Amy's Reflections

I thought you had finally changed yourself

How could I have been such a fool?

I thought you had honestly felt something

I realize now that I was just a tool.


And yet a lingering thought persists

Refusing to leave my mind.

When you looked at me atop the mountains

Your eyes were nothing but kind.


You left us to die and caved us all in

Dan, Alistar, and me.

Clearly your heart hadn't wavered at all

But why does my heart disagree?


When you leaned in and brushed your lips against mine

And disappeared just as quickly into the dark

When you protected me with your arms as the wall gave away

There was something between us, a flash or a spark.


I can pretend it didn't happen as much as I want

But the truth remains that it was clearly there.

I can't pretend that you didn't feel the link too

Or that you had never shown genuine care.


Tears streak past my face, flowing freely now

I had long given up trying to hold them in

I know for sure you feel what I feel for you

But you couldn't pick me over your kin.


This is a very harsh world we live in indeed

Where lives are pushed aside for 39 Clues.

Perhaps under other conditions, in other times,

I'd be someone you couldn't bear to lose.


How can you hurt me so much, without even trying?

Why does it ache to even hear your name?

How can you affect me so much, without doing anything?

How did my heart ever race before you came?