I Won't Go Home Without You

I was stupid I let her just walk out the door, I didn't even try to stop her. Then I didn't even open the door. I was mad, mad at her, mad at myself, mad at the situation. Now here I am five months later and were still not back together. I tried to talk to her. I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen. I just wanted to talk and try to work things out but she left before I had a chance to say the words that would mend the things that were broken. I need to tell her how much I love her and that I am nothing without her but now it's far to late she's gone away. But that doesn't mean I was going to give up. I mean come on, I asked Jade out for a month straight before she said yes.

I was going to make her talk to me no matter what. I grabbed my keys, ran out of my RV and to my car. I arrived at Jade's house, as I walked up to her front door I had butterflies in my stomach. I really didn't know what was going to happen, how she was gong to react. I knocked on the door.

As soon as she opened the door she took on look at me and frowned. "What do you want?" She said bitterly.

"I want to talk to you."

"I don't want to talk to you." She went to close the door but I put my hands up against it to stop her.

"Just listen to me Jade please."

She let go of the door, sighed, and put her hands on her hips. "You have one minute Oliver."

That hurt a little bit. When did I become so low on her chain that she calls me by my last name. That was saved for people she didn't like, like Tori. "I was stupid, it was a mistake and I'm sorry. Please just give me one more chance?"

"Your time is up Oliver, now leave." She opened the door and motioned with her hands for me to get out.

"Every night you cry yourself to sleep."

She froze. "No I don't." She said firmly.

"Yes you do."

"What are you, stalking me?"

I had to laugh a bit, that's not the first time she's asked me that. "No, I'm not stalking you."

"Then how would you know if I cry myself to sleep every night?" She crossed her arms over her chest.

"Because I cry myself to sleep every night."

She looked at me with her big blue gorgeous eyes, wide.

I took at step closer to her. "Why does every moment have to be so hard?" I took another step closer to her. "Hard to believe it, it's been five months without you."

She broke our gaze and took a step back. "It's over."

"It's not over tonight just give me one more chance to make this right. I may not make it through the night. I won't go home without you."

She stared at me, her mouth slightly open. I grabbed her hand and led her out of the house. To my surprise she followed.

The drive to my RV was silent. She was staring into the night lights. Once inside the RV we stood there awkwardly.

"I'm sorry Jade, I love you and only you." Before I knew it she was crying and she kissed me. The kiss was passionate. I took her to the bed and laid her down. We made love that night with so much passion and longing.

She laid next to me sleeping. It's the little moments like this that I've missed the most. The taste of her breath, I'll never get over and the noises that she made kept me awake. All those month that we went without talking, well talking about anything important at least, it was like the weight of the things that remained unspoken built up so much it crushed us everyday.

Jade shifted awake beside me. She looked up at me with a small smile on her face. Man I've missed that look. It's a look only I get to see.

"Of all the things I've felt, I've never really showed, perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go. I should not ever let you go." I said cupping her face to look at me.

"It would be a wise decision." She quickly kissed me and laid her head back on my chest.

Yep I've definitely learned from my mistakes.