I slumped down on the beach blanket, while L stared at me with a huge, smug grin on his face. I had given up being Kira, for reasons that I don't even fully understand yet. After capturing Higuchi, when my memories came back, they were not as welcomed as my previous self had expected them to be. So instead of killing Higuchi and keeping the notebook, I gave the notebook back to L. Though despite my efforts, it didn't get to him fast enough and when we both had our hands on the book, a scramble took place forcing the police to shoot Higuchi while the notebook was in my hands, giving me and L ownership.
And since he read the rules of the death note, and has talked to Rem, he knows we have to forfeit the book simultaneously. Which he refuses to do, as punishment. I did confess, I mean, why not? It's over anyway, case closed. I also gave him the information of where the other death note was located. So he has lost all maliciousness, he just wants to annoy me now.
Ever since the end of the Kira case, he has decided he needed a break from work, so he came to stay with us for a while. To show him the normal, family life I guess. And with his heaping pile of riches, he takes the task force, and sometimes their families, all on trips to places like the Great Wall of China and amusement parks. Today he decided it was a beach day, due to our being in America. We have come here to drive from California to the other side of the country. There was two cars, considering its only us task force members this time.
Now, sometimes these journeys are fun, but I never have anytime to myself anymore. I wish that L would understand that. I get that the task force members and I are his only true friends he can do this with…though I can't speak for the others, I personally need sometime to rest.
I'm exhausted, and kinda upset. I have spent the last few nights, sleepless, trying to figure out how I truly feel about L. And it doesn't help that now that the task force knows, they don't look at me right anymore, especially Matsuda and my dad. My dad is upset because he is my dad, and Matsuda had put so much faith in the fact that I was innocent and he truly believed it. I would join in, but i'm sure I would just ruin their time, so I sit here, miserable, watching them have fun.
Though, I wouldn't really wish I had made a different choice. They are here, alive having fun, smiling, with or without me. And that is worth it, because if I hadn't confessed and had killed Higuchi myself, they would all be dead, or at least L. So as long as they will have me I'll sit here, complaining, but in my head, grateful that they would even tolerate me.
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