Words for My Lover
Cruel words spill from my mouth
I try to stop them coming
But still they flow
Like blood from an open wound
Only the one being hurt is you
I'm wounding you.
Gouging out a hollow place in your heart
Wounds that may never heal.
No longer a replacement
The hurt, beautiful face of my lover
Stares mournfully at me
With sorrowful violet eyes
Full of confusion and pain
Shining in the dark.
I tell myself that I hurt you because I love you.
Trying to push you away.
I tell myself that it's to protect you
So you don't become like me
A hollow empty wreck.
But deep down
I know
I hurt you to protect myself.
I can't bear to be hurt again
I'm weak.
Watching the small back of my lover leaving the room
Shoulders drooped, quivering
I want to reach out
Tell you to stay.
I don't want to make you suffer
I just can't help myself
Acting on instinct
From this concrete wall
Around my damaged heart.
Selfishly separating myself from you
To try and ease the pain
But I only cause more
All for a memory
Haunting me for eternity
And I know you could heal the scars
That the memories have carved.
If only I would open up to you.
You could stop the pain.
Both mine, and yours.
But I'm selfish.
I don't want to reopen old wounds
For the sake of a new life
And for my selfishness
We both must suffer.
A/N: gahh i wanted to put paragraphs in this. but noooo it wouldnt let me _ i TRIED to like two or three times but it jus didnt work... anyway i wasnt originally gonna put paragraphs but my mate told me to so... anyway this is like the first thing i wrote that i actually liked, so i thought i would put it up. please review to tell me what you think ^_^
