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CLAIMER: ((I really do own all my mistakes because I'm not flawless and perfect like Jai Courtney is… but I really do love my imperfections))
FULL SUMMARY-Tris wakes up in her Abnegation bedroom with the full memory of the war but all is not what it seems and everything that she went through seems to not have happen…yet! (For everyone but her). What should she do? Should she follow the directions of the note that someone left on her pillow or should she do everything the same as she did before? Read and follow Tris as she unravels the mystery of her second chance at life…and love!
ENJOY!
Chapter 1|Tris
I feel as if my body has been through hell and back. Everything hurts like hell for a few minutes but then after I completely wake up; all the pain and sluggish feeling completely disappear.
I open my eyes at the sound of someone pounding on a door. I look around and see that I'm in my Abnegation bedroom. I'm on the floor and my room looks like someone has broke in and destroyed it. What the hell is going on?
My door flies open and my mother rushes in; wait my mother? She was shot and killed by sim induced soldiers! How could she be standing here as if nothing has happened? "Beatrice, what happened to you sweetie?" I shake my head and jump up from my position on the floor and rush over to her, pulling her into a probably way too tight hug.
"I don't know mom." My voice breaks as I squeeze her even tighter. "I think someone broke in; I don't know." Something is telling me to be careful of what I say to her when all I want to do is tell her everything, but it's as if nothing has happened and I'm getting a second chance at life.
"You look different; stronger and you cut your hair off!" She pulls me out of my room and down the hall. She punches in the code to the cabinet that holds our one and only mirror and looks at me expectantly. "Look." She points to the mirror.
I'm not shocked at what I see because it's how I've looked for a while now and my mother gives me a weird look. "You've been through this before haven't you? I don't know how but I can tell that you are dauntless like I was. Don't say a word just get dressed and get down stairs to breakfasting! I'll get your room cleaned while you are at school. And Beatrice, don't tell anyone anything you learn from here on out not even me because there are a lot of different people that could be capable of this but we have no clue as to who did this to you!" What the hell? My mother knows something but I can tell that she either isn't ready to share or she won't be sharing at all. "I'll tell your father and brother that I had to cut all your hair off shorter than it should be because you got it stuck, ok!" She pushes me back to my room. "I love you Beatrice." She kisses my cheek before she disappears down the hall, leaving completely and utterly confused. What in the crazy hell is going on? My mother knows more than she is letting on but she's not sharing her thoughts on purpose and for some strange reason I'm not really wanting to know the reality of the situation but at the same time I do; it's so damn confusing and unsettling!
When I walk back into my room I notice an envelope laying on my pillow, so I rush over and rip it open then fall to the floor as I read it.
Tris,
I know you're confused but you need to go through all this again to save us. Join Dauntless and befriend Eric; the two of you are the key to everything. Do anything and everything you can to get close to him and Tris I do mean ANYTHING! You Are Dauntless and I know you can do it. You have to! You're divergent so you can and will succeed if you are pushed in the right direction! You are strong, deadly, and fierce; so use it to your at vantage!
You have to forget all about Tobias; you are not meant for him. You also need to become ruthless, cunning and methodical just like Eric; he needs to trust you and you need to trust him completely! You both need to survive! Forget all about your friends as well; Eric is your only priority now! Save him and you will save us all.
Congratulations, you kill David but guess what; he had a backup to that out come much like my backup for your death. That's right, his lackeys brought him back so I did the same with you; but I was able to send you to the past to change things. So when you come to the Bureau you have to come with Eric, he will make all the difference!
Oh and you'll feel and be different but you need to let the changes occur, don't fight it Tris; it'll just make things worse!
Good luck and stay safe! (For all of us and our future)
Your one true friend on the outside…Mathew!
Mathew? How did he do this and why Eric? Why me? Does my mother know about the Bureau? What the hell is going on and what should I do? Tobias? What about Tobias; oh god I miss him! How will I let him go, should I let him go? I mean Mathew was the only part of the Bureau that I truly trusted; can I still trust him and with something this big? I have to! If I know David, we'll all die if I don't!
I still love Tobias, but somehow I feel like I don't know him the way I did, not the way I should. It's like I shouldn't know him at all or like I should forget him…I'm forgetting what we had and how he meant to me! God I'm utterly freaking confused! I want Tobias to hold me, love me as I love him. I want to feel his soft lips pressed to mine, comforting me like he always does, like I know he is capable of! How am I going to be able to let him go?
I'm such a mess, that all throughout breakfast I just stare off into space trying to come up with a plan, and the only one I can come up with is to give in and try to get close to Eric but that plan could backfire in my face, horribly. He did treat me like shit when I went through initiation the first time, but maybe if I show him that I can more than likely kick his ass now; he just might respect me and the strength that I know I have. I mean I have kicked Tobias' ass before, well, I held my own against him and Eric couldn't even do that the day Tobias shot him!
Why does it hurt so much to think of that day when Tobias "killed" Eric? Shit, it's like I'm not even me anymore! Is this what Mathew was talking about when he said that I would feel different? Oh god, it's like I care more for Eric than I do Tobias. Damn you Mathew! I don't want this!
"I burned that letter from your friend" My mother whispers while she dries the dishes. "I'm glad to know a friendly sent you back and not David but you really do need to listen and do what he said and don't fight it!" She smiles when I turn to look at her. "And no questions please, I'll tell you when you're ready."
"I don't know if I'm strong enough for this mom." I hang my head in shame. "I don't think I can do what I have to do…what needs to be done!"
"You can and you will Beatrice! You are very special and just like your friend; I have complete faith in you."
"My divergence" I shake my head. "I'll never -not be in danger- will I?"
"Something tells me that this young man Eric will and can keep you safe; but honey," My mom laughs lightly. "It also tells me that you are fully capable of keep him safe as well!"
I go over everything my mother said all morning and only a few things become certain! I may be completely confused and scared but I know that one; I need to hide my divergence a lot better this time around starting with Tori and the placement test and if I can't kill the dog in the sim this time around I'll need to get her to manually type in that I scored a dauntless aptitude! Two; No more selfless acts, I need to be mean and out for blood during training; I need to be just like Eric if I want him to treat me as an equal at least. It sucks but it has to be done, it's the only way, right! And Three; Tobias doesn't matter to me anymore; he's out of my reach now. I still know what and how I felt for him but that's just it, its past tense and Tobias Eaton is just another person to me now…Weird!
After breakfast Caleb and I make our way to the school in complete silence; mainly because I have nothing to say to the trader. I could kill him for all that he has done or hasn't done yet! He got our parents killed for crying out loud! God, it makes my head hurt so much as I try to understand what's happening to me or hasn't happened to me yet.
"What has you so quiet Beatrice? You haven't said two words to me all morning!" Caleb opens to door for me like he always did and smiles at me as I pass him to enter the school. "And how did you get your hair caught in the spring of the mattress?" He shakes his head like it couldn't possible happen.
"I somehow pushed my carrier under my bed and when I crawled under the bed to get it my hair got caught!" I lie with a shrug from my shoulders. "Hey Caleb" I stop him in the middle of the hall. "Can you remember something for me?" At his nod I continue. "Sometime knowledge can be maddening; it will make you do things you wouldn't normally do! I love you Caleb!" I turn quickly away before he can speak and begin to run down the hall. When I turn the corner I run straight in to someone's chest.
I hear a growl and strong hand on my arm. Before I can even process a single thought, I grab the hand and twist it in a painful way before pushing that person against the wall with my arm pressed to their throat. I look up and barely contain the gasp when I see Eric staring down at me with wide eyes but the strangest thing is the grin on his face.
"Wow" his smile grows as he eyes me. "I wasn't expecting that from a stiff!"
"Yeah well" I huff at the nick name and back away from him. "Looks can be deceiving." I want to laugh as he shakes out his hand but I don't.
"What's your name? You're clearly not a stiff, so I really can't call you that anymore!"
"Why are you here? You're clearly not a dependant!" I smirk at him.
"You didn't answer my question!" Eric steps forward in a menacing way but I stand my ground and I can tell he respects that.
"And I don't intend to!" I turn to leave but look over my shoulder and smile at him. "Yet" I wink before turning away from him. I hear him chuckle quietly as I continue down the hall to my first lesson.
That was kind of fun!
Ok so I've had this written for a while now; like almost a year, but it's been under construction for months because I'm lazy and had better things to do. Hope you all like it!
