Title: Everything Will Be Wonderful Someday
Author: Shalzi
Disclaimer: I do not own 7th Heaven.
Summery: Ruthie thought herself mature and did something stupid. But now she must face the consequences.
A/N: I will be summarizing every chapter. Feedback please.
Prologue
Ruthie sat on the floor of the bathroom, pulling her knees to her chest. The box said to wait for five minutes then check. She figured these would be the worst five minutes of her entire life.
The only person who knew about what was happening was her friend Sarah. In her mind, this was all Sarah's fault. She knew that not everything should be put on Sarah's shoulders, but she didn't want to blame herself yet. Sarah seemed like the reasonable person to point blame at. Ruthie didn't want to lie to her parents and go to that party, but Sarah convinced her to.
But as soon as Ruthie skipped her period, she went straight to Sarah. Sarah bought the test for her and gave it to her in school, away from everybody. She didn't say anything, making sure that no one had anything to hear. Then she walked away, smiling back at Ruthie.
Four minutes.
That night was interesting. Ruthie lied, claiming she and Sarah were going to a late night movie. After a while Annie and Eric broke down and said it was okay. That night Sarah picked her up and they went to the party. They agreed before they went in that there would be no drinking.
So she couldn't blame her choice on alcohol. She thought she was to mature for alcohol, and knew she shouldn't drink it. So maybe she thought she was mature enough for sex. Truthfully, she forgot what she was thinking during the moments leading up to it. She knew that she liked the guy and she knew he was a senior and being his girlfriend would give her major credits. She realized that he wanted sex the moment he touched her arm. Yet, she did and said nothing.
She liked being a virgin. The mere fact that she was a virgin made her feel special. She had something that belonged to her. She always dreamed that her husband would be her first. But when he touched her arm, she remembered thinking that he could be her husband.
Three minutes.
After the party, he blew her off. At school he pretended not to know her. She heard that he had another girlfriend a couple days later. She approached him once to talk to him and he told her he wanted nothing to do with her. She remembered crying after he said that. She gave herself up for a guy who wanted nothing to do with her. How could have she been so stupid.
Sarah told her that loosing her virginity was a step toward her finding herself. She said that Ruthie wasn't like her other siblings. She lived in an age where having sex was more important. Plus, a senior like Jimmy Ranks probably wouldn't brag about having sex with a sophomore. For the time being, her reputation was safe.
Two minutes.
"Sarah, my virginity was like my salvation," Ruthie said.
Sarah laughed. "Your salvation? Listen, Ruthie. Let your father be your pathway into heaven, okay? For now, be fifteen."
Ruthie wondered if being fifteen meant having sex. She always thought being fifteen meant being a kid. Have all the fun your parents wished they could have. But married adults are having sex. So maybe it wasn't really something to brag about. It wasn't about maturity or fun. How can something your parents be doing be considered cool?
"Exactly," Ruthie said. "I'm fifteen and I want to have fun. But I can have fun and not have sex."
One minute.
The moment of truth was so close to touch. Ruthie looked up at the sink where the test sat on the edge. She leaned her head against the wall. The steam from the shower was starting to bug her. She figured that would be a good excuse for her being in there for so long. She didn't realize how hot the bathroom would become.
30 seconds.
She began to stand up. As she stood in front of the mirror she glanced at herself. For this second, she was free. She didn't have a baby to worry about. She didn't have to worry about telling anyone. Once she looked at that stick she would either remain that way, or she would have to worry about everything.
Ready.
She flipped the stick over. Blue.
