Hi guys, surprise return! Firstly I want to apologise for being so MIA and not really responding to messages, but I will get better.
So I am trying something new, a contemporary Romance that's rated MA, just a warning there will be a lot of swearing and not very good language, you have been warned.
In this prologue Rose and Dimitri are 17/18 of age, just a heads up.
I will post the first chapter tomorrow, but now, enjoy the prologue!
Rose
"You're Leaving?"
The anger in his voice was like a burning slap in the face. Venom dripping from each word that left his lips and I was just waiting for the stinging pain to consume me.
I hated when anyone was angry with me. But this? This is worse. You know that horrible feeling in your stomach when you're fighting with your best friend? It feels like nothing will even be good again until you've gotten over this?
I'm fighting with my boyfriend, who is also my best friend. And to be honest, I couldn't blame him for it. I think I'm still in shock.
Staring hard onto the pavement, I was trying so hard not to cry, I was biting the inside of my cheek trying to pull myself together. In an attempt to avoid his gaze, I looked to my side, not saying anything.
"Aren't you going to say something?"
The way he snapped at me, forced me to look at him. He was standing a few yards away. He had taken a good few steps back when the words had left my mouth. My father had gotten a sudden opportunity in London and we were leaving early tomorrow morning.
"What do you want me to say Dimitri?" I said feeling emotionally drained, "I found out half an hour ago, I'm still in as much shock as you are. It's all booked, it's done, I have to go with them" I said trying to plead my case, he just shook his head with a disgusted look on his face. "So you just pack up your shit and go?"
We never argued. We had been one of those couples who barely did, sure we bicker but who doesn't?
He was never disrespectful, he was more of a gentleman than anyone I had ever known. If we argued about anything it was mainly stupid. What we have is gold, I just didn't see how I was going to fix this.
Anger was sparking within me, "You know about my relationship with my parents, how close we are? I can't just leave without them-"
"But what the fuck about our Relationship Rose? Huh? Did you think about that?" Raising his voice as he spoke, he was shouting at me now. Jumping slightly as he interrupted me, I was just staring at him. How could he even think that I didn't care?
"You think I don't care?" My voice cracked as I spoke. "You don't think I care about us? You think that I just want to leave? That the last years didn't mean shit to me? Because if you do then you don't know me at all Dimitri Belikov" The tears were at the brim now, I was trying so hard to sounds angry but my throat feeling tight.
Turning around he groaned as he ran both his hands through his hair. "Don't you fucking dare start crying on me Rose, you're the one hurting me" he said through his teeth turning back shooting me glares.
A angry tear escaped and ran down my cheek, "You think this is easy for me?" I raised my voice, "Goddamn it Dimitri, I'm in as much of a shock as you are! I had no clue what do to, I came to you first, I-"
"Is that suppose to make me feel better?" He spat, "Oh I'm so pleased you came to me first, not a whole fucking month ago when you probably heard about it first!" The sarcasm in his voice made me want to slap him.
"I just found out!" I screamed, "You don't think I'd tell you? What would I get out of keeping this to myself? I have never ever lied to you Dimitri. This affects me just as much as it affects you! What am I suppose to do?"
"Stay!" He shouted as if it was painfully obvious. He knew as well as I do that wouldn't happen. He could see it just by looking at me.
I love Dimitri with everything in me, but I couldn't stay here and have my parents leave without me. I have never been on my own? My parents are like my friends, embarrassing friends, but I love them just as much as I love Dimitri.
"Of course you won't" he said laughing bitterly, "I was never as fucking good as your parents-"
"Stop it" I growled. My fists clenched against my sides. Dimitri wasn't one to swear, neither was I, so hearing all these F words was making more of an impact than I wanted it to.
"What? You want me to be happy for you? Happy that you get to travel across the planet and not sure when or if I'll ever see you again?"
His words was shutting me up. I didn't want to leave him. Dimitri was my world, our friendship started ages ago. In a poor way I was trying to make it better and said, "You will see me again" I'm not sure if I was convincing him or myself, "It's only for a year-"
"Don't!" he said holding his hand up, "Don't even try that shit, because we both know the second you leave this" pointing between the two of us, "this is over"
It was like he had kicked me in the stomach as soon as those words left his lips. He was turning away from me, pacing back and forth. A tear fell down my cheek, I came closer to him as I was holding back sobs, "Dimitri I-I"
"No, no" He roared moving again from me, "You did this! Don't think you get to comfort me and then just drop of the face of the earth" He growled. I was trying to reach out for him but he was moving my hand away from him. His glare pinned me down, he had never looked that way at me before, "You're the one who's leaving, so fucking leave!"
"You don't mean that" I said through my teeth as tears were streaming down my face. I felt breathless, like my head was spinning, I couldn't fill my lungs with enough air to keep myself steady. I've done this, but how come it feels like he's the one with the power? Like he' the one ending it with me? He's angry, he doesn't mean it. He doesn't mean it! I kept telling myself over and over. "Dimitri you don't mean tha-"
"Fuck off" he hissed shooting me the deadliest glare. Gasping, I felt like his words physically forced me to take a step back. His eyes were venom and fire.
I have had people being angry with me before. But when the love of your life is looking at you like you don't mean anything, like you're dead to him? I couldn't handle that.
Turning around quickly, I ran, I ran as hard and as fast as I could. My tears were everywhere, I could barely see. Trying to dry them away I stumbled but didn't fall. Sobbing I felt like I couldn't get enough air in my lungs. I was trying to breathe heavier but it didn't work.
My mind was going five hundred miles an hour. Maybe if I ran fast enough I could run away from what had just happened and I could have a do over? He couldn't mean what he just said. You don't just throw something like what we had away! Why couldn't he understand that I didn't have a choice?
My tears were blurring my eyes, in an attempt to dry them away I stumbled again, but this time I fell to my knees. The pavement felt rough against my knees. Crying out I rolled over feeling a burning sensation on my knees.
Covering my face all I could do was cry. Sobbing I screamed out in frustration.
I couldn't get up.
I didn't have any reason to get up anymore.
Any thoughts and feedback is welcomed :) I will be posting chapter 1 tomorrow.
Lot's of Love x
