So...yes. I wrote this poem like it was letter addressed to the object of my affections (who will NEVER receive it). Everything has been bad lately, and I've been really upset about it. So I've been expressing myself through poetry. Honestly I think this is terrible, but I like it anyway. It can be interpreted as a Teen Titan thing, if you really want, but I wrote it about him. So, here ya go.
There
never will be enough.
That's how I will begin.
I can't start to
tell you everything
Because it can't be told through pen.
There's
not enough ink in the world
To write what I want to say.
And
this crumpled piece of notebook paper
Is small, tattered and
frayed.
I could write novels, fill book after book
And even
then I would not be satisfied.
I can write for hours on end
About
how much I adore your eyes.
So forgive me for taking the easy
way out
I admit, it's the cowardly thing to do.
But the reason
it's written as opposed to spoken
Had nothing to do with
you.
Once I tried this face to face
The results were less
than stellar
And I was crushed, needless to say,
By his curt
and cold demeanor
I promised myself I'd never do this
again,
And for a while it worked out; True
I was living a lie
but I was happy in my solitude
Until I met you.
16 is a
funny age
Expected to be an adult, but never treated as one.
Asked
to do so much with so little in return
Told when to walk, then
chided when we did not run.
I'm rambling, I realize.
I
suppose I'm buying my time.
Part of me wants to spill
everything,
Part of my likes using rhyme.
But what I say
carries a weight
And it has rested on my shoulders for a while
I
break my back ten times a day
For the simplicity of your
smile.
I've had this conversation in my head
At least three
hundred times
But whenever I actually need it
I may as well be
a mime.
I know I'm dragging this out, I'm sorry,
There's
not much else I can do.
It's not the easiest thing in the world
To
say I'm in love with you.
Please don't be scared, please don't
run,
I use the "l" word with care.
And while it's
true it's quite enormous
I think it's the only word that
fairs.
It's probably not a shock to you
To hear this news
from me.
I'm told you've known for quite some time
While I
fuddled with my secrecy.
But it needed to be said
And I'll
continue my humiliation
To add another tidbit of opinion
Though
it is against my friends motivation
She's not who she appears
to be.
I don't want to use her name.
She manipulates everyone
and everything around her
And treats life like a game.
We
were both competing fiercely
It was moronic, I realize.
Yet
both of use vied to be the best
Because you were the first place
prize.
I suppose I could have beaten her
It's cocky, but
it's true.
I was meek, she was strong.
She was not intimidated
by you.
The guilt was overwhelming
"She's my friend!"
I would cry
I had to stop the silent battles
That occurred
between her and I.
None of that matters now really.
You
know how the story goes.
You two danced as I waited in the
wings
Desperately standing on my toes.
I hated every
moment.
Every glance, every smile, every stare.
You adored her
like nothing else
And I faded into the air.
I am a jealous
person
I admit this with a sigh.
But the jealously was
shattered
With every tear I cried.
And with a whim you
ended
Like the summer's warm embrace
And try as I may, I never
will purge my mind
Of that sorrowful look on your face.
That
was far worse than the previous month.
I cannot even explain.
I'd
gladly be miserable for the rest of my life
So that you would be
free of pain.
This is useless now, I know.
(By this point
I'm sure you're floored.)
But with everyday that flies away
I'll
love you even more.
Please don't let her hurt you.
Please
promise not to cry
Because every time I see you in pain
I feel
a piece of my die.
I'm not saying to shut her out.
Not by
any means.
She's perfect and you know it.
She's the cliché
girl of your dreams.
I will always be here,
Though it kills
me to see you two.
But I'll feign a smile and politely wave
And
pretend I don't love you.
So promise you'll be happy
That
is all I really want.
And I promise to love you forever
Whether
you notice or not.
