CHAPTER 1
How can I describe this feeling? I feel so numbed. I don't know if I still have the ability to feel anymore. My most precious friend left me. Yes, he left me and went to another world. For short, he's dead. A lump formed in my throat as I thought of the word. How could he leave me? I thought we'll be together forever. But now, I'm standing here in front of his grave reminiscing every moment that we've been together before he died. Yes, even the moment he closed his eyes for the last time; I was with him watching as helplessly as his life slowly went out of his body in my arms.
He was so small the first time we saw each other. But the moment our eyes met, a bond had formed between us at once. I clearly remember it that time. It was my fifteenth birthday. I was just staring at the sky when everyone around me is having fun. Fun? I don't think I had any of it just before he came into my life. Then there I was, thinking that nothing that could happen will ever excite me, when he suddenly bounded into my arms. My eyes lit up as I look at him. His eyes were also twinkling when he look back at me. I seconds before his death, his eyes were still twinkling as he looked at me for the last time.
Well, after that day, there was never a moment that we were separated. We're always together even at sleep. He always sleeps with me at the foot of the bed. He always walks with me wherever I go. We always have fun and sometimes, cry together. Well, I do mostly of the crying, he was the one who always comfort me whenever that happens. But right now, I'm crying here so softly in front of his grave, and he's not here to comfort me anymore. And I'm dreading for the days to come that he's not together beside me.
Oh! Did I forget to mention? This paragon of a friend of mine is a...wolf. Well, I know that wolves are only kept in the royal palaces but this one, my friend chose me with all his heart. Even if I don't have any riches and my life is just so ordinary, and I have only but a few friends, he readily gave his heart and loyalty to me. He has a very shiny brown fur with streaks of black that I have always enjoyed brushing. Did I also forget to mention that he has very rich amber colored eyes? It's a very unusual color for a wolf, right? He's also always so attentive of me. No matter what I do, he knows it. Well, I can really feel it. He's always with me. I feel so protected and safe and contented in his presence.
Whenever my friends visited me and bring me with their usual walks and sometimes asked me to leave my wolf behind, I have very little choice but to oblige, with a very sunken heart and mood. My friends usually told me that if my wolf would be a person like us, then we'll really be inseparable. They even told me that whenever I talk of him, they can always feel that the clouds have descended around me. I seemed almost like floating with happiness whenever I mentioned him to them. But still, the feeling is not enough whenever he's not around. Well, I enjoy my time with my friends but with my wolf, I feel so elated that I could die with a smile on my lips. Hah! But thinking of it right now, he's the one who left me first. And I feel so empty inside because of it. I feel so abandoned, so hopeless, so...nothing.
Thinking those days made me feel like I'm just an empty shell right now. Moving and talking without any reasons. I know I should move on. But...I just can't do it. I felt that half of me have left with him when he died. To tell you the truth, even though he is a wolf, I can feel that he is the one for me, my soul mate, my other half. I can leave everything behind me just for him, even my life.
"How I wish you'll live again, my dear Syaoran," I said softly, tears again welled in my eyes as I lovingly stroke his grave. "I would gladly share my life with you. I'll give you half of my life, everything, as long as you'll live again and will stay here by my side. Our lives will be one, you and me. We will live together, and when the time comes, we will die together."
At those words, a soft breeze gently blew all around me, carrying a very sweet fragrance that I've never smelt before, and I heard a sound of small bells tinkling in a distance. My feelings lifted at the sound and the scent and the freshness of the breeze. Suddenly, I feel so happy, so hopeful. I don't know what will happen. But I can really fell that it is something very wonderful. I slowly stood up, brushing the tears that have fallen and a smile gently lit up on my face. Humming a song that my wolf and I usually shared, I went home with hope for the days to come.
wai!wai!here's me new fanfic!!!!!hope you'll like it....umm...but,,,i already have its ending,,but,,,i don't know what to write between them!!!!wah,,,,help me,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,anyway,,,,warning,,,,i guess, you still need to wait long for my next update,,,,im very sorry,,,,anyway,,,please review,,,and tnx for reading!!!!teehee,,,lots of thankies!!!n_____n
