God Put A Smile Upon Your Face

Rating: G
Song: Coldplay – God Put A Smile Upon Your Face


Where do we go, nobody knows
I've got to say, I'm on my way down
God give me style and give me grace
God put a smile upon my face

Mulder felt the thoughts rage in his mind, the turmoil taking its toil. His life's work was being put to an end, and all he could do was watch it happen. His world was being torn apart without the slightest shred of pity or regret.

Where do we go to draw the line?
I've got to say, I wasted all your time, honey honey
Where do I go to fall from grace?
God put a smile upon your face

It was time to throw in the towel. The X-Files were being shelved, and there was nothing he could do. He had spent years convincing Scully that their work was important, that what they did might one day save the world. In the end, it was all irrelevant. Nothing mattered anymore. All of their hard work had been for nothing. Everything was crashing down. He wasn't bitter, he was simply outraged. They had been so close…

He wasn't naïve. He knew there was nothing left for the two of them. They had worked long and hard, suffered every fate imaginable, but in the end, they had ended up empty-handed.

And ah, when you work it out I'm worse than you
Yeah, when you work it out I wanted to
And ah, when you work out where to draw the line
Your guess is as good as mine

But he couldn't let her give up. He wouldn't. She had so much to live for. She had a loving family. She had a respectable career ahead of her. She had been happy long before they had met, and she would be happy still. With or without him.

Where do we go, nobody knows
Don't ever say you're on your way down when
God gave you style and gave you grace
God put a smile upon your face

The places they had gone, the things they had seen, no one could take that away from them. They had been on the verge of discovering the truth. He wondered if he would still be able to find the answers he sought.

And, when you work it out I'm worse than you
Yeah, when you work it out I want it too
And, when you work out where to draw the line
Your guess is as good as mine
It's as good as mine
As good as mine

But he knew he needed Scully to help him. She balanced his persistence and fervour. She had kept him from crossing the line, saved him from losing himself time and again. She had been his partner in every sense of the word.

Where do we go, nobody knows
Don't ever say you're on your way down when
God gave you style and gave you grace
And put a smile upon your face

He knew he couldn't live without her, but she deserved more than this. She deserved more than what he had to offer; he had nothing. He had been blessed by her presence for the few years they had, but it was time for them to both move on.

He needed to know that he could move on.