Cut Up
Carlisle throughout is slightly (extremely) occ but I tried to keep true to themes of the film/book none of the characters are mine and neither is the franchise all rights go to Stephanie Meyer.
Thanks' to my amazing beta Kira for putting up with my insecurities! Luv you so much!
Love Bilbo XXX
They sing my praises the rest of them, a never ending hum in my ear. Oh I wouldn't complain ever. To their faces, away from it all though I wonder where their ideas came from. After years of being alone yes I did want and I do believe need the company that friends provide but to think I had never fed off a human preposterous.
Oh yes I am well behaved but like the others I am not unbreakable they just have never seen me go wild lost in a haze of bloodlust and anger. Anger at my human life what a lost sense of time, no mother I can deal with but a father like that….well I can happily say I would have been better off without. I would not be what I am not mentally the man they all know and not physically the monster that laughs in the face of humanity.
The night of this event could be no less and no more than what we made it to be, well Esme said she wanted the party to go off with a bang well it did the piano made a loud enough noise as it was destroyed. So I hope she's happy, I do truly love Esme but sometimes I feel that the woman can become slightly blinded by what we truly are. So desperate is she to have the family she couldn't have in her lifetime, a horrible thing to say but I am a doctor I am used to saying such things to those who truly don't want to hear it.
Bella did she truly believe that we are as harmless as Edward makes us out to be? And bless her no I believe that she will never be graceful or any more than the hapless heroine role she plays with such conviction! Ha sometimes she makes me wish I could still weep just to show my true amusement to the situations she gets into. But I can't so here I stand trying not to speak with the girl until her arm is sown up but still she refuses to take the hint as she continues to spill her problems to me I want to help but it's been so long since my control last slipped and I feel it slipping from me now.
Bella sits upon my desk her heart aflutter the leftover adrenaline still coursing through her veins its almost funny there's no one to protect you now. But no one would fear me sweet old Carlisle could never hurt anyone could he? Well guess what he can and he will. Just not here, no never near the ones I hold closest they will be spared from my rage.
We will leave soon it will be "Edwards idea" because no matter how long he uses his power for he will never realise his ideas are influenced by thoughts that others keep at the back of their minds for a long time. So I put the idea there like a whisper of a thought as you fall asleep at night, only a passing thought but one that strikes a chord within its thinking and so my thought for my poor son was "We don't belong for we are monsters". It haunted his thoughts for practically no time at all before it took hold of his brain, we leave tomorrow a slight amount of time earlier than Edward himself because he wants to tell Bella just before we leave so he doesn't give himself time to change his plans.
I will let myself be free when we finally arrive, and then those that cross my path will see the wrath of Carlisle Cullen.
