hey guys this is my very first story. I'm exited about this story please don't hate me I promise things will get better soon between Kurt and Blaine just hang on tight please. Also let me Clarify that in this story well not in this chapter but in future chapters Finn will be mentioned and yes HE IS ALIVE AND MARRIED RACHEL IN THIS STORY just making that clear. well guys ENJOY!
Chapter 1-[The Pain inside Me]
(Kurt's Flashback)
January 21, 2014 (Tuesday) [The Wedding]
"I do" I said
"Well by the power invested in and by the state of Ohio I now pronounce you husband and husband you may now kiss" said the minister
We shared our first kiss as a married couple like if there was no tomorrow and let me tell you it was magical…
End of flashback
December 1, 2023 (Friday) [Broken promises]
(Kurt's pov)
He's not coming I told myself.
It's almost 12 he promised to get home for dinner at 10. This was his 100th time making a promise and for the 100th time I believed him. He didn't even bother calling me this time.
Tonight was different I was planning on telling him the big news. You see earlier today I got an email telling me where next year's spring fashion show was going to be at and let me just tell you with two letters L.A.! I was so excited this is a huge career move for me. And I'm not just going to L.A. for the fashion show some designers in L.A. want me to stay there for 2 months to help them on their fashion lines giving me full credit on it. Not only will I get to meet some fashion designers in L.A. but they will help me get my name more out there.
After Blaine and I got married I got a job designing for the one and only Erica and Tom Hill Company. They are twins who are huge fashion icons worldwide. There designs are not only genius but drop dead gorgeous. The always told me that they loved my ideas and to release a clothing line so I did and let's just say it was a huge success and ever since then have been doing the fashion.
Blaine on the other hand got a job on a record studio. The owner was a friend of his fathers and gave him a good spot on the company. Luke knew how Blaine's dad treated Blaine so he always tried to be there for him. When Luke got diagnosed with kidney cancer and only had four months left to live he told Blaine that he would leave him the company.
At first Blaine didn't accept the offer because he felt like if didn't deserve such honor. But Luke kept insisting and insisting and insisting until Blaine finally accepted the job. He even let him change the name of the company as The Hummel-Anderson Record Studio.
When Luke passed away he became very dedicated to the company let's say a bit to dedicated. That's when most of the problems began Blaine would stay late working and I would stay up late waiting for him to get home. Then he started breaking promises he let's put tonight's dinner as an example he promised to make it on time for dinner but he didn't.
I got up from the chair I had been sitting for the past 2 hours like an idiot waiting for my husband to make it for dinner. I blew the almost finished candles and threw the food to the trash. I wasn't hungry anyway I told myself.
I then went to our bedroom where I sometimes spent endless night waiting for him like a sick puppy, put on my pajamas and did my night time ritual then headed to bed.
It was 3 am when he arrived the only reason I noticed was because I was hugging his pillow and he slowly took it away from me. The lights were off so he thought I was still asleep but in reality i didn't really sleep after that.
(Kurt's Flashback)
February 7, 2014 (Friday)
It was out first week in New York we had just come back from out 2 week honeymoon. Blaine began his job on Wednesday and I began mine on Thursday. We were eating some Pasta I made for dinner while Blaine was telling about his new co-workers.
"This is nice" I said
"What's nice" he asked
"The two of us having some dinner as a newlywed couple talking about our new jobs just you know being us" I said
"It is" he replied
"We should do this more often" I said
"Do what?" He asked
"You know have a dinner at least once a week" I said
"That would be perfect" he said giving we a sweet kiss on the lips
"Promise?" I asked
"Promise" he replied
End of Flashback
For the first years we kept our promise he slowly started miss one dinner then two then rarely attending them. At first I would allow it I mean it's his job right. I stopped eating dinner because it felt like if something was missing … Blaine was missing. To be honest I avoided eating period. I mean I would eat a salad or an apple before I left to work and then eat a granola bar or two at work but that was pretty much it. I felt fat, unwanted, unloved.
