy who was once in my control is now laughing in my face and treating me like every other pesky human. Elena is the new me, except more sweet and innocent. Vampire doesn't suit her, she stole everything from me! I should be getting revenge but I'm human, she's a vampire…see the problem here? And to top things off, I'm alone. All I have is enemies, no family, no friends and no love. Is my life seriously going to be this tragic? Or can I make my human life better than my vampire life? I don't even know why I bother trying. Maybe this diary will change how I feel about things. Maybe I'll find someone…anyone.
Katherine
I shut the little white book and put it under my bed. I live in the Salvatore boarding house and as big as it may seem, those brothers are bound to find this diary. Still, I can't carry it round with me and it's best to just hope. I stood up and stretched. My bones were weak and my neck was sore. Human issues, not an issue I would have if I was still a vampire. I looked in the mirror, pale cheeks, messy hair and a depressed face. This is what I see every morning, I should be used to it but I still imagine that I'm a vampire which makes things worse. I guess I'm not completely different, I still dress the same, honestly my personality is still a bit the same and I'm still me. It's hard to explain. I sighed and quickly brushed my hair. I wasn't happy with it but it's not like I could spend hours working on it, I don't have hours to waste anymore. I walked into the giant living room. I saw Damon lounged on the couch drinking bourbon. He knows I'm here but he's just ignoring me. Humans aren't cool enough to be noticed when it comes to Damon, unless your Elena. I decided to make myself noticed. I slowly walked over to the couch; I am not going to be treated like a ghost anymore, I thought. I stood right in front of Damon's face, put my hands on my hips and smirked.
"Hello Damon," I said sweetly. Damon looked up at me. He was beautiful. Dark hair and amazing eyes…it was hard to forget that I ever loved him but it was Stefan who appealed to me more, unfortunately none of the Salvatore brothers cared for me…they all cared for my doppelganger. I raised an eyebrow at him.
"Katherine," he replied. I rolled my eyes. Is that the only way people know how to answer someone? What about, hey or even yes! I sighed inside; I guess if it was anyone else then it would be a simple hey or yes. But since it's me…I think you know. Damon was still staring at me. He was smiling and I was smirking, even though inside I was planning ways I could stake him right now!
"How is the human Katherine today?" He asked mockingly.
"Oh I'm great Damon, loving life, living life to the fullest. Getting sick and tired while you are healthy and forever you…it couldn't get any better!" I shouted the last part. I was so angry and I kept it bottled in most of the time. As a vampire I would always share my feelings and speak my mind. Maybe when I was human a few hundred years ago I was maybe (and it's a big maybe!) I was sweet, happy and…and innocent? Then again when you become a vampire your emotions and personality are magnified. And I was never innocent (unless I was acting) as a vampire. I nearly forgot Damon was there; he wasn't smiling at me anymore but instead just glared at me with a confused look. I tilted my head slightly "Damon?" I asked. He kept staring at me except now his mouth was open. He wanted to say something…but what? Surely he wasn't shy. Finally he spoke "Elena?" I stared at him shockingly! What the hell is wrong with him? About two seconds ago he was mocking me, Katherine about being human, now he thinks I'm Elena? These Salvatore brothers confuse me so much!
"Um Damon, it's me Katherine." I said sharply. He looked intrigued and a little scared. Okay now I'm worried!
"You look like Elena, Elena Gilbert." He whispered. I threw my hands up in anger, was this some kind of joke he was pulling!
"Of course I look like Elena idiot! She's my doppelganger!" My voice was rising very high; soon the whole of Mystic Falls would be able to hear me.
"Doppelganger?" he said "wow, I didn't know they existed," he laughed quietly. I looked around me to see if Stefan or even Elena was around…I'd settle for anyone right now. But no one in sight, just me and a very weird Damon.
"Okay what is wrong with you Damon?" I asked. Instead of him answering he stood up quickly, his face was only inches away from mine, he stared at me.
"Damon?" I asked a little scared now. Maybe he was bitten by a werewolf for the hundredth time! "Are you sick?"
He starting laughing, this time as himself "oh wow, you should've seen your face!" He mimicked the face I had before and dropped back on the couch laughing. I just stood there…angrily. "Listen vampire boy, I may be human but that does not mean I'm weak…I'm still able to drive a stake through your heart!" I shouted. He was still laughing "Katherine" he put his hand on my arm and I looked at it "please, stop embarrassing yourself," he winked and then walked off.
I wanted to cry. But I couldn't, I needed to be strong. Not just for myself but for everyone around me. If they saw how weak and emotional I really was then I'd never get any respect from anyone. So I went to the door and went outside. Fresh air felt nice on my skin, it was the one thing I actually enjoyed about being human…the feeling of the morning sun and sky. Looking at the peaceful clouds, I groaned "it's not me."
I didn't have a car or any transpiration. As a vampire I relied on my speed and just stole a car when it was needed. But now if I tried to steal a car I'd end up in jail. So I walked. I didn't rush, I just simply walked. It was my time to enjoy life. I hated myself but was it worth wasting the rest of my life… hating myself? Maybe, but then I saw that face…and I realised there was another way to enjoy life, with love and happiness.
"Hello Katherine," I smiled as he said my name
"Hello Elijah."
