Red Sun
Preface:
Life is full of complications, and I've had my fair share of them. Believe me
But I guess it's what you make out of them, for I cannot see what will happen next. But the pain out of remembering always comes back, and that of which would stay with me forever.
1. Thoughts
Nahuel and Huilen went out to hunt while I stayed inside.
"Is it time yet?" My father asked me through my head. Fortunately for dad, all my thoughts were easily connected even from such a long distance, great.
"I'll be the judge of that," I thought back. I had been away for almost 6 months now…
This was the first time dad had talked to me through our minds for about a week and a half now. Normally he could just see if I was fine or in trouble…in which he and the family would be here in no time. But as a parent should be, he was worried about me, and obviously so was everyone else, especially Jake and Matt.
I sighed, the reason I came to the Amazon in the first place.
I've learned a lot though; Nahuel and Huilen have told me a lot of stories. Huilen told me more about their mother and sister, Pire, and tried to describe me of her angel that helped conceive Nahuel. It was very interesting.
Most of my human features had gone away; I no longer eat human food as much, or breathe. The only main thing is that I still sleep like usual, other than that I was just a weird vampire. I sortof looked like a 15-16 year old as well, what is up with that?
I asked Nahuel if he had any of these features, and he said no. And that bothered me a bit. But I let it go eventually.
I thought they were too nice to me, letting me come here in the first place with no advance notice, respecting me with no detailed questions as to which I was here, homeschooling me as to which I was missing school. But I wanted to go back, I knew it was time. Jake and Matt would be waiting. Every day I thought about Jake, and less and less of Matt as the days dragged on.
Did I not like Matt anymore? He just seemed too normal for me.
I chuckled softly to myself, I missed Jacob so much. And for some strange reason that I didn't know, I thought about him kissing me, about us being together forever, like it really was meant to be.
I mean was it really any more necessary for me to cause him more pain , but I just didn't want to be with Matt…..and Edward knew.
Did Matt?
Jake has always been there, even though he loved my mom, that's something I will always be grateful for helping her, and especially for being there for me. I love Jake so much, and I know he loves me. Maybe this is the answer, and my problem solved, except with the fact of telling Matt.
This was going to be tough…But I knew that I'd be coming home soon.
"See you soon," I thought to my dad. And I drifted off into a deep sleep.
