A/N Okay so umm this is a new fanfic from me, I hope you all like it. The title is taken from the song 'Mixtape by Butch Walker' The story is Naley, will be eventually so don't despair lol you just have to keep on reading I guess. It's definitely AU, umm I don't any of the OTH characters but the plots mine blah blah blah umm that's it I think. It's a little different than what I normally do but I hope it's good non the less anyways please let me know what you think because that's how I'll only know whether I should continue or not. So anyways enjoy and reviews make me more than happy! So don't forget to do that ;)

My Carcrash of a Heart

One- Never Forget

Nathan Scott just lay there gazing around the unfamiliar room. Some random girl sprawled out beside him, he did'nt even remember her name. Or he probably did'nt ask for it. That was what he did now though, he just found random girls, even if they would never ever measure up to her. He honestly had no idea why he did it, it was just an escape. His weekly routine, get smashed then have sex with the next girl he saw. Then in the middle of the night he would just sneak out. He never wanted to be with them the morning after, there was only one girl he would do that for and well now she was gone.

He continued to lay there. Just thinking. Mostly about her, he never talked about her he just thought about her.

Whenever anybody saw him these days they all noticed the differences in him. They noticed how he seemed so tired all the time, how his crystal clear blue eyes had lost that familiar shimmer that was once held there, how his beautiful smile was lost, replaced by a smirk. He never did smile anymore, he had not smiled a real smile for the past two years. Anybody that saw him, whether that anybody was a person who he was familiar with or just a stranger that passed him on the streets could see he had not gotten over her yet. They all knew their "love story" practically the whole town knew. They used to be the schools golden couple, like they we're celebrities. Everyone looked at them every single day. Everyone envied them, envied their unbreakable bond, envied their unbelievable romance. The most beautiful girl in the school and the most handsome boy. It was a match made in heaven. Almost.

It had started when she had moved to Tree Hill. Nathan had been intruiged, he knew he had to get to know this girl. The first time he saw her was at his brothers mothers cafe. She had been laughing with some friends, just looking like she was having fun. Looking amazingly beautiful to him, he had never seen anything or anyone more beautiful than her. Ofcourse after the summer had ended and they had started back school he approached her. That was when it all started, after that nothing could tear them apart. Or so they thought.

Nathan shook his self out of the memories, he knew he had to get back home now. He slowly and quitely climbed off the bed careful not to wake the sleeping girl beside him. Quickly and expertly he first grabbed his boxers followed by his jeans pulling them up. As he did so something fell out of his pocket. He cursed to himself leaning down to pick it up, it was his wallet. As he did though something fell out of it, a picture. Of her. A picture of that girl. That girl who had left his heart shattered when she left him. He traced his fingers over her beautiful feautures, her dark brown hair, her deep dimpled smile. That was all he had left though, he would never ever see that huge smile she wore. The special smile she carried just for him, the way she would flash her dimples and the way her hazel eyes would sparkle lovingly.

He knew he would never forget her, he could never forget her but he knew one day he had to move on. That could not stop him from remembering her though, remembering that his best day and his worst day had been with her. His best day being when they had declared their love for each other it was just perfect. Like the love you only see in movies, soulmate type of love. And the worst, the worst day being when she had gone. In his arms, she had just lay there, him trying to be as strong as he could. Everyone had left them be even her parents had understood that her last few minutes had to be spent with him. As soon as a single tear rolled down his cheek she just smiled at him and wiped it away softly. He could'nt help the choked sobs that escaped his throat, he sat there rocking her in his arms repeating "I love you, I love you so much" over and over again. Making sure that she would never forget his love for her, that even when she was gone she would always remember the unbelievable love that he held for her. She had grabbed his face in her small hands and told him that she did not want him to wallow in misery, and that he had to find someone else who would make him happy. Somebody who he could make happy too like he had done with her. He had just nodded his head and then after she whispered those three magical words she just closed her eyes and was gone. Gone for forever.

It had been cancer and once they had found out about it there was nothing the doctors could do except let her spend her last few months with the ones she loved with all of her heart.

Nathan sighed yet again and with one last glance at the picture he gently placed it back into his wallet, pulling on his shirt and tying his shoes he walked out of the door. He would never forget her, but he knew she was right. There would be someone else for him even if it was really painful to think about. She was right though, she had always been right. He would never forget her. He would never forget the only girl he had loved, Brooke Davis.

To be continued…

A/N Sooo there was the first chapter please tell me what you thought, constructive criticism is appreciated but just don't be too mean okay thanks guys! Oh and don't start freakin' out 'oh no it's not Naley! Coz he loves Brooke soooo sooooooo much' Remember shes dead we always get our Naley huge spoiler there hehe R&&R!

Love,

Fatima