Hi this is my first story i hope everyone likes i am a hug lost fan (kinda addict LOL) and i have a wild imagination (everyone says i am crazy LOL) so i thought that i would make my own story i spent a lot of time on the first chapter and i hope more to come :]
===-===-+++ Jack's Dilemma: CHAPTER ONE (1) +++-===-===
"Jack?"
Kate paused in the doorway. He was brooding again, alone as usual. She could tell by the slump of his shoulders, as if the weight of the entire world were rested upon them. "Or, at least, the weight of the entire Island." She thought, to herself.
He continued to mope, apparently having not heard her. She watched silently, a brown lock of hair framing the side of her face. There was something different in him the past few days, something eating him like she hadn't seen before. It seemed as though there were some dark, secret thing which was churning in his stomach. Something she couldn't draw out, no matter how she'd tried.
"You can stop staring. I know you're there."
Kate blinked a few times, and smiled slyly. Stepping into the main room of the Hatch, she looked around for an excuse to be there. Something that wouldn't reveal her true intentions- That she only wanted to be closer to. . . him.
Her eyes settled on the record player, and she ambled toward it. "I just came to get an album for Charlie." She said, hoping it sounded convincing.
"That's the only record player on the Island, Kate. Unless Sayid managed to turn a coconut and some wires from the fuselage into a stereo, I don't think it's gonna do Charlie much good."
Kate paused, glad that her face was turned away so that he wouldn't see the wince on it. She was good at lying. But when it came to him, he somehow always knew when she was being deceitful.
"Okay. You caught me. I just came to see how you were doing." She spoke a little breathlessly, and hoped it wasn't noticeable.
"You sound a little out of breath. Why don't come sit over here and let me look at you." Jack said, his brow crinkled in a look of worry.
Kate complied, biting her tongue to keep from saying what was on her mind. That she never really minded the doctor having a good look at her. She almost wished he'd open a free clinic under some palm fronds so she'd have an excuse for a physical. She grinned a little at the thought, and shifted uncomfortably in her seat.
"What's so funny?" Jack asked, one hand resting on her shoulder, the other with his penlight shining bright in her eye as he checked her pupils for dilation. He clicked it off, looking at her expectantly for an answer.
"Nothing. . . I was just. Thinking." Kate blushed, hoping he wouldn't ask about what. Instead he just stood there silently, his eyes almost out of focus, averted and looking off to the side. She watched intently. Again, he seemed to be wrestling with something inside. Some feeling, or perhaps even. . . some desire?
His hand still laid on her shoulder. It was so strong. So capable. Kate felt her stomach grow weak as she let in the growing impulse she'd been unable to deny since the first time she laid eyes on the doctor. There was something about him, something so strong. How he talked her through her worries, fears. Maybe it was just the bedside manner in him, but she didn't believe it. There was something more.
Something she could no longer deny.
In a swift motion, one she'd developed in her many scraps and run ins with law enforcement, she grabbed his forearm and, had it been an attacker, she surely would've flipped him to the ground and given herself leeway to escape. But instead, she twisted him down to her. Lips pressing to his in one smooth motion, hunger unabated finally given the chance for relief, she moaned against them and eagerly took his bottom lip between her teeth.
She kissed him for what felt like a lifetime, stars bursting in her belly, excitement swirling in her heart.
It took her a moment, caught up as she was, to realize that he was not kissing her back. She felt fire flush beneath her cheeks, though not for the reasons she had anticipated. Breaking contact, he recoiled from her, and she could not look him in the eye.
"Kate. . ." Jack began, though he couldn't find the words to finish it. And neither could Kate find the words to reply. A moment of awkward, terrifying silence, which seemed to last two lifetimes longer than either would have preferred.
"I'm sorry." Was the only words she could find to say. She didn't understand. Had she led herself on?
Another pause ensued, before Jack spoke again.
"Look. . . Kate. I'm sorry too. I've been so. Lost. Since the crash." He paused, brown furrowed in frustration, trying to find the words to ease what he was going to say. "I'd be lying if I told you that there wasn't some feelings for you."
At this Kate knew what was coming. She turned her head, blinking hard to keep the tears from falling.
"But there's. . . there's someone else, Kate. And I can't keep fighting it."
And so it was out.
Tears streamed openly now, as Kate simply nodded and rose from where she was sitting. She couldn't bear to look his way. Feeling only the brush of his shoulder as she pushed passed him and left the Hatch.
Jack watched as she fled. The heat from her lips still tingling on his own. But they weren't the lips he'd so long longed for.
And he couldn't keep denying it any more.
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